I've been thinking about this for a while. I am not an aggressive person. I asked my girlfriend out over a drawn out process. I always have a Healer in my party on FF or any turn based game and I always ask nicely before taking things in my life.

I hate this. I hate this more then anything else.

I can't just go 2 rax in tvz even though I want to. Something in me just won't pressure without my medivacs I can't just siege outside my opponents base and move in with my marines to bait and do damage. I try and practice some crazy strategy with my clan members with 4 port play but I can't ever bring myself out of tank-marine.

Tvp is the worst for me. I either siege outside his main and expand or siege in my base and expand. I don't drop or move forward I just sit there until I make BC's and roll him over.

this is simply why I don't play anymore and I play Lol so much now.

I like a Tank he must think deeply about his choices but when a threat is put before him he either reacts well or dies. To siege is to claim space against all comers to draw a circle in the sand and dare those against me to cross it. In Lol I play anne (or I hope blitzcrank when I get enough IP points to buy him) Anne suits my play style well she can fight off Other tougher Mele heroes by constantly poking at them and hurting them until they are either forced to go back or get stunned and have to deal with my nuking potential. then they run from me and I slowly win the lane.

I look at my life and I do not like it:who I am, what I do, and Why I do things. Therefore I must change it. I know and understand that only I can do this and so I shall.

The Fourth of July has always been something special for me. From the Year I was allowed to "help" my dad with the fireworks to the year I got drunk at a cousins house (they didn't know mikes lemonade was alcoholic) to the first year I drove a Lawn mower when my dad was hungover and couldn't do it himself. I Will become more aggressive this Year. I will throw an M-80 over my shoulder and not look first. I will camp at a State park with my girlfriend like a Ninja because the state is shut down and no one will be looking for people there.

Will I succeed? No I really don't think I will But I really don't care I'll simply be happy leapfrog my tank line And Take my win there.

Randomaccount#77123

United States5003 Posts

July 03 2011 03:05 GMT

--- Nuked ---

jlim

Spain943 Posts

July 03 2011 03:05 GMT

don't try to change yourself, accept yourself as who you are

change race instead: go zerg

Herro_Korea

310 Posts

July 03 2011 03:08 GMT

gl in the state buddy, go get some

Ravencruiser

Canada519 Posts

July 03 2011 03:10 GMT

LOL?

Mental barrier/handicap/condition affecting your RTS game play?

Ahahahahaha I've seen it all, thank you blogs.

drooL

United Kingdom2108 Posts

July 03 2011 03:10 GMT

i have the same with "i'm not creative". i feel you bro. and i have made your decision too.

Cycle

United States300 Posts

July 03 2011 03:23 GMT

I'm gonna treat it as serious because I had the same feeling a couple years ago.

I was also a shy, nervous, and introverted person. So what I did to become how I am today, which I am not dissatisfied with, was every time I felt those introverted (non-aggressive) tendencies, I just did the exact opposite of what my gut told me to do. I started talking more to people I didn't know, trying to just be entertaining and put a smile on their faces. I started taking risks on small scales like that, started yelling (in excitement) around my friends, started swearing more at people when I was angry, and 7 pooled to my heart's content.

Of course I lost every early pool cheese to players who were better than me (as I should) and ended up switching races to terran (yay 2 rax).

I have no idea what i'm trying to say. Just try being aggressive even though you don't want to? Take risks, it's worth it most of the time. ^^

sluggaslamoo

Australia4494 Posts

July 03 2011 03:50 GMT

Play BW, it rewards that kind of play style.

tobi9999

United States1966 Posts

July 03 2011 04:37 GMT

On July 03 2011 12:50 sluggaslamoo wrote:
Play BW, it rewards that kind of play style.

No actually the exact opposite.

Turtle in your base and protoss takes 9 bases. Which they can't do in SC2 because it's redundant.

It has nothing to do with your personality, just keep playing the game.

Juliette

United States6003 Posts

July 03 2011 04:52 GMT

#10

How are you not aggrewive and say you play annie? xD. Instakill level 6 hows that not aggressive?

:p

Its not always a bad thing. I dont know why you hate it completely :p. If anything break out of it slowly

. Especially as a terran oO.

But gl!

Ulfsark

United States958 Posts

July 03 2011 05:13 GMT

#11

I feel the same way man. I used to never attack in sc2 like ever. I would just macro until I was maxed then attack, Also I used to never all in but I have learned to play to win which doesn't mean cheesing every game, but if I see a zerg is being greedy ill just go kill them.

This has improved my play a lot.

Try playing with a good friend and just try and play aggressively for a few games and see how it feels.

froGGifyre

United States213 Posts

July 03 2011 05:35 GMT

#12

lol, woah dude

Scarecrow

Korea (South)9172 Posts

July 03 2011 05:59 GMT

#13

Take some risks, what's the worst that can happen? I broke that habit by just throwing caution to the wind and attacking at different times to see what happens, it's surprisingly effective although of course it fails badly a fair bit. I gradually got used to when i can do it and it helped me develop a more aggressive playstyle. You sound like the sort of guy who'll never all in in poker without the nuts. It'd definitely be healthy for you if you can learn to assert yourself a little more and not over-think things.
SC could be a good place to start, be like Jaedong and dont hesitate!