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On December 11th, 2013, I started this account. The reason? I couldn't remember until I looked it up, but I quickly found out:
"Happy Birthday Scarlett. You were a big part in helping restore my passion for SC2. So thanks for that, and have a great day!"
So... ya. That was my first post. In the Scarlett fan club.That's the reason I decided to make an account. I've been a big fan of Scarlett, then a heartbroken anti-fan, then I was very rude to her (thanks mostly to alcohol!), and then I somehow ended up playing a bunch of games with her. Odd how things happen like that, isn't it? It was the truth, she was a big part of why I'm here today...
I have been a Starcraft fan since 2010 when I got the game for my birthday after watching some HuskyStarcraft videos on youtube. But at some point, I just, stopped watching, lost my passion, gave up, ect. I once stayed up to watch GSL at 3am in good old 24p (no, I did not miss a 0 there). But as my at the time friends moved on from the game, and life stuff happened around me, and just as the infestor/broodlord era was beginning I got out.
A few years of University happened. A few disappointing, eye opening, depressing and awful years. Not to get too into this, I started University a bright-eyed momma's boy who thought for sure he was gonna be a doctor, no sweat. I left after 2 and a half years and 9 failed classes later, a drug addicted, depressed failure.
At some point, Starcraft just sort of fell back into my life. I was unemployed, extremely bored with life, had lost all my friends, and just needed... something to fill the void. It started with just a few games here and there, and eventually I watched an entire tournament. That tournament just happened to be Red Bull Battlegrounds New York. Such a great event, and without a doubt the game that won me over back to SC2 and turned me into a fanboy was Scarlett vs Bomber. Such an amazing back and forth game, so full of tension and excitement, with one of the most satisfying conclusions I've ever seen. I was hooked. I looked into the SC2 community, first at sites I was familiar with, reddit and 4chan, and saw that both there SC2 pages were, well, kind of shitty. So I eventually stumbled upon TL and was just excited to see people actually talking about stuff and having discussions. I made an account right away, and found a "greatest games" list and caught up on the last few years I'd missed. It was a great feeling to actually have some passion for something again.
In the 11 months since I joined TL, a lot has happened in my life, and I'm a very diffferent person today than I was back then. I've moved cities, started a new job, got fired from said job and then started another one. I've gotten off of drugs (besides alcohol), partially by choice, work and partially by getting caught by family and receiving the asswhooping of a lifetime from my own mother. But the truth is, I've been serverely depressed for years now, and that DOESNT go away...
I've been a dick to a lot of you on TL, and you guys have stuck with me and been some of the nicest people I've ever had the plessure of dealing with. No matter how much I whine, bitch, and freak out over nothing, someone is there. No matter what mental breakdown I publically go through, someone is there. To be completely honest, there have been times where I have been suicidal, and the kindness of people on here has been one of the things holding me back from the abyss. And as much as I sometimes feel like I'm wasting time on here, or with this silly game called Starcraft 2, I'm pretty sure I'd be worse off if I'd never come here in the first place. You people are pretty much my best friends and I can do nothing but thank you.
I'm picking my life back up though. The new job seems to be working out okay. I have my own apartment now, my own vehicle, I'm off drugs, and it actually seems like I have a future at this point. We'll see where this path takes me I suppose, I have no ideas and no real goals in life but I'm hoping I'll find something eventually. For now, it's all about fixing my head and relaxing, nothing more.
So that's my slightly random assortment of thoughts. Sorry for the lack of coherancy, just kind of doing this in one draft... Thanks everyone for being amazing. This is the best site on the internet!
Shoutouts, in no particular order to:
Plexa
Zealously
The_Templar
KingofdaHipHop
DarkLordOlli
Darkhorse
Ty2
ThomasJServo
Aeromi
opterown
Xoronius
GumBa
Seeker
Wombat_NI
DepressedOne
ninazerg
Fecalfeast
brickrd
vult
Basically everyone who's taken to time to actually get in contact with me when I'm feeling down, as well as people who seems to always replay to me no matter what shit I throw around. If I forgot you, just tell me, I'm a forgetful idiot most of the time.
Thanks everyone, and here's to 20k in the future!
 
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your Country52797 Posts
Good 10k post.
Sorry I'm sometimes a bit mean/rude to you, I don't usually intend it that way. ^^
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On November 08 2014 16:56 The_Templar wrote:
Good 10k post.
Sorry I'm sometimes a bit mean/rude to you, I don't usually intend it that way. ^^
You're not mean to me. If you've ever been so, I probably really deserved it.
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You intentionally left out the lichter shoutout, right? 5/5
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On November 08 2014 17:17 ZigguratOfUr wrote:
You intentionally left out the lichter shoutout, right? 5/5
who?
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On November 08 2014 17:20 SetGuitarsToKill wrote:Show nested quote +On November 08 2014 17:17 ZigguratOfUr wrote:
You intentionally left out the lichter shoutout, right? 5/5 who?
Also, because of you I've started looking at my old posts... Some of them are kinda unfortunate:
On October 02 2012 08:29 ZigguratOfUr wrote:
Fionn... You're the only one that thinks that Bogus belongs in the Top 3 KeSPA terran list. Besides that I mostly agree with the predictions. Great article as usual.
I don't think I should continue reading...
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Damn you been here under a year? Sheeeeeiiiiit
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Canada11355 Posts
How does one person spam that much in a year?
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Canada11355 Posts
also 3/5 for not being your real 10k
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1001 YEARS KESPAJAIL22272 Posts
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Netherlands6187 Posts
You haven't even been here for a year and you have 10k? wut.
Nice blog though, I am scared to go back and look at what I posted when I first signed up. Enjoy your stay and portraits coming soon(tm)
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A combination of free time from unemployment and no real social life lends itself to being able to spend a lot of time on here. Low, low quality posts help to 
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your Country52797 Posts
I wouldn't worry about your social life SGTK, you do have friends on here :p
Regarding 10k posts in 1 year, my how times do change, I was told at my 1k post that 1k in 10 months was a lot.
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Aww, you're too kind Temp.
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TLADT24920 Posts
Grats on the 10k you spammer! lol. Good job with getting things on track. You sound young so there's still time to think of goals and maybe even go back to university (or college) if you decide on a certain field. Here's to another 10k in a year's time lol.
ps Ty2 and depressedone are the same individual I think.
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On November 09 2014 03:35 BigFan wrote:
Grats on the 10k you spammer! lol. Good job with getting things on track. You sound young so there's still time to think of goals and maybe even go back to university (or college) if you decide on a certain field. Here's to another 10k in a year's time lol.
ps Ty2 and depressedone are the same individual I think.
seriously? well, double shoutout I guess, since he's messaged me on both accounts 
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hope you beat depression one day, if it's a serious one. They seem to be horrible, according to my books.
gg. 10k is good.
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Hey buddy, grats to you. I'm mostly concerned with BW 3.0 myself, so I don't think I've seen many of your posts... it seems like you mostly frequent the SC2 forums.
As far as I know, from my own experience, depression is cured by taking action towards your passions, good health habits, and good friends.
You gain confidence from acting on your passions (yes, finally living the dream! :D) - feel better from exercising, eating, sleeping right (fewer reasons for your body to get angry at you) - and feel better from laughing with friends (good memories to keep your mind occupied with happy thoughts).
My own life has been far better over the past year or so than it has been in years. And the more focus I put into those three things, the better I think it will get for me.
Anyway, just confirming that there are other people out there who understand depression firsthand. Cheers to you, you have a brighter future.
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TLADT24920 Posts
On November 09 2014 03:37 SetGuitarsToKill wrote:Show nested quote +On November 09 2014 03:35 BigFan wrote:
Grats on the 10k you spammer! lol. Good job with getting things on track. You sound young so there's still time to think of goals and maybe even go back to university (or college) if you decide on a certain field. Here's to another 10k in a year's time lol.
ps Ty2 and depressedone are the same individual I think. seriously? well, double shoutout I guess, since he's messaged me on both accounts
well Ty2 got a perm a while back but I only think so since a mod once seemed to hint it.
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Grats on 10k but no shoutout makes me a sad man 
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On November 09 2014 14:51 vult wrote:Grats on 10k but no shoutout makes me a sad man
be sad no more!
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Wow 10k/ year, hope LR can cure your depression one day so you can be a real doctor building a clinic named after our blizzcon champion, saving millions by introducing them to SC2 and LR, proceeding to earn a nobel on both medicine, world peace, shifting the social life meta forever and being an ESPORTS savior. SGTK fighting!
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On November 09 2014 23:04 Skynx wrote:Wow 10k/ year, hope LR can cure your depression one day so you can be a real doctor building a clinic named after our blizzcon champion, saving millions by introducing them to SC2 and LR, proceeding to earn a nobel on both medicine, world peace, shifting the social life meta forever and being an ESPORTS savior. SGTK fighting!
That... seems like a lofty goal, but I'll see what I can do
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Seeker
Where dat snitch at?37032 Posts
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