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This might be a bit lengthy, so bear with me (^_^)
Introduction: Hello TL, I’ve made a new account to be anonymous, as you guys can see I only have one post. I have read many girl blogs in TL and I’ll be honest, I enjoyed them a lot. Sometimes because they reflect my personal “love-life” and other times... simply because they are interesting. Anyways, I never thought of writing a girl blog myself until now... I think it would be a great way to take out what is on my mind with you folks and clear my head a bit ! With that said, what I’m about to say, or write, is 100 percent real. Believing me or not, it is up to you; however, I do hope you guys enjoy it.
Note: This is not a girl blog about my girlfriend or interest, nor is it a blog in which I rant, QQ and expose the deepest and most emotional feminine part of my masculinity because a girl broke my heart (also known as the Steven Syndrome) ... rather, this is a blog about an incident or event that happened in which I wanted to share with the community.
Part 1: [First Encounter]
I am currently 17 years old Chinese American living in California and I will become a senior after this summer. I met this girl (asian : let’s call her Eve) in my second semester Sophomore year because my girlfriend at the time introduced me to her; they were supposedly best friends from their sport. I was not attracted to her, even though many guys think that she is cute. She had gone to every single dance in our school since freshmen year and was relatively popular. After this, nothing much really happened between us other than becoming Facebook friends and saying hi once in a while when we pass by in school. Again, this blog is not about an interest … the incident is yet to come.
Part 2: [Junior Year]
As addicting as it is, Facebook really is a good networking tool. I do not recall how Eve and I began chatting with each another and texting, but I believe it was because we commented on our mutual friend’s status. The rest came very fast, we traded AIMs and later our phone numbers because she still wanted me to text her when she got off the computer. I have to assert that ,at this point, I had no interest what so ever for Eve. She seemed a really fun person to talk to and I simply enjoyed her company.
Part 3: [Initiation]
One of the main highlights of my Junior year was my involvement in our school’s - let’s say science - team. Coincidentally, she also made the team. Soon, we became very close friends and entrusted each another with basically everything. To me, she was a very good friend... but nothing more than that. It is also important to know that, at this point, I was somewhat still involved with my girlfriend that I mentioned earlier. Nevertheless, we broke up at the end of Sophomore year and we only began to talk once again during Junior year. So at this point in time, all she was was an ex who I still talked to because I enjoyed her company. Basically, I was single. I guess I’m not very good at detecting girl’s signs of interest because one day she decided to put her head on my shoulder and linked her arm with mine and I was shocked by her action. Until that point, I thought our “only friends” relationship was mutual. That was obviously not the case...
Well... after this first time, she did small yet noteworthy attempts that I consider flirting. Junior year is obviously very busy and I didn’t give much thoughts to her in regards to her attempts to flirt. To be honest, I enjoyed it. Even though I was not attracted to her, it definitely feels good or special to know that someone likes you ^_^ .. I mean.. it’s High School right?
Part 4: [Sleepover]
So I decided to have a sleepover party at my house for our “science” team since my parents were not home. A sleepover with more than a dozen people? Obviously nothing would happen... right?
We played games, watched movies and had fun as a team. It was getting late and everyone was around the TV watching House or something and I get a text from Eve... who was sitting only a few people away. I was mildly confused, for she could have easily said whatever she needed to say. I opened the text message and the conversation went something like this:
Eve: Hey =) I’m getting tired, let’s go sleep in your bed upstairs!
(upon reading the text I was like :O)
Me: haha okay, uhm right now?
(me trying to act casual)
Eve: well, we could wait ? Okay, how about when everyone else goes to sleep..
At this point my male hormones kicked in, yet I did not want to show it .. haha. I simply told her okay.
Anyways, after a bit, we went upstairs (our timings were different to not attract attention to the other members of the party) and it seemed that our timing attacks for the stairs were successful, for no bunkers or wall-ins by our friends were seen.
We found ourselves ON the bed at first, not IN... not yet. We chatted about school, life and friends...
After a bit of talking, ranting and gossiping (from Eve), we got tired and decided to get inside the bed to get ready to sleep..
We soon proceeded INto the bed and we tried to steal the blanket from each another - ”Flirting” many of you guys might call this ...aha.
We ended up sharing the blanket. My bed is a Queen sized one so we had plenty of space between us. She was constantly poking my face or messing with my hair and I hid my head under the blanket... and she soon followed.
Let me give a clearer description of what is happening right now: She and I were under the blanket of a Queen sized bed, with the door closed and the rest of the people either asleep or downstairs. My parents were not home and it was her idea to go upstairs to my bed. She was relatively cute, and even though I was not particularly attracted to her, her physical appearance was still decent and somewhat desirable at that moment. Call me shady or what not, but guys just work like this.
And so , in the darkness of the blanket and the night, we cuddled in an awkward yet comfortable way. We were facing each another and she started by putting her arms around me and I casually responded by laying my hand/arm on her shoulders. Her face was getting closer and closer, and she ….
I woke up the next morning, wtf happened..?
A rush of memories came back and I didn’t know whether to laugh or Q_Q …
Apparently , I fell asleep … before anything happened. I remember the drowsiness that had overtaken me at that moment due to the sleepless night of the day before due to excessive StarCraft.
At that moment, I looked down beside me and there Eve was, sleeping soundly...
“fuck..” I thought, “Cock-blocked by sleep”...
The next day, when we all went home, Eve texted me talking about all the possibilities that could have happened that night...as if taunting me or making me feel regretful that I feel asleep. She seemed very mad about me falling asleep...
After this incident, nothing of this sort ever happened again. Whether it was because there were a lack of opportunities or because she was still mad at me about that night, I do not know.
Now, she has a boyfriend.
I’m sorry if you find this very anti-climatic, but the truth is the truth.
[Conclusion]
Good folks of TL,
If you read this , first of all, Thank you for reading this blog and second of all, what do you think about this event? Did I fuck up ? Or was it good that our paths did not intertwine. What if the incident did occur? What would have happened?
Thanks again (:
Feel free to post your thoughts! Cheers.
edit: fixed some spelling errors lol
  
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Oh man, why did you make another account to post this. That's so lame.
I don't see the point in telling a personal story when noone can relate to the little they know about you from on TL.
Anyway, in a month or two she's gonna tell this story to her boyfriend and you'll know it, you'll recognize the look.
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On July 02 2011 23:44 SnetteL wrote:
Oh man, why did you make another account to post this. That's so lame.
I don't see the point in telling a personal story when noone can relate to the little they know about you from on TL.
Anyway, in a month or two she's gonna tell this story to her boyfriend and you'll know it, you'll recognize the look.
Sorry :/ it's because my other account was known by a lot of irl friend...
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Ah man, Bad GG timing my friend T_T you must be a Zerg Player :D (Just kidding). That sucks to hear, well maybe it's best to stay friends since you already seem like you were pretty decent friends. Don't need to over complicate things. Well Best of luck, Sorry you fell asleep quite a bummer T_T
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That's like my story except i didn't fall asleep before. I got bored halfway through and fell asleep then...
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Drink a Red Bull next time.
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If she's got a boyfriend that quickly, then it's likely a good thing that you didn't do anything. She seems a little bit crazy from your story here. A 'science' group party is not the time or place...
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On July 02 2011 23:46 BeanutPutter wrote:Show nested quote +On July 02 2011 23:44 SnetteL wrote:
Oh man, why did you make another account to post this. That's so lame.
I don't see the point in telling a personal story when noone can relate to the little they know about you from on TL.
Anyway, in a month or two she's gonna tell this story to her boyfriend and you'll know it, you'll recognize the look. Sorry :/ it's because my other account was known by a lot of irl friend...
Don't you think your real life friends might notice some coincidences between this story and the sleepover at your house the other day when you and a girl disappeared while they were watching house?
I don't think you necessarily "fucked up" because you aren't any worse off having not fucked her, and you don't find her that attractive anyway. You missed out on a chance to sleep with a cute girl from your science club or whatever, but you can always just hang out with her again later.
edit: or not because she has a boyfriend now!
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So, what i'm gathering is, instead of initiating male to female mating processes, you decided to reformat your hard disk.
Pretty much your fault there.
I understand that for some people, it's really hard to detect a female's signs of interest. But probably, most probably, highly highly likely, when the girl has invited you to sleep in the same bed, and then is flirting and touching you...this is not rocket science...unless you count putting your rocket in her launch chamber.
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I don't know enough about you or Eve's sexual proclivities to be specific, but clearly SOMETHING would have happened. At least some kissing. If that's something you wanted to happen, then sure, you "fucked up" because her actions were basically a golden invitation. But it doesn't sound like you wanted it to happen. Sure in the heat of the moment, like you said, your male urges kind of kick in and you wanted it, but in the grand scheme of things, more of a "meh." But again, given that you made this blog, maybe you wanted it more than you thought. Or want it now!
I try not to view things in the frame of "was xyz good." Past events, sure, some real self- and event-analysis is great, but for the most part view it in a detached sort of way. "XYZ occurred, let's make that occurrence BE good for my life." Be realistic about what has happened and optimistic and pragmatic about transforming that timeline into what you want it to be. Even things you decide were "bad" or a setback for your life, spin them such that they made you stronger or taught you important lessons. And I don't mean just thinking "well i fucked up there, but i guess it made me stronger ok" and carrying on. Actively determine how that negative could be a positive "well i fucked up there, but now people have lower expectation of me, so next time i'm going to only do mediocre and it will seem like a huge improvement. then next time i can do even better and my improvement will appear as a meteoric increase."
So do YOU want your paths to re-intertwine? How long has she had that boyfriend, and how permanent do you see that relationship being? What's your angle here on what has happened and where you want it go?
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On July 02 2011 23:58 avilo wrote:
...this is not rocket science...unless you count putting your rocket in her launch chamber.
Nice one!
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I don't need to tell you this but you screwed up biiig time.
Too tired? as a teenager?? lol
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Thanks for all the feedback (:
and the reason why I feel asleep is more because I was so tired that day and not because of my "meh" mood. If i were to be a bit more awake that day, certainly something would have happened, or at least , i would have attempted more.
And RoTa, about the re-intertwining, I'm just wondering maybe I could have been the boyfriend if something did happen.
It was going to be her first kiss.
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She sounds pretty damn aggressive for someone who has never even been kissed before
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On July 03 2011 00:09 chomsky wrote:
She sounds pretty damn aggressive for someone who has never even been kissed before
Yeah, basically, she's always touchy with guys but it is true she has never kissed before.
But as soon as she got a boyfriend, she went to third base. LOL just giving you guys an idea ^_^
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Ahahaha this is like the saddest thing I've ever read! I'm giving you a 5/5 out of sympathy!
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On July 03 2011 00:13 neSix wrote:
Ahahaha this is like the saddest thing I've ever read! I'm giving you a 5/5 out of sympathy!
QFT
Although I didn;t read the buildup - skipped to the textmessage on the party.
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On July 03 2011 00:08 BeanutPutter wrote:
Thanks for all the feedback (:
and the reason why I feel asleep is more because I was so tired that day and not because of my "meh" mood. If i were to be a bit more awake that day, certainly something would have happened, or at least , i would have attempted more.
And RoTa, about the re-intertwining, I'm just wondering maybe I could have been the boyfriend if something did happen.
It was going to be her first kiss.
Of course you could have been her boyfriend if you hadn't fallen asleep. But you still could have even after you did before she started dating someone else. Hell, you still COULD.
The first two aspects don't matter though, who cares if you could have been her boyfriend if you had done something else. You probably could have been a lot of girls boyfriends if you did a lot more "something else"s. It sounds like you are trying to make this purely hypothetical and past-analytical but when doing that you have to base it in reality, not what-ifs. What-ifs are sensible and helpful to consider for the future, and not worth worrying about in the past.
Consider them only for funsies.
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I'm pretty sure you missed out on a great experience (and the potential to have her as a GF- who knows whether that was good or bad?)
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How can you fall asleep in such a situation? Why do you post a "to believe me or not, it's up to you" disclaimer? Wouldn't the lot of your IRL friends recognize the story?
Aside from that, you simply missed out on a fun night!
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On July 03 2011 00:21 RoTaNiMoD wrote:Show nested quote +On July 03 2011 00:08 BeanutPutter wrote:
Thanks for all the feedback (:
and the reason why I feel asleep is more because I was so tired that day and not because of my "meh" mood. If i were to be a bit more awake that day, certainly something would have happened, or at least , i would have attempted more.
And RoTa, about the re-intertwining, I'm just wondering maybe I could have been the boyfriend if something did happen.
It was going to be her first kiss. Of course you could have been her boyfriend if you hadn't fallen asleep. But you still could have even after you did before she started dating someone else. Hell, you still COULD. The first two aspects don't matter though, who cares if you could have been her boyfriend if you had done something else. You probably could have been a lot of girls boyfriends if you did a lot more "something else"s. It sounds like you are trying to make this purely hypothetical and past-analytical but when doing that you have to base it in reality, not what-ifs. What-ifs are sensible and helpful to consider for the future, and not worth worrying about in the past. Consider them only for funsies.
Whoah , thanks for the analysis :D
Yeah I get what you're saying... I mean , after all I have no serious regret about this particular event. I guess that hypothetical "what - if " wasn't really a good question haha.. just wondering because I don't even know what to think.
But thanks man, that helps a lot by sorting this out logically and with reason
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On July 03 2011 00:25 EsX_Raptor wrote:
How can you fall asleep in such a situation? Why do you post a "to believe me or not, it's up to you" disclaimer? Wouldn't the lot of your IRL friends recognize the story?
Aside from that, you simply missed out on a fun night!
Because if you read, I didn't really sleep for the past 24 hours that day and also we talked for a long time before anything remotely serious began. At that time, I even ask myself why I would fall asleep in such a situation LOL ... too bad I can't speak to my body.
Additionally, I added "to believe me or not" disclaimer because many of the blogs have comments on their validity so I just added that to clear out people who are willing to doubt the legitimacy. Honestly, I would find this hard to believe if I didn't personally experience it ... hahaha
And about the IRL friends recognizing the story, no one except for me and that girl really knows what actually happened in the room. There are many parties out there that involve girls and guys going into bedrooms. There's a reason I didn't say the specific "science" club that I was in ^_^
Cheers!
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Hahaha sorry i just had to laugh, why didn't you do anything? Clear she wants to get it on bro, that's why whenever it come to these things and i ask myself whether i should do something ballsy and spontaneous with a girl i'm eyeing, i just do it. The longer you think the more you think against it. Just go for it. So times girls are unscoutable, so just allin. But you didn't like her so i don't think you lost her as a friend, maybe u missed a fun time
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On July 03 2011 00:35 novabossa wrote:
HORMONES Y U FAIL ME
rofl seriously...
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You obviously don't play protoss; you don't know how important it is to get extended thermal lance.
Just a joke. Hell, look at the bright side, you weren't interested in them to begin with.
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Haha had a good laugh with this. Cool blog.
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You didn't miss out on anything. A girl who wants to sleep with you before you're even dating is not a good girl. A girl who then gets MAD and goes after another guy because you did the innocent thing instead of banging her is even worse. You dodged a bullet. Be glad.
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Sorry Barrin but could you explain to me how falling asleep has anything to do with mentally ready haha... i mean , if i wasn't mentally ready then I would have just left or something and not have fallen asleep LOL
It is honestly because I was tired and not for any other reasons ! Hope you guys know that 
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Man you're gonna be kicking yourself for this the rest of your life 
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oh my christ this is the biggest FFFUUUU I've seen in a long time. Unlucky bro, at least you can take away the lesson of next time a girl says she wants to sleep with you, don't play it cool, be like FUCK OKAY GO TO MY BED NAO. Then appear in the doorway with a dressing gown and corn cob pipe
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last time I checked this isn't reddit lol
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You could have taught her some biology, no?
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Haha im sorry OP but i found this hilarious. Sorry 
Next time go for the allin
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This blog didn't go where i thought it was going to.
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On July 03 2011 01:38 Vain wrote:
This blog didn't go where i thought it was going to.
haha, again, sorry to disappoint :/
I wish it had a better ending too !
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Girl blogs on Team Liquid are like Diplomacy games on iccup. You can't always find one, it's really rare to get a good one started but when you do... it's just awesome.
Enjoyed that one!
And no - you did not screw up. A StarCraft player needs his sleep.
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On July 02 2011 23:35 BeanutPutter wrote:
was relatively popular
she also made the (science) team
This wasn't enough of a hint?
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She sounds like a slut.
Hit it and quit it imo
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On July 03 2011 02:18 DEN1ED wrote:Show nested quote +On July 02 2011 23:35 BeanutPutter wrote:
was relatively popular
she also made the (science) team
This wasn't enough of a hint?
mm? what do you mean
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Yeah if she didn't give you another chance:
-You're didn't try hard enough
-She's a slut
-You're not high enough rank on the ladder
Tough break though
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haha this stuff is so fun
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hahahahaha oh my god. I guess i was that naive in high school as well, but jesus what were you waiting for, smoke signals and neon light saying FUCK ME?
I've totally fucked up just as bad (this year even being 20). Girl i had been "talking" to on and off texted me at like 2am on a tuesday, drunk, asking if she could come over. I was like sure whatever. We made out and shit but i didnt think it was going farther than that and i was only a couple beers deep so i didn't want to press it too much her being drunker than me. A week later she was like "what the fuck i was practically throwing myself at you why didn't we have sex?" I was confused. Unlike your girl she came around a few weeks later and i made no mistake then.
Don't worry about it and try not to regret it. If anything its a valuable experience and next time you'll know ALWAYS GO IN FOR THE KILL.
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:D LOL
On July 03 2011 02:59 BeanutPutter wrote:Show nested quote +On July 03 2011 02:18 DEN1ED wrote:On July 02 2011 23:35 BeanutPutter wrote:
was relatively popular
she also made the (science) team
This wasn't enough of a hint? mm? what do you mean
He's saying she joined the team to be near a nerd like you... I dunno, some popular smart kids joined my school's math team, and the environmental science team was mostly non nerdy kids.
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Dude actually coming to think of it I have been in even a more retarded position. I was laying next to a girl on her floor, I had just said I thoguht she was hot, she had her leg over my waist and was sucking on my finger occasionally...because for some reason I just wanted to touch her lips...that's not even a joke, 100% what happened. I really don't know why I didn't fuck her or kiss her. She is really hot and she got a boyfriend like 3 weeks later. I wasn't even drunk. I just felt liek...she hasn't actually tried to kiss me so maybe this is just her way of hanging out?
So yeah, I guess I should really be expressing solidarity with you buddy. Though no matter, whenever I think about missed opportunities, I think abotu the time my dad missed out on £1.7million (and he's not that rich) and everything seems to feel better haha.
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On July 03 2011 04:09 sc4k wrote:
Dude actually coming to think of it I have been in even a more retarded position. I was laying next to a girl on her floor, I had just said I thoguht she was hot, she had her leg over my waist and was sucking on my finger occasionally...because for some reason I just wanted to touch her lips...that's not even a joke, 100% what happened. I really don't know why I didn't fuck her or kiss her. She is really hot and she got a boyfriend like 3 weeks later. I wasn't even drunk. I just felt liek...she hasn't actually tried to kiss me so maybe this is just her way of hanging out?
So yeah, I guess I should really be expressing solidarity with you buddy. Though no matter, whenever I think about missed opportunities, I think abotu the time my dad missed out on £1.7million (and he's not that rich) and everything seems to feel better haha.
er...lol putting leg over waist and applying bodily fluids on your finger isnt enough?...
Then again, i have a girl just sit on my lap (AT WORK) and i didnt do anything then just put my hands around her P_P
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On July 03 2011 04:07 obesechicken13 wrote::D LOL Show nested quote +On July 03 2011 02:59 BeanutPutter wrote:On July 03 2011 02:18 DEN1ED wrote:On July 02 2011 23:35 BeanutPutter wrote:
was relatively popular
she also made the (science) team
This wasn't enough of a hint? mm? what do you mean He's saying she joined the team to be near a nerd like you... I dunno, some popular smart kids joined my school's math team, and the environmental science team was mostly non nerdy kids.
wat, derp.
Cardinal rule is pick two:
pretty
smart
not crazy
fill in the blanks
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On July 03 2011 04:09 sc4k wrote:
Dude actually coming to think of it I have been in even a more retarded position. I was laying next to a girl on her floor, I had just said I thoguht she was hot, she had her leg over my waist and was sucking on my finger occasionally...because for some reason I just wanted to touch her lips...that's not even a joke, 100% what happened. I really don't know why I didn't fuck her or kiss her. She is really hot and she got a boyfriend like 3 weeks later. I wasn't even drunk. I just felt liek...she hasn't actually tried to kiss me so maybe this is just her way of hanging out?
So yeah, I guess I should really be expressing solidarity with you buddy. Though no matter, whenever I think about missed opportunities, I think abotu the time my dad missed out on £1.7million (and he's not that rich) and everything seems to feel better haha.
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Bro sounds like you couldn't get laid in a women's prison with a handful of pardons.
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haha well I'm glad that everyone's having a good read LOL ... sigh but thanks for all the feedbacks
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Oh man, tough break. Here's 5 stars for you ^^~
If it makes you feel better, think that you've gone farther than a lot of nerds in this website
At least next time you'll know what to do (hint: don't fall sleep).
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Kentor
United States5784 Posts
girl blogs should require pics
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Obviously whatever you were doing wasn't terribly exciting since you fell asleep at the height of what could have happened. I mean, I've fallen asleep when staying over at a girlfriends house and we were waiting for her parents to fall asleep first, but usually there's a level of excitement before something happens kicking up adrenaline, especially since this was the first time. This leads me to three conclusions:
1). You really weren't THAT interested in her
2). She spiked your beverage with melatonin or xanax
3). You have narcolepsy
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Wow dude if your guy hormones were suppose to work like they should you would be wide awake and ready
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