Everyday, I feel more and more risk averse and more pessimistic about myself in general. The constant fear, the constant worry is plaguing me, and it's starting to get into my head. I'd typically classify myself as a very calm person, with not much worry about anything. Nowadays, I feel really fucking paranoid and scared of anything I do, anything I say.
Every time I've stepped into a room with an interviewer this year, I've pretty much broken down when they've asked me questions. I seem to have the ability to make even the easiest questions into difficult questions. Instead of freely chatting, I think too much about how the interviewer can interpret my answer in a negative way, which leads to me stuttering quite a bit and confused as to what I should say. It carries over into daily life too, where I don't even have the confidence to say what I'd normally say because I'm afraid of something. I don't know what's wrong. I just feel worried, anxious, stressed, scared.
The same time last year, I was having no problems with any of this. I walked into each interview and gave it my best and usually walked out very content with how I did. I had no problems talking with people because I wasn't worried or scared. I could be myself and feel good about it. Nowadays, I even have problems talking to my roommates that I've known for years because I want to say certain things, but I'm afraid of ruining certain dynamics or whatever bullshit I keep telling myself.
Anyone experience anything similar before? How do I get myself out of this conundrum?