EPTJust wanted to give a little update from my previous girl blogs.
Long story short for new readers; I got heartbroken.. badly.. haha..
Became depressed and sought out a counsellor and to be honest, the thought of her has crept into my heard every single day since the last time I saw her (almost half a year ago). But it no longer makes me sad. It's just... an uncontrollable image that pops up.
Anyway;
I remember seeing a quote from Fight Club
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"It's only once we've lost everything; that we're free to do anything"
After finally being able to get up and out from under my blanket and bed, I started basically saying "YES" to everything.
Dance classes? Yes
Skating lessons? Yes
Acting in a play? Yes
Playing a sport I've never played before and with a team? (Volleyball) Yes
Riding the biggest roller coaster available in my city WITH my hands up in the air? Yes
Skydiving..? Yes
I was really sad in the moment of doing some of these things but when I look back at what I've done during the last few months.. I actually smile thinking about how I wasn't scared to participate in certain things anymore.
For example skydiving and riding a rollercoaster with my hands in the air. That may be nothing for some of you guys but for me.. I'm terrified of both things... but there was a thought in my head that I didn't care about... life anymore.. Not that I wanted to kill myself but at the moment, I remembered thinking.. "I just don't care anymore.. let's just do this"
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But once it started, I had the most fun ever..
I noticed a lot of girl blogs as always.. in the blog section of the site and I just wanted to say to anyone who's going through a rough patch right now that.. you're not alone. Whether it was your fault you're going through a break up.. or you were blind sided... it doesn't matter.
Breakup pain is breakup pain..
But there's beauty in this type of darkness.
Just like a bow and arrow. You have to be pulled back in order to be shot a long distance.
Use this momentum.. and just say yes;;; Put yourself out there even if you are still depressed. Just keep going.. keep pressing play, keep pressing play..
Even though my experience wasn't as nice as this videos... I really hope you guys try skydiving out. It's a memory I won't forget. =)
