EPTMy new guitar is awesome. I love the sound of it and its really great(maybe not my neighbours). Playing guitar is like linking my soul to my actions. Makes me feel better after a hard day.
So for the past 6 years of my life, I've experienced failure at getting close to a girl. To say the least, at least 90% had boyfriends and some fucked up quite badly. After I got over that girl recently, I just didn't want anymore. I thought hey.. life is more than finding girls.
Its been great but just last week, I started noticing this girl. I felt the same emotions and as much as how badly things have turned out in the past, I really don't want to fuck it up again.. risk a broken heart and hurting her is also a possibility.
She's been around in my school.. we pretty much take the same subjects but its just such a recent thing.
I just can't help but notice her. I think she notices that I notice her but really, I don't want it to end like last time.
I mean talk to her? Say hi? Do what? I'm wondering if I should do something or just let it go now and not start anything at all.
I kinda feel that its fucked because I struggle with such an ass of a situation. I'm a born introvert. Talking to her seems totally new. Its like.. I mix really well with girls whom I regard as friends. I talk and tell lots of jokes to them.. they laugh and its a nice friendship. But its just so hard with the girl that I notice. The apple of your eye in that moment.
Fuck man. Seriously
