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It has been almost 4 years since I got disowned. Maybe some of you can relate, having extremely religious parents and not following in their footsteps. Instead choosing to blaze your own trail.
It has been almost 4 years since my parents told me that they couldn’t support the values that I had taken. That if I wanted anything in life I would have to pay for it. That if I wanted an education I would have to earn it.
It has been almost 4 years, and in that time I grew rapidly. Working multiple jobs, going to school: Choosing whether to eat or pay tuition. Traveling the world and reconciling with my parents.
It has been almost 4 years since the biggest defining moment of my life, and still my heart aches when I think of it. How envious I get when I see people whose parents support them. How jealous of my siblings, as I see my parent’s support them through college. How happy am I, that they can lead the life I wished to live.
It has been almost 4 years, and even though I will be starting the next chapter of my post graduate life, my future is all the more brighter because of my past. People ask “Do you wish that your life was different?”. What answer can I give them? To change what happened, would change who I am.
It has been almost 4 years, and the emotional battle that I have locked away in my heart continues
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Often the people who love us the most, are the ones that hurt us the most. I hope that you can resolve and work through the emotional battle that has been going on in your heart for almost 4 years;
I want to share a story with you:
I have friend who is adopted. When he was 18 years old, he asked his adoptive parents, who love him very much, to help him buy a ticket to go back to his country and try to find his mother; so they agree, he goes there and after a lot of searching he finds his biological mother. She then refuses him and tells him that he is no son of hers; this was 13 years ago. This was devastating to him. Today this person has not yet choosed to go into his own emotional battle and solve things, and this single event has holded him back into his life, created many problems and limited his oppurtunities to archieve his goals.
Life is not fair. Its what you make of it;
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i see each of my divorced parents once per year each. Started that when i was 19. Best move I ever made.
i went to a co-op school and basically had 10 days maximum vacation for 5 years to obtain my 4 year degree. i didn't touch a video game for 5 years. zero watching sports. work, study, exercise. non stop for 5 years.
i'll never forget the super-cool dude living in my first year uni rez ... driving a $60,000 sports car his parents handed to him for free. its 3 am and i'm studying away as usual ... my route to the floor washroom passes by his room .... as i walk past i overhear him begging for more money from his mom. LOL.
i have an independence and confidence that someone who relies on their parents can never have. For most of the people in my high school going to university just meant 4 more years of living by their parents rules. LOL. fuck that noise.
quit whining.. define a purpose, set your goals, get to work and move forward.
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