EPT[Feardragon] Why I am no longer a full-time commentator -…
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hsidori
United States116 Posts
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MagisterTorner
Sweden1 Post
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Elmonti
Spain299 Posts
1- As someone whose job sometimes includes treating it, F*CK the cancer. Hope all goes well with your family. 2- When I think about you as a caster/host, based on Challenger and WCS events basically, two things come to my mind: the vast amount and honest love you have for Starcraft, and the lack of strong character. In my opinion Incontrol, Nathanias or Zombiegrub are casters with an "aggresive" or pretty forward character when it comes to do their job, and when paired with them, your soft character becomes even more clear. Also that "soft" sense of humor clashed with theirs, making it sometimes a little uncomfortable to watch you interact with them (I'm not refering to that "bulling" bull**it, I now you're good friends). You seem like the kind of person I cannot picture in any other attitude than being nice and kind and smiling. And this is not a bad thing in life, but when it comes to being a public figure I think you need to have a stronger character. 3- Proplayers and casters will say that stuff about you, just as people say the same things about them all the time. It sucks but it is the way it is. And here it comes the same thing I mentioned earlier: strong character. I guess when it comes to being a caster/public figure in esports (young internet audience = LOTS of inmature idiots and trolls, even in a "mature" game like SC2) you need to develop a very thick skin. Either you can aproach the "I dont give a fuck" attitude (like Artosis, even the "0 communication" like Tasteless), or just take all that shittalking and try to deal with it in the best way possible (like the vast mayority does, including Incontrol, ZG, Maynarde, etc.). 4- About your self-confidence issues: you said professionals have helped you. I don't think the best way to reinforce this is to expose yourself to thousands of trolls and 13yo-behaviour idiots in Twitch, Reddit, etc. Maybe a good thing to build up that self-esteem is to step away from being a public figure for a while, until you feel more confident about yourself. Anyway, I'm not a psychologist so this is a personal opinion (like all the rest I guess). Having said all this, I do think you are the most SC2-loving caster in the scene, I do think you have helped the NA scene A LOT, and I hope you find succes/hapiness in whatever you decide to do in the future. | ||
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pvsnp
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On June 04 2019 05:13 Nerchio wrote: I honestly think software engineering will be better for you, it's hard to do esports for a long time and should be much better for your mental health. If I may ask, what is your specialty in software engineering? As a fellow software engineer, this. There is a certain skillset required to do software, and it does not have much overlap with the skillset demanded by commentating or esports. And with all due respect to everyone involved with the scene, I personally could never make the transition from software to Starcraft. Not only is it a hugely different environment, the cost-benefit calculation simply doesn't add up. The mentioned 75% pay cut is only the tip of the iceberg; when considering all the benefits, perks, stock options, career growth, etc, it's not even remotely close to pragmatic. Most definitely not while living in SF. I can deeply empathize with the woes of Bay Area housing. Have you considered moving closer to San Jose? SF prices are straight up ridiculous and many large companies have offices between the two cities. You might be able to work at the same place and just commute from the opposite direction. San Jose prices aren't great, of course, but something in the $1500-2000 range is not uncommon, assuming you have roommates. If you get lucky you might find a place in Sunnyvale or Santa Clara for around the same. I've heard that San Mateo and Redwood City can be reasonable as well. The Bay is a big place. Best of luck in life and Starcraft. | ||
Pandemona
Charlie Sheens House51490 Posts
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Jatlantis1
Australia11 Posts
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yubo56
688 Posts
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SnowAngel
Finland38 Posts
Get in there Ravi. | ||
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LaughNgamez
Canada524 Posts
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DomeGetta
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TheRealNanMan
United States1471 Posts
I've always considered you a friend even though I fell out of the scene for 2 years it was great to come back and hang out and work with you at Cheeseadelphia in December. I hope that we will be able to hang out at more Cheeseadelphia events in the future. I want you to know that I think you were really brave to try and take the plunge and go full time. Just like you that was always the dream when we started casting back in WoL. I'm sad to hear things didn't work out the way you had hoped and wish you all the best in everything you do in the future <3 | ||
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Ignorant prodigy
United States385 Posts
try it... watch.. fuck ptitdrogo fuck rifkin see... feels better amiright? | ||
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Mahanaim
Korea (South)1002 Posts
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Ty2
United States1434 Posts
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StabiloBoss20
313 Posts
and i want my girls to hop on cause they wanna have fun... not to earn money and do their business stuff. so do your fulltime job and if you find the time stream a bit. i will be there! | ||
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[F_]aths
Germany3947 Posts
About the criticism, I remember Tastosis got a lot. Sometimes, there were some valid points I think, but I saw a lot of uninformed, over-the-top critique, sometimes even today. It took years or the casting archon's omnipresence to cement the current standing of being generally accepted as good. Players are not always known for being well spoken. Drogo's comment is probably meant as hyperbole, written in an angry state. Maybe it is also a power game, wanting to get more positive recognition from a caster. Or it is just expressing contempt for a non-top caster, again as a kind of power game. But the player is not who the caster works for. As audience member, I like to have a range of options. This includes feardragon. | ||
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coursesix
United States1 Post
You can have love for a game without it consuming you. What is fortunate for you is that you have an education/career to return to. Many casters/former pros don't have that safety net in case SC2 viewership dries or something bad happens. We have a lot in common. I am an Indian from the East Coast, and so I do what East Coast Indians do-- medicine. You do what West Coast Indians do-- tech. I value my family above everything else and my parents have had some recent health scares, but nothing on the order of pancreatic CA or whatever your parent has. I love StarCraft, and I watch and play it every day. But at the end of the day, I know it is and always will be solely for recreation, not to make a living. Last year, two pros made more than my salary (Serral and Maru). You should go back to tech and realize that with your additional earning potential, you can either try to achieve FIRE and then play/comment for fun, or you can pursue the standard Indian path (ie, marriage and kids). And if you are planning on staying in the Bay Area long term, I don't think it would be feasible as a full time commentator. Finally, don't ever mind the haters. They will always be there. And they will always meme, because it's way cooler to meme hate than to meme love. TBH, your casts never once bothered me. [That said, I end up muting 99% of casts, including Tasteosis, since most of the stuff talked about in any cast is garbage that has no relation to the game. I tune in for StarCraft, which I get from the production tab and minimap, not stand up comedy.] TLDR - I'm sorry for what you are going through, but I agree that taking a break from StarCraft and focusing on family and finding a new job is the right thing to do. | ||
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Ximaceo
Spain3 Posts
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Pandain
United States12989 Posts
Wishing you and your family the best. | ||
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LHK
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