Retrospect after the GSL Final

After The Final.
Okay. I felt desperate all day after losing the Final.
Christmas was coming and I was supposed to go out with my friends.
However GOM TV ran an event that was 5v5, Zerg vs Terran vs Protoss during Christmas.
I was very annoyed because I had finally finished my all tournaments and I really wanted to have vacation.

Since I felt so desperate I didn't practice a lot (If I tried harder during this time, I would have had a more successful gaming career) and My Code S match was coming. My opponents were TricKsteR , Choya and Kyrix.

I played against Choya on Scrap Station. I played very safely and I won with a long macro game.
The second game was against Kyrix. The map was Metalopolis, I played mech and the game disconnected due to internet problems. I thought he didn't know what I was going to do, but apparently he did and he just counterattacked, so I lost the game.

Third game was against Trickster and he knew much about me because he sat right next to me.
He knew what I was going to do and I lost
Since I had lost to Kyrix, he had the better head-to-head score and was placed in third place, despite us both going 1-2. Thus, I took 4th place in my group and received the worst placement for the up&down matches.

The up&down match was Kyrix vs July and loser vs me.
Kyrix beat July and I lost to July. I practiced a lot and my strategies were good when I was practicing. However, I played very stupid at the tournament and I dropped out from Code S.

After this I had one last chance. One of the players who was in Code S had to do military service so there was an empty spot in code S. GOM TV made Wild card matches for 8 players who were demoted from Code S.
At that moment there weren't many good players and I thought I can get through this.
My first opponent was Moon. I saw lot of his VODs and I thought he wouldn't be a hard opponent.
I underestimated him and I also played really bad and lost 2:0

Due to losing 7 official matches in a row I was tremendously disappointed with myself.
I was also depressed everyday, spending most time alone sitting at the staircase and thinking about my future plans and I thought I must make a change to myself or else it will be end of my career.

So I had to start playing in Code A, I was planning to quit if I got dropped to Code B.
My first opponent was "Yeah", a zerg player. We both played very weird, I think he was nervous as well. I almost lost the series, but I got lucky and advanced to Ro.16

My next opponent was Zenex.Jjun and he won against mOOnGLaDe in Ro.32.
After winning against mOOnGLaDe he said something about me at the interview. The question was: Your next opponent is Rain, what do you think about the next match up?
He said like “Ah, he is a predictable player so it will not be tough”.
I was so mad when I saw his interview, so I practiced a lot and I beat him black and blue (in game).

I played against Hyperdub for the up&down match. I won 2:0 and made it into Code S once again. There were 5 Code S players in our team out of 8 players.

For the next Code S match ups, I lost to JulyZerg. I made my special CHEESE but my micro control was bad and I lost the game.
Then I played against oGsInCa. I won the game on Crevasse, and I had to play one more game.
I was so ahead but I lost to a couple of DT's (many people might remember this game) and I couldn't get into Ro.16 again.

So I took 3rd place which means I had two chances to survive in up&down match.
I lost my first game against Mvp, but I won my last match against Rainbow so I was able to survive in Code S.