I'm going to stop playing SC series, at least for a while before I find myself stabilized.
For past few days, whenever I lose a game, I would get pissed easily, or just stare at the screen for a long time. I think I had few instances where I even cried. Losing is part of the game, and I understood. I just couldn't hold back my emotions.
Game's a game.... right?
After I play the games at night, I would be really cranky during day, especially during classes. I would start thinking about why I lost in this particular situation or that other match overall. I would often write down what I should do in some particular situations instead of writing down what's being done in class.
I also remember one time where I took a walk to the local superstore because I was displeased with my PvT in BW, and analyzed my match from the dorm to the store. It wasn't because I needed the energy drink; it was more because I needed some time to think.
Same pattern, same old shit. And then I realize: the best solution to a problem, is usually the easiest one.
Went ahead and deleted BW/SC2 all together.
I'm still going to follow the scene from time to time, but for once I have given myself a chance to change myself: from hardcore StarCraft addict to regular college student.
Next time when I play a game of BW/SC2, I hope I can play it without being serious.
Aww SHIT, you were just streaming BW yesterday T_T, well I feel for you, just get your life back in order then you will hop back on BW in no time, and just like everyone says and knows, " you can't quit starcraft" , you will probably be reinstalling BW and getting on before you know it
Before I temp ban myself, something I forgot to mention:
I almost destroyed a laptop for losing a single match My keyboard feet broke because of losing a game Mouse almost gets fucked up when lose a game, sometimes I need a screw driver to fix it back to normal
It's important that you distinguish which things in life is worth sucking up and continuing and which is worth quitting. Since you're a college student, taking a break from video game is a wise choice.
Ahhh, I've seen someone break their (wooden) table because of Starcraft Rage. Good luck getting back together again, even if it means leaving TL. I think quitting SC/TL would help me too but I just don't have the self control.
My mind is so full of fuck. This cannot be true. However, I can relate to rage when losing and a temporary BW vacation is never a bad idea at that point. Good luck fighting the withdrawals of your addiction young padawon, see you soon.
I think you are doing the right the thing. Games are meant to be fun, and with all the rage that it's creating for you, I think that it is best that you take some time off it. Good luck, and I hope you can come back soon to starcraft without taking it seriously but still keep your competitive spirit high.
The struggle all gamers have to face, between a healthy passion and a destructive addiction. I hope you'll overcome this hurdle and come back to streaming.
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