EPTThis might turn into a story of esport and me, and how I met my decision to quit being so much involved. A bit about myself, 19, just ended first year of college.
So let's start with my history with eSports, I've been a big fan boy of PC games since I was like 7 years old. I played Red Alert 95 at that time, in fact my whole family (dad and elder sister) played it together. My dad, due to his job requirements to be at the lab all the time and my mom (lol she doesn't like gaming for some reason) quitted gaming since. So after this event I got suspended from the laptop for years. I then began playing game again in the late of primary school with sister. We played Heroes 3 Might of Magic versus together in Hot Seat mode. She was 7 years older than me so by the time I was in grade 6, she already went to college, she decided to study abroad. And she's doing her PhD at the moment, she also just got married recently so the chance to play some game with her again is pretty damn low. I will miss those moments
. Then I just played random games like Cs.16, AOE, and some other classic games. I then began playing competitively when DotA became popular. I played DotA competitive for 3 years, practiced everyday from 7 to 18, almost went pro. But the scene wasn't that big, people can't live from playing games like that, also the community was shitty as hell, players cheating and bashing others, etc.
My best friend was a big fan of starcraft, so for some reason he got me into it, this is when I pay the real attention to starcraft. I was on TL but just lurked around, watched Day9 daylies, MSL, OSL, Proleague, ... I then had to stop playing due to study and preparation for the college (I decided to study abroad also
). After the first 4 months (Jan 2011) with no computer and got a fantastic record in my study field, I earned myself my very first and current computer. I bought Starcraft 2 and became quite active on TL , I really enjoyed being in TL, enjoyed owning games with random friends from TL on B.net. At some point around this time, I spent 90% of my time that not in the university on TL, like 5,6 hours a day at least. But this also is one of the worst downtime of my life. Let me explain that, I live in CEST time but I follow all the tournaments, people, all stuff that related to SC2 in the US so I basically sleep at 7AM (9PM PST) and wake up around 5PM. I did not go to the college all the time for 2 straight months and I live in a house with 4 people. I didn't social much with them and almost got myself kicked out of the house (if all 3 agree to kick me out of the house, I have to in 3 months move out). Gladly I got my second chance and a guy living together was on my side. It was also the start of testing phase in the college, it is still now and I did a good job so far with 2 straight A. After that I just had to spend less time but I still spend enough time to follow stuff and understand "memes" when people use them. But those time was also the best time of starcraft 2 that I experienced, and I'm proud that I used to be a real member of the community :-)
Note: I have to say the downtime was all my fault about not being able to organize time well. I mean it was just a huge impact that affects my life lately
My thinking line just got interrupted by the SF4 match where Daigo got owned lol
I've been thinking about what I'm gonna do after college, I love movies, I love stuff with awesome graphics, I love and play music (guitar) and I love esport (SC2). But those are just hobbies. I used to think that I will choose Graphics design as major but that seems to be a tough road. I recently had a talk with my dad about my future where we discussed how a hobby and a real job which support the hobby in real life works. It's been bothering me for quite some time now, and whenever I was occupied by this thought and met some idiots on TL saying dumb stuff, I'm just disappointed :<.
Well I don't know if that happens to you guys but I grew up in a - I could say - well educated family, and when I see someone with lack of knowledge and still tries to show something off or talk back in a dumb arguement that he's clearly wrong or has no clue about, it just pisses me. I know those people aren't the real community but the community of starcraft has been really nice but if this kind of trend (more idiots in community) gets bigger, it will just ruin esport (I'm not kidding).
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well to have a utopia community as DjWheat said is impossible. But I still don't want SC community to become somewhat of internet
So now slowly I get to the full point of why I want to stop being around. I have now decided to spend more time for my study, which I haven't really sure what kind of job I will do later but what I'm sure is the direction to the job that will be awesome and can support all my hobbies. Unlike Day9, I don't think I'm that luck to do what makes me feel good as a job, even DjWheat has to do another job to support his family. What I can say for now is, whatever the job I have, I will still support eSport with what I can.
I will remember all the moments of Dreamhack invitational - the most awesome tournament I've seen to-date, MLG Columbus with awesome crowd, Dreamhack Summer where HuK proves foreingers still have hope, NASL with the most intense Finals. I love you all, real TL'er.
P.S: I will still be around a bit, maybe sometimes streaming ^^
also, sorry if there're some bad explainations
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Btw the thread was created when I was feeling a bit down and kinda drunk so the title was a bit exaggarated than the reality. Whatever, shit happens
