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Learn to appreciate life...
because its all you have.
I recently finished a internship at the emergency room as paramedic (just a hobby i do in my sparetime).
I can stomach alot, and im not quickly emotionally touched, but one particular case did get me thinking.
We had to ride out to get a terminally ill patient, she was only 32 years old. She looked horribly, apparently the doctors told her she only had a few weeks left to live. She herself took everything very lighthearted, making jokes all the time, even in her bad state.
I remember when the doctor came in saying they needed to give her sedatives, but that she and her family had to realise that she might not wake up from them anymore. She didnt seem to care that much, but her family and partner broke out in tears.
On my next work day i got to hear she had died overnight.
I then simply wonder, who this girl was, what her ambitions were when she was a kid, and why her life was cut short so brutally.
I guess this story will not tell you much, its just a group of letters and words on a discussion board.
But yea, learn to appreciate what you have, and not what you dont have.
 
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Hey man, a short message can say a lot. I myself am stuck in the middle of nowhere China, far away from family and friends and sometimes I ask myself, what am I doing here, will this job will advance my career in the future? I don't really get along with my co-workers or my roommate. So sometimes I feel like I am here alone and sometimes I really want to get out, but I know that finding another job is not easy and that there's a reason for me to be here and that I should cherish it.
My story isn't too similar to your blog, but on those days where I tell myself, I should live my life to the fullest, I will also tell myself "because I have been given the chance that some people don't."
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Wow, 32 years old, that's quite young. I think the most tragic deaths are the ones I hear about people dying in accidents right after college. A person spent their entire life so far just learning and trying to become part of the world, and when finally the day starts when it begins to pay off, their life is unexpectedly cut short.
I definitely wouldn't be able to do a job as a paramedic.
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@rkshox
Yea, your situation doesnt sound easy. I usually just tell myself, its just like long distance running, when running you feel crap, but once you reach the finish line you will feel great. Thats life, you cannot experience true happiness without going through sadness first. But it sometimes can be very hard. I do hope you find/have some friends over there to support you.
@chairman ray
Yea, it is something weird, sometimes its just best to not think to much about it. I know alot of fucked up stories... at moments like that you really start to understand why so many people are religious...
Another thing i saw at my internship was a young man who had gotten a very heavy stroke, he was in a coma...even if he wakes up...he will be scarred for the rest of his life. I remember his girlfriend asking us...its not that serious, is it? As if she was unable to cope with the reality that her husband was nearly braindead at that moment.
Or someone who had a stroke a few years ago, he could understand everyone perfectly, but he just couldnt speak anymore...
Imagine waking up one day in a hospital...and besides you stands your family, they start asking questions....but when you want to answer them...you suddenly cannot formulate words anymore, but you understand everything that is being told.
Or just seeing a man die before your eyes, we had a man who had been trampled by a horse..i litterally saw his lifesigns fade, while the doctors decided doing anything more was hopeless..it is weird seeing a man die..its just a body that stops functioning...a body that once was a person full with memories and dreams.
Shit like that happens in life. Its extremely hard to see things like that, but at the same time you really start to appreciate your own life more, because compared to them, it really isnt that bad.
Im glad i am only doing this as a hobby and not as a fulltime job, being a paramedic is not that exhausting physically, but emotionally it can be really difficult.
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No matter what form they take, brushes with death are the greatest humblers. You're a good person to be doing what you're doing.
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