Just tanked a game of League of Legends and now I feel like shit. I've entered this awful spiral of losing at a game, getting pissed off not wanting to play again for a while then when I come back I'm worse so I lose again and get more pissed. We all know this story, there's already threads about it, for me it's worse though, It happened to me in SC2 to the point where I quit the game and transitioned to playing more LoL instead and now it's fucking happening to me in LoL, which is like a million times easier than SC2, which only makes me more pissed off when I play shitty. On top of that it makes me feel like an ass cause now instead of just me lossing 1v1 I'm making 4 other people lose at a game too now. I tried to brush it off as not being my fault that it was my teammates letting me down, but I realize now that's not really the case, even if my teammates are bad, I'm still doing shitty too. I'm not even bad at LoL not compared to SC2 (gold league) but if I start the day with one bad game it puts me in the wrong mindset and becomes that much harder to do well in the future. It's times like this when I miss smoking weed the most, to be able to take 10 minutes after a loss to smoke relax and feel better then go back to the game with a clear head. The reason I can't smoke anymore is because I'm unemployed by choice, but that's a story for another blog which I'm not in the mood to write right now. My sleep cycle being fucked up doesn't help either, for some reason I haven't been able to sleep longer than 4 hours straight the past three or four days. I just recently got out of depression slump, but all this shit is bumming me out. I'm gonna go watch some TV to take my mind off things. Sorry for the negative vibes. Here's a feel good song to make up for it:
Not to be a dick....but dude. Grow up. You're not going to be able to smoke yourself out of every bad situation in life. Nor are you going to be successful at everything in life. And you'd better have a really good reason for having no job, because otherwise that just makes you look like even more of a no-lifer.
Hey, if he wants to be unemployed, that's his prerogative. As for smoking your way out of your problems, I think it's more of calming yourself so you can hop back on the horse, not unknot yourself.
It might be a good idea to stop playing games for a little bit to free your mind. Or at least not competitive games where you either win or lose (there are such things right? You can't win or lose @ Minecraft I think...imo you lose if you play that though).
Maybe it's not the smoke you need. A ten minute break between stressful games can be just as effective. Just take some time and clear your head, take some deep breaths, sip some water, etc. After your break, watch the replay or make a list of things you think you could improve on.
Get back on the horse. Giving up is not going to get you anywhere in life or in gaming.
Getting upset at this kind of stuff is just a sign of immaturity. You'll get over it. The key is to get over it earlier rather than later. Just grow up - its that simple. Change your mindset. Stop being a wiener.
While I appreciate the response, I don't really care what your opinions are on what I'm doing with my life. I would hardly call smoking weed after losing a game of starcraft of league of legends "smoking myself out of every bad situation in life" I wrote this blog because this is how I motivate myself to try harder the next time. So if you want to criticize how I do things I suggest you save yourself the time and not write it, I'm sure you'll feel just as superior to me thinking it as you would thinking I read it.
TF2 is one of the games I play when I don't have the competitive urge, it is quite nice for that.
When I do shitty I usually do some physical activity like going for a run or playing a sport or something. When I get back I am tired and I did something positive for myself so I don't mind hopping back on the horse and playing another game. Also you get less bummed out from a loss cause you got those endorphins going
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