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Superiorwolf
United States5509 Posts
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grobo
Japan6199 Posts
When i was 14years old i was out playing soccer, speedrunning Super Metroid, hanging out with friends and basically just being a kid, i'm 22 now and i'm not even having thoughts like you do. What i'm trying to say is just stop taking everything so damn serious, if you enjoy commenting then keep doing it, if you commentate solely for the purpose of being praised by the SC community you are doing it for the wrong reason. keep doing whatever you enjoy doing.. | ||
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Oracle
Canada411 Posts
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Cpt Obvious
Germany3073 Posts
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berated-
United States1134 Posts
The internet is a fun place where you can get away from your normal reality, but you can't let it consume you. You are only 14 yrs old, you really need to just let all of this go and just live life and use it to find out who you really are. As you've stated you have a lot of things going for you, you are intelligent and you could possibly have a bright future ahead of you. It isn't worth letting all of that go so that you can get some attention on broadcasting for a couple starcraft games. The most important thing you need to realize is that even if you continue commentating you need to step back and analyze what is going on. You want to know why people enjoy nony, klazart, and tasteless? Not only are they good they are passionate about what they are doing. They don't do it so that they can get a couple appreciation threads on TL or Youtube, they do it because its fun. I think you have severely lost track of all of that. The first sign of positive feed back and you're in it for the glory and not the journey. So basically, forget about all of this. Enjoy your vacation in China, don't let all of this bring you down. Come on the internet to relax, play a couple games of starcraft because its fun. Be a kid and grow up and enjoy highschool. It isn't going to be here forever, and one day you'll look back and regret it all if you spend your entire youth worrying about commentating. | ||
mikeymoo
Canada7170 Posts
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XCetron
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dementus
Singapore1151 Posts
if you feel commentating needs to be a viable career option for you to put in more effort to improve, and your happiness hinges about whether or not your vids get rave reviews, then you definitely got into it for the wrong reasons. i'm pretty sure klaz picked up commentating and shoutcasting for the challenge and fun of it; that his quadv deal is an added bonus to the fun he has from casting. you should take a break, as it is clear you don't find much joy in this endeavour now. perhaps you should have another go when you can give sound analyses of games and have a deeper understanding of bw. | ||
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Polemarch
Canada1564 Posts
The best person to compete against is the person you were at the start of the day. Then the game is balanced and yet you can win every time. The way to get to the top of Mount Everest is to go one step at a time. | ||
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boghat
United States2109 Posts
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SiZ.FaNtAsY
Korea (South)1497 Posts
On July 01 2007 10:29 Cpt Obvious wrote: Man I really kinda like you but you are pathetic. Just relax it. | ||
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Klaz
Ireland334 Posts
I kinda see/understand where superiorwolf is coming from. Yes you should only do stuff (like commentating) if you enjoy it not for attention, but at the same time, lets just be fucking honest, if no one wanted to listen to my commentating then why bother? Unless I had some kind of pathological obsession with the sound of my own voice it would be pretty retarded to make commentaries that only I would listen to. The whole point of doing it is when you feel u have an opinion or something that you want to share with others, but if everyone else tells you (by not listening) then why invest time into it. I can hear my own thoughts in my head fine anyway, I don't need to record "omg Justin is a lame cookie-cutter terran and I'm glad Reach gave him some MAN-Handling" just so i can play it back later to myself and go "hey I had fun saying that to myself" The point of the above is that it's easy to rip on superiorwolf about not being happy that he is not being successful at what he's doing, but it's also hypocritical. I can totally understand and see why he and zalfor can get jealous (and yes zalfor, i've noticed all your passive/agressive, god I hate this dude but don't wanna openly flame him cause the tl.net community will flame me posts) I saw the TL commentary contest and wanted to give it a try because I thought it'd be fun, and it was, but the encouragement and positive feedback had a huge role to play. Anyways I'm totally addicted to commentating because I've always been an opinionated bastard and as it turns out, some people actually like listening to my opinions. On the doctor thing, been there done that. I'm a fully qualified doctor, I actually took a year out from medicine to "follow my dream" which was to work on my writing. I've got a book coming out in a coupla months but it's not fiction (fiction being what I want to write), and it was easy anyway and I knew before I even started writing it that it would get published. But the hard part is getting a novel published which I've yet to achieve and I've lost 5 months of my year already. Somewhere along the way, between too many computer games, too much typing and too much computer use I've managed to ufck up my hands with RSI to the point where each commentary I spend hours syncing and uploading is actually fucking my hands even more. The sweetest irony here is that I'm a victim of my own success. If people had just told me I suck and should quit I'da been better off and coulda gone back to writing my Booker prize winning novel. Writing this post is actually a bitch for me because I've got so many conflicting ideas running through my head now... but anyways... here's a few points.. 1) Only become a doctor if it's something you want to do. Not because your parents are doctors (true of most asian families) or u think it will bring you prestige. I went into medicine for the wrong reasons, sure I'm a great doctor, most of my patients and colleagues told me so, but being a doctor is hard work, and if you don't love it then it's shit. And as great as you feel after helping someone you can still go home and feel shit afterwards because you aren't doing what you love. Which is why I prolly won't go back to medicine at the end of my "time out." 2) Addictions suck. Doing commentaries is bad for me, but I love it too much. But looks like you'll get your secret wish. I've gotta decide what my long term goals are and focus on them (winning the damn booker prize), which means I need to seriously cut down and take a few steps back from the whole commentating thing. Which means that I'll prolly keep doing a few till the end of this season and then pull back from it. So you will have no competition from me any more and can go for it hell for leather, if that's what you want. 3) RSI sucks, so learn about it and be aware of it. If you are gonna use a PC 24/7 like me then make sure u got good posture, make sure you work out atleast 3 times /week as that will protect you and make sure u take frequent break and the first sign of symptoms cut back 10x on ur pc use. (all advice I failed myself to follow) 4) ur a kid, enjoy life, get a gf (or bf if that's your preference), you'll achieve something some day and look back at all this with tremendous embarrasment, but that's okay but because everyone has it. Good luck either way. As for me, I'm glad you made this post, it's a big wake up call for me. It's easy to say to yourself 10 times a day, "focus on your priorities," but it's hard to do. So anyways moral of the story is that I will be cutting back a lot on my commentaries and probably stopping (trying to) entirely when the season comes to an end, not to say I won't follow sc anymore (because I love it) and if the opportunity to cast something live came, I'd sure as hell jump on it, but I need to take a step back from all this crap. | ||
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Superiorwolf
United States5509 Posts
The point is, I was happy because when I commentated before, I usually only got good comments with the exception of TLnet threads. People on Youtube thought I was really good, and I was having fun as well. As soon as the Teamliquid commentary contest was announced I knew I was screwed though, because most people thought I had 'potential' but that I sucked atm, so I knew that no one would vote for me. I was hoping for the best though, that no one would stick with commentaries, but you stuck with it and you're hell of good. I was happy at first because it was like my hard work brought out a good commentator (because my 'suckiness' made the commentary contest), but then you made the Youtube account and then I just got really emo from there. First you surpassed me in subscribers and stuff so quickly and I had been doing it since February, and then my subscribers mostly stopped watching my VODs (I saw a huge decrease in views after you came). I got less comments and stuff as well, and then all this stuff on youtube, TLnet, GGnet that got me really angry. What I think is my problem is that at this point I only do the commentaries for the good comments. I became really jealous because you were the only person getting most of the good comments and I felt that I had just wasted months of my life. "but the encouragement and positive feedback had a huge role to play" This was one of my main reasons that I kept doing it, everytime I released a VOD I waited for the youtube to process it and I waited and waited and when I got the first comments or so I felt really happy, everytime I would ride my bike back from school really fast to see what new comments I got. I really appreciate your post because it gives me a lot of advice that I need, just like the other posts in my blog (like Physician's). I'll probably look back at my 14 year old time just like I sometimes look back when I was 8 years old, and remember how stupid I was and didn't understand anything. 1) Being a doctor is something I really want to do because I feel happy when I help someone or contribute to the community. I know it's hard work because my parents are always busy and they are working a lot, also you need to persist hard in Highschool / College / Medical School. 2) Yes, this addiction sucks. My eyesight deteriorating, grades slightly, also I never feel like I'm accomplishing anything. You're right about the long term goals, which I need to focus on. Every time I have some few aspirations but they all aren't something that I really need, for example (these were taken from my journal) a - commentate with Tasteless b - become good enough in Starcraft to go to WCG when older c - create a game d - good grades As you can see, 3 of them were game related :/ 5) the one thing I have to say is that I don't want you to quit your commentaries. I was totally immature as always when I said that I didn't like you, but anyways. You are good at commentaries, better than Tasteless (not like he does them anymore anyways). I would love to see you at WCG commentating, because that would be awesome (though I would like to see Tasteless as well because he is still a good commentator). You are good at commentating and I don't think you should quit it it was just that I am really jealous of you. I know that it's bad for your health and your long term goals as well but according to pretty much everything you are someone that people enjoy listening to. Take a step back if you have to, but even I don't want you to quit (though I want some good attention as well, but that's really selfish). I know full well that I'm being immature and selfish when I say these things and want these things but it's true. Thanks for posting this blog, also I apologize if I offended you in any way. | ||
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Silbers
United States3 Posts
All you need is to keep doing your good work. If you love doing something, you will do best anyway. But just don't do it because you need an attention. You will be fine. Just never give up easily. Many successful people do respect others and never getting too emotional. =) | ||
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jimbob615
Uruguay455 Posts
sorry but klazert is so much better then you. there's not alot you can do except wish him luck because everyone else wants to hear him and not your voice. klazert has class, charisma, kindness and the ability to be funny all wrapped into one. you just cant match him, in no way is this meant to belittle you, its just what everyone thinks. i recommend that you stop commentating and instead just watch his VODS like we all do, and enjoy them. give up your dreams of commentating and become a regular peon like us. you're no different. getting a girlfriend is a hard task but maybe start working on that too. but see what happens ok! first kiss? ^_^ its coming soon i bet... | ||
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Nachos_and_Tacos
Brazil2 Posts
1) Of course klazarts commentaries are better, he is much older and experienced, you are really young still....and for your age you are commentating goddam well. You will only get better and better with time. I am positive of that. Don't give up. 2) I think that people, when they post comments online, it is really easy to tell someone off and be mean. Such comments should not be taken seriously. Who are they to say shit like that about your comments? constructive criticism is one thing, but telling you to quit end etc that is just stupid. If you hate superiorwolf's commentaries that is your problem, no1 will ever force you to listen to it. On the other side there are a lot of people, like me, who like it a lot, and think it is cool and gutsy of the kid to make his comments public, as an effort to help the sc community. Keep those commentaries coming man, It is so much better to watch SC with you guys commentating. Thank you. | ||
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GoOdJo
United States205 Posts
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RebelHeart
New Zealand722 Posts
or just hold it off 'til your balls drop or something | ||
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Wizard
Poland5055 Posts
LOL! | ||
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kumo1232
Australia1 Post
but if you dont drop this attitude, you will never make it past med school. if you cant hack losing a popularity contest on the internet, how can you expect to handle having patients die on you? | ||
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