After doing a heavy bit of contemplation, and talking with my parents. I REALLY, REALLY want to go to Korea to study for a semester.
I've been watching SO many Korean variety shows and game shows that I'm basically picking up Korean already, and learning and using certain mannerisms. I fear that my Korean culture "research" is turning into an obsession.
I love the music, I love the language, I love the FOOD.
In the beginning I wanted to go to Korea because of Starcraft. Now it's turned into something else. I want to envelop myself, immerse myself into Korea.
I want to become... Korean.
i want to live... as a Korean.
I realize how ridiculous this sounds considering I have never been there before, but I really have never wanted something so badly in my life before.
I do not know what will happen if I get rejected from this study abroad program. I feel as if I have already invested so much interest, so much heart into this that... I don't even know now.
I'm actually choking up thinking about it, how manly.
I've thought to myself why this has taken such a strong hold of me, and now I have no idea why. People might so it's something new, perhaps. I've been to Japan and China, and I absolutely loved Japan. But this is something fresher, something more in tuned to my own persona.
I will apply wholeheartedly, trying my best on the application, pouring my soul into the essay, sincerely inquiring of the professor whom will write me a recommendation... and... we'll see how it goes from there.
Wish me luck. Korea... hwaiting!