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Basically, if you've read my last blog, you'll know I've been struggling with anxiety and hypochondria to the point that it was severely impairing my ability to do anything at all. I had yet another procedure performed on me yesterday to check for the cancer which I was positive was in my esophagus. This makes a total of six doctors, including two throat specialists, I've seen in the past two months. Yesterday after my procedure, I heard what I've been hearing all along: there is no cancer, it's just bad inflammation from acid reflux.
Except after this doctor visit, my mom told me that she's terrified I'm going to lose my mind if I stay here any longer and she had a long talk with me and said that she's sending me to live with my father's relatives who live in a city close to Linz in Austria.
My mind shut down. This was the absolute last thing I was expecting. My dad was born in Austria in the late 1930s, he was one of thirteen kids, and his parents were dairy farmers or something. He left after the war and settled in Suriname which is where I was born and raised. I've only ever seen his family a few times in my life, mostly as a young kid when we'd make trips to Germany to visit his closest brother.
But she said that after my dad died, she's been keeping in constant contact with everyone. They're all spread out now. Some in Austria, some in Germany, and some of their kids and their kid's kids are all spread over Europe now for studying or working or god knows what. Two of his sisters and their kids (who are in their forties now) and their young kids (around ten years old or so) are all living close to each other in Austria and they, apparently, are very eager to look after me and spend time with me and made a very generous offer which my mom didn't want to refuse.
So I agreed and I'll be leaving sometime in September. I asked my sister if she wanted to go with me, but she said it would probably be better if I went on my own without her around to bother me. And I agreed with her because she is a cunt.
What exactly can Austrians on TL tell me about this area? 
 
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"And I agreed with her because she is a cunt."
lmao
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Sounds awesome. You, my friend, have taken the fake sick to skip school gag to a whole new level.
On a serious note though, would it help you out at all to tell yourself, "Hey, even if I have cancer, I don't care, I'm going to make the best of my time?" Seems pointless to agonize over it. Your body's gonna do what it wants to do. Eat right, sleep right, exercise right. Beyond that, it's up to fate.
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lol
don't know anything about austria, but i hope the move goes well!
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do you wanna go? from the tone of your blog, it sounds like you're indifferent. just curious.
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On August 06 2011 03:50 StorkHwaiting wrote:
Sounds awesome. You, my friend, have taken the fake sick to skip school gag to a whole new level.
On a serious note though, would it help you out at all to tell yourself, "Hey, even if I have cancer, I don't care, I'm going to make the best of my time?" Seems pointless to agonize over it. Your body's gonna do what it wants to do. Eat right, sleep right, exercise right. Beyond that, it's up to fate.
Ya. And what would you do if you did have cancer? Live the best life while your time remains yes?
So you dont have cancer, you should be doing that anyways.
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I absolutely cannot fathom how you have convinced yourself of this. XDDDDD
I think you need to tell yourself you don't have cancer every morning, and stop worrying about it... cause even if you do, nothing you can do about it except hope you come out in the ___% that survives... and even if you survived YOU WOULD STILL EVENTUALLY DIE.
So... gl hf in Austria? :D Away from your cunt sister? lol
Sadly I have no experience there, but I suggest you try to see as many historical and cultural sites as possible while you are traipsing around Europe.
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Austria has mountains.
Mountains, fyi, ARE FRICKING AWESOME.
Also I go hiking there every year and go snowboarding there, not every year.
TLDR: MOUNTAINS.
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I bet my ass you gonna enjoy yourself a lot more in Austria than in USA. Much more peaceful and not to mention the gorgeous sights at the Alps. If you enjoy hiking than you gonna love Austria.
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Well I'm living not far away from Linz (about an hour with car) so maybe i can tell you something about the area, depending on what do you want to know. All i can say right know is that upper austrians (cause Linz is located in upper austria) are the most nicest guys amongst all other austrians, at least in my mind, although i'm from styria ^^
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rofl.
Get better man and have fun in Austria.
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I went to Vienna when I was in high school, and got to see the Vienna Philharmonic - it was awesome! Maybe it's just Vienna, but I have this impression that Austrian people love classical music. Lots of historic (arts / music related) places to visit.
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Go Skiing/snowboarding. That's all I know abuot Austria.
Either way, getting yourself into a new world should do wonders for helping your mind.
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I've never been to austria but I know its really beautiful. I am sure no matter where you end up you will be living somewhere great.
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Whoa, wild shit man!
Your condition also sounds psychological, I forget the name, but who the fuck cares!
Austria man, fun shit!
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On August 06 2011 04:20 Torte de Lini wrote:
Whoa, wild shit man!
Your condition also sounds psychological, I forget the name, but who the fuck cares!
Austria man, fun shit!
Lol torte... he wrote it in the first line of his OP: Hypochondria.
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Good luck pubbanna. I've stayed in Vienna with friends and it was great. I loved Austria!
I hope you use this time to reflect and really try to focus on your anxiety and fear. Try checking out a few books on cognitive behavioral therapy to help with the hypochondria.
Wish you only the best and keep us updated on your experiences!
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Sounds like an adventure! should certainly get your mind off of things.
"And I agreed with her because she is a cunt."
haha 
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On August 06 2011 04:23 StorkHwaiting wrote:Show nested quote +On August 06 2011 04:20 Torte de Lini wrote:
Whoa, wild shit man!
Your condition also sounds psychological, I forget the name, but who the fuck cares!
Austria man, fun shit! Lol torte... he wrote it in the first line of his OP: Hypochondria.
That's not a psychological condition o.o
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