Off-Topic General Discussion - Page 3954

there was this girl I was in love with, but had grown too accustomed to people not finding me interesting to care about it (and not going to tell her for the sake of honesty because it went very wrong previous time I did that). Also consider that although we'd seen each other and regularly talked on irc and the phone, we'd never met, so why bother?
I was more or less directly co-responsible for her getting with my best friend at the time (think I'm 100% of being right when I see two people and predict them ending together at some point). Fast forward a few weeks and since her year finished earlier she arranged to go spend a week at my students' residency (couldn't do the reverse at the time, my parents wouldn't even let me go to Paris for a week-end, let alone that; I was 19 at the time). Turns out she'd been in love with me the whole time too but didn't think it was mutual either, since she often found me indifferent, and while I was wondering whether or not I should spill the beans (say it early, if it makes her uneasy the whole week is awkward, say it at the end, she may think back on the week and question the sincerity of everything I said/did), she had the intention of telling me and at least kissing me.
Since we were in love, immature and stupid we had sex and spent the remainder of the week as a budding couple. I'm unable to think straight and dumb as fuck in the heat of the moment, and "the heat of the moment" can last whole days in my case, so even though I know about their couple, I'm in love and want to keep seeing her and say she's more important than that, etc.
Thanksfully my friend found out rather quickly (and before we could see each other again). We pretty much competed for who would take his leave and put the other with her, which says a bunch about our mental (well on top of being "the official", my best friend and that he'd never wronged me at the time, he was suicidal and needed that kind of presence much more than me). She'd have kept both if she could, but ended up choosing him. Reason was dumb as fuck, but that was the right choice so whatever.
She'd have cheated on him anyway, and probably would have done it again (if she hasn't succeeded in setting it up w/o him noticing). He told me he'd rather have it be me than one of her suitors, and found solace knowing that I at least was genuinely in love with her. Still not convinced it was a good thing that it happened, even though they're still together now and it's strengthened their couple.

There once was a man in Peru,
Who dreamed he was eating his shoe,
When he woke in a fright in the dark of the night,
He learned that his dream had come true.