Prologue (What an Interesting Year) Part 3
The summer ended and I was going off to college. I didn't have as much time to talk to Ka sense I went to school when she just got off of school so it got harder and harder for us to plan the trip. She told me that I would need to play 200 dollars for the ticket and she would pay the rest. I was really broke so I couldn't find a way to get any money. Then a day or so later my dad calls me.
A little back story on my dads situation. He's an angry drunk so I refused to talk to him until he was 3 months sober but that never happened. I have been ignoring him for the past 2-3 years of my life and didn't have any intention of ever talking to him. Back to the story.
He was asking for another chance to make things right with me, at first I didn't want to have anything to do with him. He was completely out of my life for a good reason. Then I started to think about the money I needed for the trip. I decide to talk to him on the agreement that he would pay me the 200 dollars I needed. He agree'd and we finally talk to each other again. After getting the money I was super excited to finally meet Ka. She started to talk to me about just living there. My mind was still clouded with the thoughts of living with this girl for the rest of my life that I said yes. I forgot about college. I was so confused on what to do. One part of me was just thinking about living with this girl for the rest of my life, the other part of me was telling me just stay in college and don't fuck this up. I chose try living with her. I dropped out of college.
I was getting ready to buy my ticket, I go to talk to Ka about the money help and she said she couldn't pay for the ticket anymore because she would be moving again. I told her that was fine, I went to my dad again and asked him if he could give me more money so I could see her. He said yes, I go back to Ka and tell her I got the money. She was so surprised that I got, she then later told me I should come to Sweden. my heart sank, I didn't know what to say. She then told me she thinks it will never work and what we're doing wont last forever and that we should break up. I was the most crushed I've ever been. I didn't know what to do but cry about how I just screwed my life up so much for this one girl and now it's over. I didn't talk to her after that for a while and I was just a depressed. I thought that my life was done. I didn't know were to turn.
My dad found out and asked me if I wanted a job at coca-cola to get back on my feet. I had no other chose but to take it. I started working 10-12 hour days 5 days a week to start paying off my college funds. I was working as general labor so I started to get a better body and no longer just a complete twig. while working all I could think about is what the heck I did with my life and what do I need to do to fix this mess. My first plan of action was to find a way to get Ka out of my head. I started talking to my friends about the issue and all the told me is that I needed to get laid. I was still a virgin at the time so I was guessing they were right. We started to plan a way to get me a lady. My friends dad owned a bar and told me he would help up get me laid.
Are plan was simple, get the girl drunk enough to want me enough. I go to the bar looking like I just got off a rough day at work and just want to get a few drinks. I would be in a suit so women flock really easily. Once they come to talk to me I start a conversation with them and buy them a drink. I would not drink any alcohol and all the drinks the bartender would get me are just bottles of beer filled with water. When she would ask what I do for a living I tell them that I'm an advertiser for coca-cola. They would soon ask how much I make and I would tell them 250k a year to make them really impressed. After that it's pretty simple tell her you're her from out of town and go back to her place to get your thing going on. After they leave to take a shower or fall asleep I call my friends to pick em up and they never see me again.
With doing this trick more then once I really lost all feelings of love. I just saw women as toys that I was able to mess with. I didn't want to get into another relationship because I was afraid of screwing my life up again. I'm going to community college in the fall and plan to try and start over. Hopefully it goes well.
That's my year in a nut shell. the reason this is only a prologue is because I plan on writing about what happens to me the rest of this year and see what I could do better. Thank you for reading