Crimson Starleague Invitational Season 3 - Page 18

Well after a joke of a tournament by me I hope I either get another invite to atleast try and play a game for longer than 2 minutes or get some chance to redeem myself after those two incredibly terrible games from me.

After 20 or so crashes with mewka it finally worked and I wasn't concentrating since I thought it was going to break again and now I'm completely pissed off for making myself look like a total joke. I was on an uphill battle against mewka anyway but to lose that way basically twice in a row has just made me feel terrible.

Can I request nobody casts my games. it's not in the spirit of things but there really isn't any point. I'm already a joke enough as it is without needing to add these to the lists of hundreds of reasons as to why I'm a joke.

Even then losing wouldn't be a big deal, a loss is a loss and I'm happy losing to better players than me because I can learn something. Just like why I've played a bunch with Arcneon in the past and other high rank people over the past few months, but in my head straight after that game I couldn't help but feel it was extenuating circumstances that affected the outcome of that game. I was so sure it was going to crash again, I don't think I was even concentrating.

I didn't want my games casted purely because I was totally pissed off with myself. I lost within 5 minutes the second game and lost within the first 5 in the first one pretty much. All I want to do is play in tournaments, improve and go go again because they're fun, however somehow this one I didn't even really play at all. :\

I want to wish Mewka and dazed good luck, but in my head even though I know I lost fair and square I don't think I can do anything but blame the circumstances leading up to the situation and that's what annoyed me.I mean I was ready if it didn't work to step down and let Mewka through anyway since I knew he has a better chance than me than getting further, but it doesn't mean I didn't feel confident enough in my ability to beat him. I'd practiced so much that it'd be impossible for me not to be confident.

Hopefully I get a chance to redeem myself in Maroon. I've got even less of a chance there because the level of play is higher, but I'm gonna dust myself off and keep practicing. because that's how I am. I'm sorry for getting annoyed. Once again, gl to mewka and dazed!

EDIT: and trust me, I've had worse defeats than the ones I've faced here. You wouldn't believe some of the stuff I've losst to. It's why I never usually get pissed off :p