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I dunno what happened but apparently I cannot play this game anymore. It's as if I lost the desire to even try to play anymore and lost all the fun from playing. I think I was just playing wayyyyyy too much for wayyyyy too long and am experiencing some sort of extreme crash and burn.
I was B- last season and this morning just lost 4 straight to fall to D- how is that even possible? wtf?
I just rage uninstalled sc and deleted everything. I had probably 4,000 replays over the past 4 years or so, so many great games vs top US players. so many wins. so many games vs amazing B and A- ranked koreans... All gone haha. I had so much fun playing for so long, making fpvods, highlight videos, playing in random tournaments and stuff... But then something happened. Maybe I realized I'd never really be that good, maybe I got so pissed after losing so horribly in recent wcg qualifier. Maybe I realized how much time I was spending playing this game and how little I was improving. Or at least how little I perceived myself to be improving. I would practice for hours a day and still lose to the same old random bullshit time after time. I kept going though because I had so many highly ranked practice partners who kept telling me I was such a good player... And I know I was.
It's as if I erased part of the past 4 years or so with a couple clicks of the mouse this morning. Funny thing is right now I feel so free, I feel like this huge burden has just been lifted off my shoulders. I dunno why but I was pushing myself so hard recently and getting to a point where I was seriously angry after I lost games. Ah man too much stress over a freakin game for gods sake.
I don't even know where my original cd is either so I can't even reinstall if I wanted to. I hate this game right now and all the headache it's caused me. I love all the friends I made playing though and had a blast playing in a couple of those wcg qualifiers. I'll miss alot of the people I've met but I won't miss the extreme anger and stressful shit that I kept going through.
People say you can't truly quit this game. This morning I just did. I'll play Starcraft 2 definitely but my Broodwar days just came to an abrupt end. I definitely won't be back. I do plan to continue to visit TL and stay in touch with friends I've made through starcraft but my playing days are definitely ova! You know it's time to quit when you're not having fun anymore.
Until another day,
-LF
  
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Its the same way with every game. Losing 4 games in a row on Iccup = normal. Just because it says they're D doesnt mean they actually are.
If you were pushing yourself so hard that you were getting pissed then yeah, probably a good idea to find a new hobby.
Enjoy your break 
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Over the past 3 days since I got knocked out of wcg I had gone 1-19 from a mix of iccup, east and vs friends.
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I get into my losing mode quite often. I think my longest streak has been 14 games. Anyways, I've read your post on sc2gg about how hard it is to get good at the game and I gotta agree with you there. For me though, there's still joy in the challenge of aspiring to be better. I hope you find that passion one day, if not, sc2 is just around the corner.
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I had good times watching your crazy rush strategies in obs games on East man
gj quitting though, your GPA will probably double or so, haha
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On June 15 2009 02:20 LuckyFool wrote:
I dunno what happened but apparently I cannot play this game anymore. It's as if I lost the desire to even try to play anymore and lost all the fun from playing. I think I was just playing wayyyyyy too much for wayyyyy too long and am experiencing some sort of extreme crash and burn.
I was B- last season and this morning just lost 4 straight to fall to D- how is that even possible? wtf?
I just rage uninstalled sc and deleted everything. I had probably 4,000 replays over the past 4 years or so, so many great games vs top US players. so many wins. so many games vs amazing B and A- ranked koreans... All gone haha. I had so much fun playing for so long, making fpvods, highlight videos, playing in random tournaments and stuff... But then something happened. Maybe I realized I'd never really be that good, maybe I got so pissed after losing so horribly in recent wcg qualifier. Maybe I realized how much time I was spending playing this game and how little I was improving. Or at least how little I perceived myself to be improving. I would practice for hours a day and still lose to the same old random bullshit time after time. I kept going though because I had so many highly ranked practice partners who kept telling me I was such a good player... And I know I was.
It's as if I erased part of the past 4 years or so with a couple clicks of the mouse this morning. Funny thing is right now I feel so free, I feel like this huge burden has just been lifted off my shoulders. I dunno why but I was pushing myself so hard recently and getting to a point where I was seriously angry after I lost games. Ah man too much stress over a freakin game for gods sake.
I don't even know where my original cd is either so I can't even reinstall if I wanted to. I hate this game right now and all the headache it's caused me. I love all the friends I made playing though and had a blast playing in a couple of those wcg qualifiers. I'll miss alot of the people I've met but I won't miss the extreme anger and stressful shit that I kept going through.
People say you can't truly quit this game. This morning I just did. I'll play Starcraft 2 definitely but my Broodwar days just came to an abrupt end. I definitely won't be back. I do plan to continue to visit TL and stay in touch with friends I've made through starcraft but my playing days are definitely ova! You know it's time to quit when you're not having fun anymore.
Until another day,
-LF whats with all these faggots lately that make blog posts about their quitting starcraft?
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On June 15 2009 02:31 anderoo wrote: your GPA will probably double or so, haha
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On June 15 2009 02:27 LuckyFool wrote:
Over the past 3 days since I got knocked out of wcg I had gone 1-19 from a mix of iccup, east and vs friends.
I heard that ihaveaname 24 ling broke your terran... If it's games like that, it's just bad luck/an off game. Everyone goes through off periods.
As for ICCup, they must have been starting the new season and were probably good themselves.
Don't take it to heart, just take a break and then come back when you feel bored and want to game (; I'll be on East.
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the following is a response to another  BW-suicide OP entitled "this game is awful"
sc should be fun. the only reason you ought to play it is for an entertaining challenge. if the game really does not appeal to you anymore then you should quit indeed. but from the emotional hysterics described above it sounds like you are still very much into this game.
deleting all your shit cuz you fell to d- is shows that you are more interested in honor than actually having an honest relation with BW. Even if you qualified for wcg..you would get pwned by some a park, lee, or kim or probably a white dude in the us tour. the point is we all have people who are 5,10,15,20...50 levels ahead of us. rts is rts but the rts gamers metaverse is kinda like an mmo. everyone levels up and occasionaly acquires new skillz. Unlike lame MMOs, real life gamers are not hindered by a "max" level. Also, gamers level up in different intervals and so some people can always be ahead no matter how hard to the others try.
your story was pitiful man.
it seems like you were humiliated and ashamed to the point where you couldn't even stare the iccup launcher shortcut in the face. that is a bad place to be but you take a week or two off and play altitude or battletoads, you know?
+ Show Spoiler +should be the topic of the next comic noobs.
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You sound like you just quit WoW.
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You lost against sMi.lols who reached B+ twice with Zerg. Nothing to be ashamed of there.
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I don't even know where my original cd is either so I can't even reinstall if I wanted to.
Lucky for you that you can now download your copy of starcraft from both battle.net and iccup.com =D
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On June 15 2009 02:57 omninmo wrote:
deleting all your shit cuz you fell to d- is shows that you are more interested in honor than actually having an honest relation with BW. Even if you qualified for wcg..you would get pwned by some a park, lee, or kim or probably a white dude in the us tour. the point is we all have people who are 5 levels ahead. rts is rts but playing an rts is kinda like a personal rpg. you level up and get new skillz but unlike traditional rpgs, with rts the players gain exp at different intervals and so some people can always be ahead no matter how hard to the others try.
your story was pitiful man.
it seems like you were humiliated and ashamed to the point where you couldn't even stare the iccup launcher shortcut in the face. that is a bad place to be but you take a week or two off and play altitude or battletoads, you know? rash dramatics have no place in a soul at peace.
the temper tantrum you described should be the topic of the next comic noobs.
Harsh but a lot of truth in this post imo.
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Sounds like taking a break for a while was certainly a wise choice. However, I think that at some point you will really really regret deleting all that stuff. :/
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Dude I am the definition of inconsistant in RTS games.. In my "crappy" SC career, I have beaten many top players, such as Froz, Hovz, Testie, Veg, etc all the old guys, And then id lose to some horrible x17 newb. Its the same on war3, when I played at a high level, I beat out abunch of top europe players then would lose to some level 10 on east.. Thats the nature of the game, you always have to be developing your mental game to control every situation..
Basically, if you lose to D players, don't assume you are B-. I reached B- too afew seasons back but if I had to say where i fit now, probably C if Im lucky. consistancy is what makes a player good, cause if you go 200-200 to get B-, you aren't really B-. you need to have consistancy/control.
I have done that 3-4 times, you always come back. The only time I "quit" sc was two times, One because my internet was SOO shitty (modem split between 10 roommates is nothx) that I couldnt play, altho I still watched every GOMtv game and stuff.. The other time, was when War3 first came out, and I played that for about 4-5 years but the metagame is pretty much done evolving, which is its biggest flaw.. I missed the whole PGT scene, came back when iccup was around season 5 and like wtf, protoss's fast expoing?? so weird lol
You'll be back.
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You deleted all of your classic replays?! That's like erasing a big part of your past!
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On June 15 2009 03:23 prOxi.Beater wrote:
You deleted all of your classic replays?! That's like erasing a big part of your past!
Agreed. It's like having a miscarriage then burning all of your other kids' photo albums. :<
Anyway, I'm sorry you got so frustrated with SC =( When I get in ruts like that I find just taking a break then coming back when I feel bored and just want to play for fun (as previously mentioned).
Restore the replays? ^^
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I think its a good move LuckyFool because you don't seem to enjoy SC a lot ;p
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