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TelecoM
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States10668 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-12-02 08:44:02
December 02 2014 08:36 GMT
#1
Hello ol' faithful TL....Some of you may have read my old blogs. The one of most relevance here is this blog http://www.teamliquid.net/blogs/446907-ive-returned-a-new-person .

So I am going to make this short and sweet, I have a lot of shit on my mind and I do not feel comfortable in my own skin lately, I am a really open / honest person so I just say exactly what I think / feel always, I am only saying this so you can keep an open mind reading on...

So for the last 7 months I have been working doing tech support, really MEH type of job, ya know? Having country people calling bitching at you all the time about there internet / tv / tablets / phone / computers / ect...It can be really stressful, I always joked around about calling tech support untill I am on the opposite end of things, funny how life is.

The job itself is really laid back, and when I am not on a call helping someone, I am usually playing NES / SNES games(Who would ever complain about getting paid to play video games?). So I enjoy the job, we have fun, it's not a dream job it is a job, better than nothing at the moment.

In comes the problem...

So basically to make a long story short, I got busted selling weed, was homeless afterwards in Pittsburgh, PA for 6 months due to circumstances afterwards, anyways I ended up moving back to South Carolina, bum fuck egypt, middle of no where.

My father is about 80 years old or so, I miss him, A LOT, too the point where I don't really sleep much anymore, I hide all of the true feelings / emotions behind smoking weed / drinking ( not a lot but I do drink some beers , smoke a lot though ) , I am living now with my mom , sister, and her husband, I am thankful that I have this place to live but now things are changing...

Before my father had a bad stroke, and was in a state of comatose for 6 months, then came out of it, and has been recovering ever since, he was living with his X Wife before I moved back to SC, him and her got into it because she doesn't like him going out and having a drink every now and then, but he just likes to go out to socialize really, to get out of the house, see people, he is an artist after all.

So she gave him an ultimatum, either you go to assisted living ( Old folks home ? ) ,or you move out, so my father moved out on his own, the problem is he needs constant supervision (Food, meds, general help) because after his stroke, he suffered from his ability to speak / form sentences / words properly. I can understand him though very well despite that, better than most anyone else i've seen trying to talk to him.

I am completely spit and lost imbetween my mother / sister and going back to my father, my mom and her husband are trying to tell me not to go back to Pittsburgh because I'd end up back in jail, but I have no intention of getting back into selling weed, I learned my lesson on that, It is more about being able to be with my father, being not in the middle of fucking no where (I am now in Prosperity, SC, AKA BUM FUCK EGYPT, NO Internet or anything available....Only MiFi hotspots...it is like Hell on earth... ) , and because I obviously psychologically want familiarity, and it would be much easier to find girls in the city than in the middle of no where, especially since I don't even have my license...didn't really need one in the city...

So I am torn between family, I feel my heart keep telling me to go back to my father, and my head keeps telling me to stay, And then my head tells me to go, and my heart tells me to stay.....I AM LOST and I really don't know what to do, any advice would be really appreciated.

....I feel like I have to eventually just do what the fuck I want to, and stop worrying so much about what others think all the time, I am too empathetic always, I never really think about what I want myself, but then when I do , I feel selfish.

EDIT : I just want to add that I think that there is a conspiracy going on with the SC2 "Dream Map Pool" and Sonic / OGN's partnership, do you realize how many people are going to want to go back to BW after playing all these shitty old maps? I'm about to fire up some BW again, haven't played a game in awhile, BW always helps heal things T_T

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AKA: TelecoM[WHITE] Protoss fighting
Boonbag
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
France3318 Posts
December 02 2014 09:24 GMT
#2
what are you going to be living off if you move and quit your shitty tech support job ?
what kind of artist your father is ?
TelecoM
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States10668 Posts
December 02 2014 09:31 GMT
#3
On December 02 2014 18:24 Boonbag wrote:
what are you going to be living off if you move and quit your shitty tech support job ?
what kind of artist your father is ?


I can get a job pretty easily i'm sure once I got there, and it isn't really a "shitty" job, it is just not a "dream" job, as I stated. smart ass.

My father paints pictures, a lot of them are on TV shows like friends, king of queens, and other shows.
AKA: TelecoM[WHITE] Protoss fighting
Boonbag
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
France3318 Posts
December 02 2014 09:34 GMT
#4
On December 02 2014 18:31 GGzerG wrote:
Show nested quote +
On December 02 2014 18:24 Boonbag wrote:
what are you going to be living off if you move and quit your shitty tech support job ?
what kind of artist your father is ?


I can get a job pretty easily i'm sure once I got there, and it isn't really a "shitty" job, it is just not a "dream" job, as I stated. smart ass.

My father paints pictures, a lot of them are on TV shows like friends, king of queens, and other shows.


that's pretty awesome man
is he still working since the stroke ?
TelecoM
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States10668 Posts
December 02 2014 09:39 GMT
#5
He is still painting pictures yes.
AKA: TelecoM[WHITE] Protoss fighting
Boonbag
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
France3318 Posts
December 02 2014 10:00 GMT
#6
any website where you can see some ?
TelecoM
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States10668 Posts
December 02 2014 10:05 GMT
#7
http://tonycacalano.com/
AKA: TelecoM[WHITE] Protoss fighting
Boonbag
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
France3318 Posts
December 02 2014 10:17 GMT
#8
you should get involed in that if anything
be his assistant idk !
ZenithM
Profile Joined February 2011
France15952 Posts
December 02 2014 15:51 GMT
#9
My gut feeling reading you is that you should go to your father. I think you may end up regretting it later if you don't do it.
But I don't really know, sorry man :/
XenOsky
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
Chile2260 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-12-02 17:53:19
December 02 2014 17:39 GMT
#10
nobody can tell you what to do. You should do what u think is best at the moment.

Reading some Nietzsche may help, i know that it helped me, when i needed advice.

gagman.
StarCraft & Audax Italiano.
wmb
Profile Joined February 2014
Sweden282 Posts
December 02 2014 17:53 GMT
#11
hey long time no see tele! hit me up when ur playing BW again!
Hi I'm the infamous wmb, Diamond 1 / Challenger Player.
JieXian
Profile Blog Joined August 2008
Malaysia4677 Posts
December 02 2014 17:55 GMT
#12
I like his art man, I would buy some of it if I wasn't a student, especially since it's affordable.
Please send me a PM of any song you like that I most probably never heard of! I am looking for people to chat about writing and producing music | https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=noD-bsOcxuU |
Glowsphere
Profile Blog Joined November 2014
United States170 Posts
December 02 2014 18:31 GMT
#13
On December 03 2014 00:51 ZenithM wrote:
My gut feeling reading you is that you should go to your father. I think you may end up regretting it later if you don't do it.
But I don't really know, sorry man :/


I agree with this. Spend time with him while you can if that's where you heart is. Never know how much time we'll have with the people will love, and it sounds like he could use your help.
QuanticHawk
Profile Blog Joined May 2007
United States32049 Posts
December 02 2014 18:47 GMT
#14
If you can secure a job before you go out there I would say do it since time seems limited
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TelecoM
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States10668 Posts
December 02 2014 21:23 GMT
#15
Thanks for the responses guys, I appreciate the advice.
AKA: TelecoM[WHITE] Protoss fighting
batsnacks
Profile Blog Joined April 2014
United States4466 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-12-03 00:14:45
December 03 2014 00:08 GMT
#16
On December 02 2014 19:05 GGzerG wrote:
http://website.com/


You just invited everyone on TL to email your dad this blog :/
TelecoM
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States10668 Posts
December 03 2014 01:13 GMT
#17
On December 03 2014 09:08 batsnacks wrote:
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On December 02 2014 19:05 GGzerG wrote:
http://website.com/


You just invited everyone on TL to email your dad this blog :/


Not everyone would think like such a douche bag I hope, he doesn't really check his own email anymore anyway...
AKA: TelecoM[WHITE] Protoss fighting
DocM
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
United States212 Posts
December 03 2014 01:56 GMT
#18
I live in pittsburgh atm. You're welcome to crash on my couch for a while if you need a place to stay.
TelecoM
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States10668 Posts
December 03 2014 02:08 GMT
#19
On December 03 2014 10:56 DocM wrote:
I live in pittsburgh atm. You're welcome to crash on my couch for a while if you need a place to stay.


Very nice of you man, is this the same DocM from BW?
AKA: TelecoM[WHITE] Protoss fighting
DocM
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
United States212 Posts
December 03 2014 02:13 GMT
#20
Nah, i'm not even remotely internet famous.
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