EPTHer head pulled back and she looked at me seriously in the eyes. Our makeshift moon still glowing through the sunroof. Deep down my heart was racing and i had just completely unconsciously told her i loved her.
Holy shit
Her look turned from seriousness to warmth, her lips turned into a little smile and she wrapped her arms around me, resting her head on my shoulder. Through deep breaths she kissed at my shoulder, her grip tightened with each breath. My arms wrapped around her and we sat there in the embrace for what seemed an eternity. Finally her grip loosened, she lightly pulled my glasses off and set them on the dashboard and looked at me again.
I gulped down the dry air in my throat. Maybe she didnt feel the same.
Oh god... i just fucked up big time...
She pulled me close. our lips barely touching. I felt hers dance along mine as she breathed out
"...I love you too..."
She... said it back...?!
My heart was in my throat. I needed to say something. Anything. Like coming unprepared to class i had absolutely no follow up. Typical me.
We laid in my truck gazing at each other and kissing for hours. I had finally composed myself to the point where i had figured out something to say. She had beaten me to the punch, however.
"Joshua... look. I know it was way too soon for me to say that... But i cant stop thinking of you. The way you treat me, my family, my son, everything. Youre so handsome and charming and I just... i feel so safe with you..." She laid her head back on my shoulder
Well that pretty much hit the nail on the head. Roughly the same thing i was going to say.
"Ashley, youve really changed my outlook on life. I wake up every day realizing that i have someone who cares for me." The words poured from my mouth. Romance was never my specialty, but at this point the words flowed easily from my mouth. "I love everything about you, you are just so... amazing. 2 jobs, going to school for pharmacy tech, raising a son. Youve got amazing looks, an amazing personality. Great sense of humor..." She smiled and looked up.
"So put a ring on it then, mister" She smirked
"Tell you what, you keep being amazing and maybe someday i will" As humorous as it was i couldnt shake the feeling that i heard a small tone of seriousness in her voice. I figured id follow suit and make her smile as well. "And you know what. Ill fly to Guatemala or Africa or something and mine you the biggest god damn diamond i can find." A smile crossed her face.
"Oh shut up" She knocked my arm playfully.
The next week we didnt get much of a chance to see each other. Friday i had come over to spend time with her and Logan. As i expected, it wasnt going to be easy. But we got along which brought a wave of relief over me. We played with his toys until he passed out on the couch and put him to bed.
I was starting to like the idea of having a son
Saturday was the same thing. I was a little less stressed about playing with Logan. Seeing as i had never actually sat down and took the time to learn how to be a parent figure, things were moving along smoothly. Maybe this wasnt as hard as i had thought.
Life is good
That night we laid on the couch watching tv for a little bit, whispering sweet nothings and making fun of the people on Teen Mom 2. Eventually things got a bit heavy and we ended up making out (as per usual)
(Im sure you guys are ready to throw up from all the lovey dovey gushy stuff)
I cut out most of the nsfw for you guys
We ended up making love into the early hours of the morning. Our lips never left each other, Our bodies entwined in a slow passionate night of love. It was something magical.
We ended up laying together face to face afterwards. My hands ran through her hair. Her arms wrapped tightly around me.
"That was amazing..." She sighed "Seriously..." We both smiled at each other. Laying there under the covers after an amazing night of passion. Time passed and we didnt move, enjoying the warmth and comfort. She turned her face up to me. This time an expession of sadness was on it.
"Whats wrong baby?" I stroked her cheek. Her eyes began to well up, her lip trembled. "Come on, talk to me"
"I... im just scared... scared that youve gotten what youve wanted youll leave Me and Logan." I pulled her head close.
"Look, i didnt want just sex from you. I want to see where things go. I promise you im not going anywhere." She wiped the one tear from her eye and sniffled. "Im in this for you. Not for the sex, which was great by the way" She smiled and fell asleep in my arms. i dozed off shortly after.
Life is good
To be continued (Sorry forgot to put that in there looool)
