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I'll try the best to express myself in this blog, but it might, due to English being not my mothertongue, have some random grammar errors.
This might turn into a story of esport and me, and how I met my decision to quit being so much involved. A bit about myself, 19, just ended first year of college.
So let's start with my history with eSports, I've been a big fan boy of PC games since I was like 7 years old. I played Red Alert 95 at that time, in fact my whole family (dad and elder sister) played it together. My dad, due to his job requirements to be at the lab all the time and my mom (lol she doesn't like gaming for some reason) quitted gaming since. So after this event I got suspended from the laptop for years. I then began playing game again in the late of primary school with sister. We played Heroes 3 Might of Magic versus together in Hot Seat mode. She was 7 years older than me so by the time I was in grade 6, she already went to college, she decided to study abroad. And she's doing her PhD at the moment, she also just got married recently so the chance to play some game with her again is pretty damn low. I will miss those moments  .
Then I just played random games like Cs.16, AOE, and some other classic games. I then began playing competitively when DotA became popular. I played DotA competitive for 3 years, practiced everyday from 7 to 18, almost went pro. But the scene wasn't that big, people can't live from playing games like that, also the community was shitty as hell, players cheating and bashing others, etc.
My best friend was a big fan of starcraft, so for some reason he got me into it, this is when I pay the real attention to starcraft. I was on TL but just lurked around, watched Day9 daylies, MSL, OSL, Proleague, ... I then had to stop playing due to study and preparation for the college (I decided to study abroad also  ).
After the first 4 months (Jan 2011) with no computer and got a fantastic record in my study field, I earned myself my very first and current computer. I bought Starcraft 2 and became quite active on TL , I really enjoyed being in TL, enjoyed owning games with random friends from TL on B.net. At some point around this time, I spent 90% of my time that not in the university on TL, like 5,6 hours a day at least. But this also is one of the worst downtime of my life. Let me explain that, I live in CEST time but I follow all the tournaments, people, all stuff that related to SC2 in the US so I basically sleep at 7AM (9PM PST) and wake up around 5PM. I did not go to the college all the time for 2 straight months and I live in a house with 4 people. I didn't social much with them and almost got myself kicked out of the house (if all 3 agree to kick me out of the house, I have to in 3 months move out). Gladly I got my second chance and a guy living together was on my side. It was also the start of testing phase in the college, it is still now and I did a good job so far with 2 straight A. After that I just had to spend less time but I still spend enough time to follow stuff and understand "memes" when people use them. But those time was also the best time of starcraft 2 that I experienced, and I'm proud that I used to be a real member of the community :-)
Note: I have to say the downtime was all my fault about not being able to organize time well. I mean it was just a huge impact that affects my life lately
My thinking line just got interrupted by the SF4 match where Daigo got owned lol
I've been thinking about what I'm gonna do after college, I love movies, I love stuff with awesome graphics, I love and play music (guitar) and I love esport (SC2). But those are just hobbies. I used to think that I will choose Graphics design as major but that seems to be a tough road. I recently had a talk with my dad about my future where we discussed how a hobby and a real job which support the hobby in real life works. It's been bothering me for quite some time now, and whenever I was occupied by this thought and met some idiots on TL saying dumb stuff, I'm just disappointed :<.
Well I don't know if that happens to you guys but I grew up in a - I could say - well educated family, and when I see someone with lack of knowledge and still tries to show something off or talk back in a dumb arguement that he's clearly wrong or has no clue about, it just pisses me. I know those people aren't the real community but the community of starcraft has been really nice but if this kind of trend (more idiots in community) gets bigger, it will just ruin esport (I'm not kidding).
+ Show Spoiler +well to have a utopia community as DjWheat said is impossible. But I still don't want SC community to become somewhat of internet
So now slowly I get to the full point of why I want to stop being around. I have now decided to spend more time for my study, which I haven't really sure what kind of job I will do later but what I'm sure is the direction to the job that will be awesome and can support all my hobbies. Unlike Day9, I don't think I'm that luck to do what makes me feel good as a job, even DjWheat has to do another job to support his family. What I can say for now is, whatever the job I have, I will still support eSport with what I can.
I will remember all the moments of Dreamhack invitational - the most awesome tournament I've seen to-date, MLG Columbus with awesome crowd, Dreamhack Summer where HuK proves foreingers still have hope, NASL with the most intense Finals. I love you all, real TL'er.
P.S: I will still be around a bit, maybe sometimes streaming ^^
also, sorry if there're some bad explainations
+ Show Spoiler +Btw the thread was created when I was feeling a bit down and kinda drunk so the title was a bit exaggarated than the reality. Whatever, shit happens
 
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you should have just waited and posted the "essay"
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a bit emotional right now and I don't really care much x_x kinda drunk also
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D'aww....how come?
Hang out in more parts of here. We're a cosmopolitan community, and you are bound to find a place in which you fit. You're definitely very drunk right now hehe. ^^; Don't be too down, whatever it is. Post the essay, and we'll respond.
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I can't imagine anyone not belonging in this community, it's so easy to "belong" here but of course that's my opinion. I guess I'll wait to see what you have to say.
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Everyone belongs to the community. Anyone who loves starcraft is a member of teamliquid. From the trolls like CharlieMurphy to the stallions like HotBid, when you are with teamliquid, you are with people that love starcraft. And THAT is the community.
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You'll be back. You can't quit starcraft, you can't quit Liquid.
Drunk decisions are the worst decisions. Ask every girl I've ever slept with 
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Sounds like you are pretty depressed
As far as gaming goes, this is one of the most helpful, understanding, and positive communities there is. If you feel unwanted or have a problem, just post it man. I am sure you are misunderstanding something, or maybe just feeling down. Post what you are feeling, we are a community because we lift eachother up, not for putting eachother down.
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Hopefully you decide to stick around 
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let's all get drunk together!
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On August 01 2011 12:10 Kyhol wrote:You'll be back. You can't quit starcraft, you can't quit Liquid. Drunk decisions are the worst decisions. Ask every girl I've ever slept with
Zinger!
but seriously, team liquid is a place where preety much anyone who isnt making some trouble, can stay. I mean, your choosing whether you want to post or reply or even read a thread, so i dont see how this place isn't right for you. Some people dont even have accounts to this site, and just read through the forums. So think again, also, yes, you should have posted the "essay part" lol, cuz i dont really know the situation in which you feel as though you dont belong. happy drinking.
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NO DON'T LEAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D:
hope you change your mind
On August 01 2011 11:48 zOula... wrote:
you should have just waited and posted the "essay"
also this
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This the part where we all crowd around you and give you hugs? And tell you how you're awesome and most definitely belong here?
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Fine Get Out! See if I care
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...you have no idea how hard I am trying to control my desire to 1-star this. But since it sounds like you are genuinely down, I will give you an opportunity to post your "essay" before I judge.
Either way, I have to echo Kyhol's sentiment:
On August 01 2011 12:10 Kyhol wrote:You'll be back. You can't quit starcraft, you can't quit Liquid. Drunk decisions are the worst decisions. Ask every girl I've ever slept with
Edit:
And for the record, I am of the opinion that this community is for everyone! It is what you make of it, so as long as you don't bug anybody then I'm pretty skeptical that the SC2 community is not for you.
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On August 01 2011 12:56 prOxi.swAMi wrote:
This the part where we all crowd around you and give you hugs? And tell you how you're awesome and most definitely belong here?
There's nothing wrong with responding with warmth and affection to someone reaching out for it.
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One doesn't simply walk out of TeamLiquid ...
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No guys you don't understand he is DIFFERENT and he has taken OFFENSE to something on the internet and it has made him UPSET and thus he must leave and never return.
At least, if it follows the trend of the other 50000033322551 quit threads.
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On August 01 2011 11:49 Knightess wrote:
a bit emotional right now and I don't really care much x_x kinda drunk also
Posts like this won't help you at all.
You:
"I am leaving because of... something! I am down about it."
Response:
"What is it? Maybe we can help."
You:
"I don't care enough to explain."
This is like college-girl facebook mode.
I'd honestly love to assist, like most other caring posters here, but doing things so dramatically won't help anyone.
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lol I told you I'll post something explaining the situation of mine. sigh you guys.
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Well it seems that you just need to spend less time on SC and more time studying. You don't have to give it up though.
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What does this have to do with you feeling whether you belong to this community or not?
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On August 01 2011 13:51 Ilikestarcraft wrote:
What does this have to do with you feeling whether you belong to this community or not?
+1000.
Just because you might not be devoting as much time to playing, or following, BW/SC2 does not mean your not a welcome member of the community. You may not be up to date of every single inside joke or meme, but I can assure you that you will still be more than welcome, especially if you post more than one liners and balance whines.
It sounds to me like what your more stressed out about is being at a crossroads of sort, a little uncertain of where you want to go, and torn about leaving behind your high level of involvement in gaming and the gaming community. Regardless of what happens though you'll always be welcome, of that I think you can rest assured.
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After reading through I still can't understand why you're leaving. Just because you're toning down your time here, it doesn't mean you "belong" somewhere else now. I guess it's more the feeling inside you pushing you to a different place, which is important to follow. You still like eports and playing games as a hobby, so I don't think you'll ever be completely gone.
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This is how I feel right now:
OMG TL servers going down in 30 minutes. What will I do?
On August 01 2011 11:44 Knightess wrote:
I've been thinking about what I'm gonna do after college, I love movies, I love stuff with awesome graphics, I love and play music (guitar) and I love esport (SC2). But those are just hobbies. I used to think that I will choose Graphics design as major but that seems to be a tough road. I recently had a talk with my dad about my future where we discussed how a hobby and a real job which support the hobby in real life works. It's been bothering me for quite some time now, and whenever I was occupied by this thought and met some idiots on TL saying dumb stuff, I'm just disappointed :<.
What's wrong with graphic design as a major? Please, I really want to know.
It's tough to find jobs. Tons of people can't find them. Though once you have one (summer job I assume), you realize that it's not worth your time in terms of what you want to do in life. At least it was for me, I wish I were more motivated without a job.
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On August 01 2011 14:05 obesechicken13 wrote:
This is how I feel right now:
OMG TL servers going down in 30 minutes. What will I do?
What's wrong with graphic design as a major? Please, I really want to know.
It's tough to find jobs. Tons of people can't find them. Though once you have one (summer job I assume), you realize that it's not worth your time in terms of what you want to do in life. At least it was for me, I wish I were more motivated without a job.
graphics design requires a lot of creativity. Sure you can earn a lot, you can have awesome stuff as a result. But say, when you're older, the creativity will fade, if you can't get stuff done when you still have "ideas" then it's really sad when you're getting older. (just like sport). I consider myself as an extreme person. Either I do it perfectly or not do it at all, so I won't take that risk.
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On August 01 2011 14:15 Knightess wrote:
Either I do it perfectly or not do it at all, so I won't take that risk.
What do you do that you do perfectly? Just curious.
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Can't say I've ever seen much of your posts, but I'd be sorry to see you leave!
Hope you stay so I can catch some of your stuff 
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On August 01 2011 14:20 Thrill wrote:Show nested quote +On August 01 2011 14:15 Knightess wrote:
Either I do it perfectly or not do it at all, so I won't take that risk. What do you do that you do perfectly? Just curious.
Haven't got much in mind specifically but involving either network security or economy digital consultant (does it make any sense to you?)
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