if mocsta and I were scum and we were gonna do the "fake roleblock on blazinghand" thing how would there be no nks? or alternatively, if we were witholding nk, wouldn't we just not do the fake roleblock thing and i'd claim i saved sn0 or something?

Blazinghand

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October 28 2013 02:11 GMT

#4535

Nothing in my role PM specifies whether or not I am notified of a save, and I haven't recieved any notifications so far about it (though N2 and N3 I was roleblocked so who knows).

Blazinghand

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October 28 2013 08:29 GMT

#4620

oh shoot we actually started talking again! okay srs mode hat

also i still can't believe the mod warned me for saying the word "stupid" what are we in 2nd grade

Blazinghand

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October 28 2013 08:30 GMT

#4621

btw i'm kinda jk about maximizing serious mode right now as I have had a couple of drinks. that being said mocsta here's what you should do, use your busdrive today to just bus whoever you think scum bh would shoot onto me that way if I'm scum I shoot myself! ez ez ez

Blazinghand

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October 28 2013 08:30 GMT

#4622

also no need to be all negative nancy we might have MLed a couple times here but overall night actions have gone our way, potentially because this game's blue roles are massively town favored

Blazinghand

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October 28 2013 08:32 GMT

#4624

ah so you're saying he was trying to get the cop lynched eh? that would be a clever scum move

Blazinghand

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October 28 2013 08:34 GMT

#4626

On October 28 2013 17:32 Mocsta wrote:

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LOL.. I can target a person and redirect the action where I want.

Its about guessing the correct shooter, bbycakes.

well then this should be easy, target me and have me use my action on myself

if i'm doctor I get to live, if i'm scum I get to die

Blazinghand

United States25559 Posts

October 28 2013 08:34 GMT

#4627

or like flip a dice between me and whoever else you think is scum if you really think i am scum, so that scumteam flips out in the QT and doesn't know who should send in the night kill

Blazinghand

United States25559 Posts

October 28 2013 20:04 GMT

#4756

ಠ_ಠ really mods that's the poem you liked

also i saved sn0, didn't get an RB notification

Blazinghand

United States25559 Posts

October 28 2013 20:06 GMT

#4760

Yeah how the dicks did he write this bigass poem instead of doing something useful rofl CR you live forever in my heart

Blazinghand

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October 28 2013 20:09 GMT

#4763

you decided to make it so he couldn't vote? you think he's scum?

Blazinghand

United States25559 Posts

October 29 2013 10:17 GMT

#4859

There's not a lot I can say about the night actions. I really don't know what happened. I wasn't RBed and I recieved no notification that my save was moved from sn0 to someone else. I wish I had an answer that made sense but I really don't. It's a legitimate criticism of my play that I haven't really been in the thread. I guess I had a slow start, replacing in when i didn't really expect to, and once I fell behind I never really got into the game again like I should have.

Part of it is just generally feel demoralized and feeling low. I don't really know if it had to do with my brithday itself, or maybe it's just that I don't have what it takes to play mafia any more. I used to really feel energized by coming to the keyboard to play mafia. Even if my team was so ahead I didn't have to be serious, or if my team was so behind loss was certain, or people were pushing me, or whatever, these would be challenges I'd strive to overcome. These facts would give me strength, not sap my energy. Do people really think of me like Marv does? When HiroPro said he agrees with Marv he knew I'd see that observer QT again.

I was the one who caught scum that day, who kept town on track, and in the end I couldn't do it. I led them astray. Now I feel like that "spark" or whatever is gone, and I don't know how to get it back. I feel like when I've always been able to do everything naturally it's now like trying to speak a language I barely know, or write a story I've never thought of. It's not even like a sense of unfunness, it's just being... tired. Like when you are in bed and don't want to get up and face the world, but with none of the comfort and warmth that come from pulling the blankets over your head. I know that it's no excuse and that saying something like this is alignment-neutral but it's true.

I see Mocsta doing a reread and making new reads, and I think I should do that, since I don't have good reads now, but I can't. I just can't do it. It would probably save me too if I did. when I'm in the zone, I'm good. The game's only a couple hundred pages, I've read more in less time. I just can't, and I feel like dick that I can't.

Maybe I should just stick to hosting games.

Blazinghand

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October 29 2013 10:20 GMT

#4860

The worst part is i know how I would respond to a guy like me, I'd just lynch him. And I'd laugh at him and call him scum, and tell him IRL reasons don't mean anything and that he should use what time he has left alive to make some reads if he's really town. I hate other me, the me that's good at mafia, because I want to be him, and because he's merciless, and I can't be him. I can't be him now

Blazinghand

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October 29 2013 10:21 GMT

#4861

This is probably one of the few places where I get to be the me I really wanted to be in high school, who could really take charge in a situation and be charismatic. I could never be the "king of shenanigans" in rela life I really just don't have... the force of personality for it, you know? But here online I could be something larger than I am in life, I could be the Blazinghand aggressive mafia player with thousands of posts and a huge e-peen that people actually respected. Maybe it was something IW as never meneat to have

Blazinghand

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October 29 2013 19:10 GMT

#4943

Yeah I know

and if I get lynched for it that's my fault too. I needed a place to vent so I dropped it in there, and it's something I could fake as scum but it's also the truth. I've been kind of hoping someone would claim cop with a green check on me but it doesn't look like there's a superman out there for me. At least if I die today or tomorrow I didn't "pull an Oatsmaster" and get mislynched at lylo

Blazinghand

United States25559 Posts

October 29 2013 19:12 GMT

#4944

Man even as Eccleston I could at least be scum and fake a read on someone and flip out and scream my head off that that guy needed to be lynched. I don't even have reads. fuuuuuuuuuuu

Blazinghand

United States25559 Posts

October 29 2013 19:19 GMT

#4948

yeah.. I really should try to come up with reads... but who would listen to me now?

Blazinghand

United States25559 Posts

October 29 2013 19:22 GMT

#4950

I feel a little better now that I've slept on it. I'm going to grab a bit of food and see if I can pull together. worst case scenario maybe I can just vote with syl