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There's something else I do other than modding - I write. I've been working almost 7 years on what I consider to be my life's work, an original universe housing a novel called Throne of Armageddon. This morning I reached the 1,000 page mark which includes about 6 pages of notes.
TOA is split into 4 major segments. The first two are written out, the third is in a "baseline draft" and needs fleshing, and I've been working on the ending bits I have figured out.
Writing is tough business when you face huge mental disabilities and a variety of difficulties in life like I do. So, I consider this to be quite a triumphant victory in my struggle, even though it will likely still be a few years before the book is completed.
I do not plan to publish it.
TOA is a mix of science fiction and fantasy, focusing on characters who often aren't a clear mix of black and white, facing mysterious and what I would consider to be unique antagonists in a world that redefines epic.
I have a very small handful of dedicated readers. Most people who've said they'd read it end up not even trying and just lying about it. So, I don't really plan to make it public. I'm mostly just writing for myself.
Although I'd be happy to answer any questions you might have about my writing.
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United States3824 Posts
That's cool. What's your motivation to write?
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All i can say is wow..... im really interested in reading at least a few pages.. would be pretty sweet if you put something up for all of us to see
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Sounds awesome, mental disabilities?? care to share? its ok if u dont but might add to the interest of reading it. whats the book about? is it possible to get a copy?
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On July 30 2009 00:33 cgrinker wrote: That's cool. What's your motivation to write?
My motivation comes from two sources.
The first is my dreams. A lot of environments in the novel are taken directly from dreams I've had. A lot of it has been pre-meditated for years before it has actually been written. I have an over-active imagination you could say.
There is also the drive to make something that is mine. All of my starcraft mods are based on my own works. I prefer doing something I have created as opposed to making something someone else has created.
And here is a small portion for you to read. Note that formatting will have been lost.
Finding a good part to post is going to be really hard. Most of it won't make sense without... most of it. :\
Ah. How about a segment with Khan. Khhaaaaannn? Not quite that Khan, but his title is Khan.
+ Show Spoiler +
"I've got you, now!" Khan announced. The Iron Scarab broke its lines, charging the Zelconian fleet.
"Prime our broadside batteries, and launch our missiles." Khan ordered. The Chief of Staff nodded, and the Heidomus lunged into action. From bellow deck, no less than two dozen city-sized E-grade atomic-fusion subspace torpedoes were launched from their tubes, into the cold Void. Immediately after leaving their resting places, the torpedoes activated hyper-speed tachyon drives, generating a subspace bubble, and began accelerating beyond the speed of light.
The Iron Scarab's heavy Deimos cannons entered their primary range, and focused on the confrontational Zelconian flagship. In a classic display of naval heritage, the Iron Scarab fired all of its cannons in unision, focusing them at the bridge of the Heidomus. The older ship's shields flared violently as they suppressed the incoming energy. Khan closed in, but didn't open fire quite yet.
The Iron Scarab fired a second time. The shield indicators blared a warning. The generators began to overheat as they struggled to divert power into the failing defensive matrix.
"Hold on." Khan said, gripping his seat.
The Iron Scarab closed within optimal distance. It fired a third time. The shields of the Heidomus flashed a brilliant crimson. Several Deimos pulses made it through, impacting the reinforced plating with a dull, watery thump.
"Broadside!" Khan suddenly yelled. His staff braced for action. The Heidomus turned on the entire side of maneuvering thrusters, forcing it into a ninety-degree spin. As it did so, that half of the ship's heavy proteus projection turrets fired their maximum charge of ionized beams into the foresection of the Iron Scarab. As the beams struck home, the atomic torpedoes impacted the Undead vessel's hull. First, there was the face of the Undead flagship, then a plume of incandescent light that flooded Khan's bridge.
"Fire, fire, fire!" Khan ordered. The turrets broke into a volley, hurling bolt after bolt of light into the madness. The crimson maw of the Iron Scarab emerged from the smoldering ruin of plasma and super-heated gasses. It was drenched in flame from the failing reactive armor, but it wasn't finished yet. It began accelerating rapidly. Stray Deimos beams repeated across its hull, impacting the Heidomus in random sections.
"Radiological alert!" a tracker reported. Khan only wordlessly observed as the foresection of the Iron Scarab continued to glow brighter and brighter. Traces of electro-static energy skimmed across its hull as it prepared a mighty counter-attack, all the while accelerating to ramming speed.
"Bring us about, prepare a volley of Proteus torpedoes!" Khan ordered. His ship possessed a large number of the smaller, faster missiles, usually deployed against fighters. He hoped to screen the enemy ship with a constant wave of energy that prevented its reactive armor from coming back on-line.
"Divert unused cannon cores into charging the Proteum-Madellius array!" Khan ordered. The untested, unfinished prototype weapon of the Heidomus. Khan knew most of his staff didn't even know what he was talking about. They just gave him a confused look.
"Aye, sir!" the Chief of Staff snapped to work. Khan accessed his console's personal override, and primed the mighty cannon. Beneath the ruined decks and torpedo bays, a monolithic device emerged from a concealed hangar. Along the belly of the mighty Zelconian warship, the barrel of a truly titanic weapon emerged. Rails locked into place, firing control centers blinked to life, and unprepared crew ran for cover. As the Heidomus accelerated alongside the Iron Scarab, preparing to avoid the enemy's own superweapon, she prepared her own longbow of carnage.
"Launch missiles!" Khan ordered. No less than three hundred smaller projectiles were deployed, swarming the Undead flagship with a screen of pinpricks. Death by a thousand needles. The Iron Scarab's skin belched a crimson shockwave as the missile struck, tearing off small chunks of its armor.
"Proteus-Madellius array at 25%!" the Chief of Staff reported.
The Iron Scarab fired its Dread Cannon. The slow-moving bolt of blood was larger than the entire Heidomus. The Undead Captain had positioned its weapon well. Radiological alarms sounded a second time. "Our shields won't be able to resist that kind of radiation! It'll fry us alive!" A tracker reported.
"Bring us down, to grid 58C!" Khan ordered. The Heidomus took a steep dive. This deprived Khan of optimal deployment for his weapon. The Iron Scarab followed his descent, rapidly closing the distance.
"Another volley of missiles!" Khan ordered. Secondary hangars opened, and another swarm of projectiles screamed upwards, into the face of their attacker. One of the Iron Scarab's massive tusks shattered into a thousand fragments of glass.
Suddenly, another ship emerged into view. It was a Galorian psionic warfare vessel. Surrounded in a cloud of black smog, the mortally wounded ship turned on its side, preparing to impact the Iron Scarab.
"May Galor honor you all." A battered voice whispered through the com. "I die free!"
The Iron Scarab struck the Galorian ship. The impact was terrific. Khan wasn't even sure if it slowed down the Undead vessel at all. It shattered the ancient halls of his father's handcraft with a soundless boom, showering fragments across its hull. Again, a glow began collecting along the foresection of the Undead ship. The previous energy bolt was still travelling outwards, into the distance.
"Proteus-Madellius array at 75%!" the Chief announced.
"Bring us about. Give me a firing solution on the ship's front." Khan said. The chief nodded, and the Heidomus ascended. The Undead captain must have not been expecting this risky maneuver, and the Iron Scarab was forced to slow down.
"Array at 90%!" The Chief announced.
The Iron Scarab fired.
"Fire the Proteus-Madellius cannon!" Khan ordered.
The Heidomus continued to ascend. It's belly reflected a brilliant maroon from the enemy's cannon, but the red was slowly replaced by a dominant white-blue, coming from the secret weapon it possessed. A thick barrel, lined with shining rings of super-condensed electronic magnets. The rails focused, and the cannon belched a lance of deep blue. The super-accelerated Proteus energy, charged to the maximum Proteus spectrum, sliced into the Iron Scarab's foresection, and released its energy. A shockwave of uimagenable magnitude shot through the Undead ship, causing the energy of its armor to be reduced into its base elements. The Iron Scarab instantly fragmented, and shattered into a rain of glass.
The Dread bolt continued upwards. The Heidomus continued to ascend, but the bolt was too close. The radiation wave would hit them.
"All power to engines! May Galor see us through this dark hour!" Khan yelled. The mighty ship nosed upwards, but it was too late. The ship vibrated violently, throwing crew out of their chairs, and knocking out the ship's lights. The Dread Bolt continued upwards, into an unprepared Undead battlecruiser. The confused Myrookk vessel tried to veer out of the way, but it had been too occupied with its battle against the Arcane-classes. In the instant the Dread Bolt impacted the Undead vessel, it was vaporized.
As for my disabilities, I have traits of schizophrenia and of high-functioning autism. It is extremely hard for me to write out things in detail, so for the most part I've opted for a low-detail first pass and hopefully one day I'll be able to expand my vocabulary and flesh it out to its fullest.
But the hardest part about writing for me is just getting started. Haitus of over 6 months has happened a few times because I couldn't get down and just write. It's very difficult.
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Your huge mental disabilities are traits of schizophrenia and of high-functioning autism, like not actually either of them but TRAITS of them? Like, you went to wikipedia and diagnosed yourself or what? Because I'm pretty sure it doesn't work like that.
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I've had mixed diagnosis from our pretty much useless canadian health care. Some people say I have high functioning autism, they used to think I had bipolar, ect. I did a fair bit of research on it and I tend to lean towards more or less having strong early traits of schizophrenia. There's a lot of things about me that completely go against most autistic individuals so I am not so sure that is an accurate diagnosis.
I'm taking drugs but they're really not doing anything besides making me sleepy and hungry. (Olanzapine)
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Isaktu, i am amazed by ur amount of creativity. Are you studying something gaming-related at least?
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Dude kudos to you for putting in the effort to write so much. Whatever mental difficulties you have, they apparently got nothing on your dedication.
I would recommend you proofread for comma use because I spied a number that were extraneous, but if you don't plan on publishing don't sweat it.
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On July 30 2009 01:03 ZeroCartin wrote: Isaktu, i am amazed by ur amount of creativity. Are you studying something gaming-related at least?
I don't study anything, I dropped out of school in grade 11 quite some time ago. Since then all of my time has been devoted to either modding or writing. Mostly modding and the variety of pains that come with it.
I do plan to edit TOA quite extensively, comma use is one thing I am keeping an eye out for.
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You seem like you're a very determined person. All that work you put into modding was crazy and yet you still have time to write 1000 pages...lol wtf have i been doing with my life!
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United States24495 Posts
I understand if you don't want to send your novel to a publisher, but when it's done you might want to use a free online service for making copies of your book available for sale on a nominal price to whoever wants to read them. Through the same service you could purchase a few dozen copies mark-up free for yourself to distribute to whoever you want IRL. If this sounds interesting to you then you can contact me as I've already done it before.
http://www.teamliquid.net/forum/viewmessage.php?topic_id=79749
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United States889 Posts
I used to write a bunch. I wrote a book with no intention to publish it, myself. I often found it really therapeutic; something that when I worked on I could do that and only that and would be unable to think about anything else. Everybody needs something like that.
I finished only about 300-400. Kudos to you on 1000.
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micronesia > That was one thing I was considering although I wasn't sure how it worked. Depends on how things go. I know I can't get it published though, it's just too expensive and that's if everything works out fine.
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I couldn't really get into a writing style like yours but I am absolutely humbled by your dedication and patience to be able to write a 1000 novel. That is so cool, and definately something you should be so proud of.
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Significant improvement over KlazartSC. But in all seriousness, kudos to you for the dedication and work put into this. I like it, and congratulations for dealing with whatever issues you may have, and manage to accomplish more than many people.
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Post an excerpt here in TL, one that will truly intrigue many users to grow your fanbase.
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By the way, recent findings show that E-EPA (fishoil with high concentrations of EPA) is very beneficial for Schizophrenia.
Almost everyone has traits of mental "disease". You don't have a condition until you match a certain number of criterias. A vidiv imagination is a trait of schizophrenia but it doesn't make you schizophrenic. Get my drift?
Your different diagnoses just show how hard it is to label people when it comes to the psyche.
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The excerpt you posted sounds like an episode of star trek, although the entire tone of the story probably isn't like that. It would be nice if you could upload the entire thing in a pdf or something so we could try to read it.
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Neat. =)
That's amazing that you have the drive to do such a thing, with no expected publish or payoff. You must truly enjoy what you do. =) Much respect.
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