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spbelky
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
United States623 Posts
December 06 2011 14:59 GMT
#1
http://spbelky.wordpress.com/2011/12/06/belky-blog-5-cookies-for-breakfast/

Cookies is not breakfast... + Show Spoiler +
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9F7ijiMaxs for anyone not getting the reference


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For some reason my girlfriend and I have taken to this little boy, and now turn almost everything in to Books for Christmas memes.  Thus, "Cookies? for bweakfast? Cookies is not bweakfast..."  If you haven't guessed yet, I baked cookies for breakfast.

Anyway it's been a while since my last post, so here I am.  With the exception of the past three days, I've been in kind of a slump the past two weeks.  Sometimes all I want to do is lay in bed all day and sleep / watch movies / do lazy things.  Sounds a bit depressing, but it's not.  It is however, unproductive.  So the past three days I've spent a lot of time finding jobs and then writing letters and submitting applications.  I've also spent the last WEEK trying to fix my sleep schedule.  I have a really bad habit of staying awake for far too long, just because I don't want to sleep, and then it takes an entire week for get back to normal.  Even now, I wouldn't say I'm back to normal, as "normal" for me has never been waking up at 7am, as I did today.

Finding a Job
There was a statistic on the news not too long ago that some ridiculous percentage (higher than 50%) of people between 18 and 25 are unemployed.  I don't think I've specifically addressed it on here, but if you haven't guess, I am unemployed.  I spent some time working as a temp at a law firm, but I don't consider temp work as real employment.  It's not hard to find a job, it's hard to find a job you want (and aren't overly qualified for).  Ideally I'd like to work as an HR assistant at a law firm, bank, or tech start-up. Law firms and banks simply make a shit ton of money, and a tech start-up would be a directly enjoyable quality of life (instead of a monetary one).  So far I haven't had a ton of luck finding a job.  I had an interview at a tech start-up The Stack Exchange, but it didn't go so awesome.  And the guy was a prick.  In any case, hopefully I hear back from the jobs I applied to recently.

The other half of finding a job for me is the battle between what is traditionally acceptable in my family and what I really (secretly?) want to do.  Of course I'm talking about StarCraft.  You didn't think I'd make a post without bringing up StarCraft did you? mwahahahaa.  My real dream job is doing something in e-sports, but I don't know how to explain that to my family.  I think I'd make the best fit as a commentator or host.  My knowledge of the game is among the best, my actual skill at it is in the top 1% (but still not good enough to go pro, lol), and my best quality has to be my personality.  There are plenty of people out there that are good at StarCraft, but how many of them have my nerdy charm, or aren't socially awkward (I feel bad saying it, but most of them are).

My parents know I play StarCraft and that I love the game.  They also know that I've been really in to video games since forever.  They also have always allowed me to be very independent and given me a lot of freedom.  But they're pretty old school, to be blunt.  They have a combined 50 years of military service, and my mom has spent more time in school than anybody I know and now they work in midtown, my father at one of the largest international law firms in the world and my mom at JPMorgan Chase.  My mom's yearly bonus is more than most of my friend's annual household income.  They sent me to school so I could get a job they understand and can brag about at work, "oh yes my son just graduated and now has a job over at BLAH".  And that BLAH needs to be something their peers will recognize, a real name of a real company, and I don't think MLG or IGN would be satisfactory.  Even then, MLG/IGN are BEST case scenarios.

ugggh too many cookies...

It really shouldn't be an issue for me to present how I feel directly to my parents, but I fear they won't take my intentions seriously.  And maybe they shouldn't?  Why should they take me seriously if I'm not taking myself seriously.  Working in e-sports is my dream job, in every sense of the word.  It is something I dream and wish for, but what have I done to make that dream a reality?  Dreams don't just come true to those who are dreamers, they come true to those who are doers.  And quite frankly, I haven't done anything.  I don't even have a PLAN to do anything.  Unless you pursue your dreams, all the wishing, wanting and dreaming in the world won't make them come true.  You have to take action.

So now I have to ask myself, is this dream job something I really want to achieve? or is it just something I enjoy daydreaming about.  I think it's that uncertainty that is holding me back.  How can I expect to motivate myself when I'm so uncertain?  I'm uncertain about whether I really want an HR job, but the motivation is my parents breathing down my neck every day.  Why can't I motivate myself to strive for my dreams?


If you made it this far, congrats on reading the rants of an unemployed 23yr old college grad living at home who still has mommy/daddy issues. Hopefully you can relate or at least be entertained.

As always, I'll try and remember to update my blog here on teamliquid, but I'd greatly appreciate if you view and possibly follow my blog @ http://spbelky.wordpress.com/
or twitter @spbelky
<3

*****
cmen15
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
United States1519 Posts
Last Edited: 2011-12-06 15:05:24
December 06 2011 15:05 GMT
#2
You need to work on your cookie making skills i think <3
Greed leads to just about all losses.
blubbdavid
Profile Blog Joined February 2010
Switzerland2412 Posts
December 06 2011 15:07 GMT
#3
I am watching "Kid slaps his mother on Dr. Phil" right now.
What do you desire? Money? Glory? Power? Revenge? Or something that surpasses all other? Whatever you desire - that is here. Tower of God ¦¦Nutella, drink of the Gods
JonnyLaw
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
United States3482 Posts
Last Edited: 2011-12-06 15:09:40
December 06 2011 15:07 GMT
#4
Occupy cookie street obviously Belky.

On another note.

my best quality has to be my personality


That could be true as soon as you accept + Show Spoiler +
terran imba Sam
.

edit - Also good luck on the job hunt dude. I was not satisfied with the string of boring jobs I moved through post graduation. I eventually found a job where I get to work 90% of my hours from home. It's a great gig for people who enjoy games.
Lexpar
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
1813 Posts
December 06 2011 15:12 GMT
#5
Hey, I'd like to hear your commentating! You say in your post its your ideal job and you've got a great knowledge of the game- make a few videos!

I'm always really happy to hear commentators who know about the game- I hate listening to commentators who repeat the same dozen jokes every game because they don't know what they're talking about. Common man, make some vids!
DusTerr
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
2520 Posts
December 06 2011 16:14 GMT
#6
Why can't you work a 9-5 day job and start casting on the side? Even if you did instantly get a job as a professional analyst/caster how far would this "job" take you? Do you think Nick and Dan are going to be casters 10 years from now? (And realistically, if they are what does that mean about opportunities for others if they're still getting all the major gigs?).

So again, get a real job now. Make casting and playing your hobby and see how far you can take your passion. I'm a full time student right now and I'd also love to be involved in eSports. For now, I volunteer my time at local LANs and tournaments backstage.
spbelky
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
United States623 Posts
December 06 2011 16:19 GMT
#7
On December 07 2011 01:14 DusTerr wrote:
Why can't you work a 9-5 day job and start casting on the side? Even if you did instantly get a job as a professional analyst/caster how far would this "job" take you? Do you think Nick and Dan are going to be casters 10 years from now? (And realistically, if they are what does that mean about opportunities for others if they're still getting all the major gigs?).

So again, get a real job now. Make casting and playing your hobby and see how far you can take your passion. I'm a full time student right now and I'd also love to be involved in eSports. For now, I volunteer my time at local LANs and tournaments backstage.


Well that's exactly what my plan is right now, get a 9-5 real job now, and do what I like on the side. The problem is, I feel like if I truly want to pursue this, I'd make it a full time commitment, spending the majority of my day producing content like lessons, replay casts, ladder practice streams, etc.

What you say is quite true, but I'm just a bit torn right now.
emperorchampion
Profile Blog Joined December 2008
Canada9496 Posts
December 06 2011 16:35 GMT
#8
On December 07 2011 00:05 cmen15 wrote:
You need to work on your cookie making skills i think <3


Disregard this, those look delicious.
TRUEESPORTS || your days as a respected member of team liquid are over
Cambium
Profile Blog Joined June 2004
United States16368 Posts
December 06 2011 16:37 GMT
#9
why don't you just ask your parents for some help
When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.
Stratos
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
Czech Republic6104 Posts
December 06 2011 17:18 GMT
#10
On December 06 2011 23:59 spbelky wrote:
My real dream job is doing something in e-sports, but I don't know how to explain that to my family. I think I'd make the best fit as a commentator or host. My knowledge of the game is among the best, my actual skill at it is in the top 1% (but still not good enough to go pro, lol), and my best quality has to be my personality. There are plenty of people out there that are good at StarCraft, but how many of them have my nerdy charm, or aren't socially awkward (I feel bad saying it, but most of them are.

No idea who you are but what an awesome way to show your best quality.
En Taro Violet
Newbistic
Profile Blog Joined August 2006
China2912 Posts
December 06 2011 17:23 GMT
#11
On December 07 2011 00:05 cmen15 wrote:
You need to work on your cookie making skills i think <3


The cookies look fine.

If you want them to turn out circular, just make sure that your dough balls are roughly circular before they go into the oven. It makes a big difference.
Logic is Overrated
Lexpar
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
1813 Posts
December 06 2011 17:45 GMT
#12
On December 07 2011 02:18 Stratos wrote:
Show nested quote +
On December 06 2011 23:59 spbelky wrote:
My real dream job is doing something in e-sports, but I don't know how to explain that to my family. I think I'd make the best fit as a commentator or host. My knowledge of the game is among the best, my actual skill at it is in the top 1% (but still not good enough to go pro, lol), and my best quality has to be my personality. There are plenty of people out there that are good at StarCraft, but how many of them have my nerdy charm, or aren't socially awkward (I feel bad saying it, but most of them are.

No idea who you are but what an awesome way to show your best quality.


yeouch! You gonna hang a brother out to dry like that?
spbelky
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
United States623 Posts
December 06 2011 19:02 GMT
#13
But if I preface something with "No offense" or "I feel bad for saying it", doesn't that make it OK to say anything?

I assume this is what you're hinting at.
Stratos
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
Czech Republic6104 Posts
Last Edited: 2011-12-06 20:15:59
December 06 2011 20:14 GMT
#14
You're okay to say whatever you want even without the excuse. I just don't happen to appreciate people refering to themselves as charming and highlighting their superior personality qualities unless they're being sarcastic. In fact I consider such behaviour socially awkward. GL with your quest tho, it's not a big deal and it might even work on some/most(?) people.
En Taro Violet
LuckyFool
Profile Blog Joined June 2007
United States9015 Posts
December 06 2011 22:09 GMT
#15
Haha sounds just like me this time about a year ago. Even with the family stuff.

for a while I got such mixed messages from my parents over the years, in high school when I started playing 20-30 hours a week (or more depending on time of year) trying to get competitive in broodwar (2006-2007 timeframe) they were always supportive of me and gave me total freedom and yet would make comments "you spend so much time on that game etc etc" "When are you going to start winning money or making this worth it."

Eventually they learned I wasn't in it for the money, it was simply something I did out of pure love for the game. Eventually as I started explaining everything to them they starting getting really interested.

Now it's turned into my parents just email me asking when's the next mlg or event I'm playing in, or if they can watch my games. I even get text from my Mom after I get eliminated at Providence a few weeks ago; "How do you lose to a guy named MarineKing? He sounds bad."

I lol'd.
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