EPTFirst off, Happy New Year! May Esports shine every so bright this year, although I think that we are off to a bad start with the disbanding of TSL ): Nevertheless, with HOTS scheduled to release this year, it should be a good year!
Anyways, I have decided to share with y'all my adventures with the opposite gender this past semester. I am about to start my 2nd semester at University and I honestly can say that for the first time, in a long time, I want to learn. Not just starcraft but actually academics ^^
The title of this blog, Verðandi; is an idea I got from my favourite anime Steins;Gate. In norse mythology, Verðandi means present/happening. Without further hesitance, lemme begin.
It all started about 4 months ago when I was just starting university. There were 3 of us starting this year. Myself, this other guy who is not important and this girl. Let us name this girl Clementine :D I like that name alot actually. So the 3 of use knew each other through our families. Our parents were friends and so inevitably we hung out at their parties. Remember this. It is actually a really important factor.
A couple of weeks after we started university out of the blue, Clementine started talking to me on facebook. It was really weird because I was really socially awkward when I hung out with them. In fact, all through high school I only saw them a hand full of times. So it naturally came to me as a surprise that this girl took interest in talking to me. Most girls don't...Most people don't.
I naturally talked to her really warmly and kindly. For the first time in a long time, a girl was talking to me because she was genuinely interested. I told her all about my university. I shared drinking/smoking stories with her and she shared her stories. I asked her if she had met any guys at her uni and she said no. She then proceeded to ask me if I had met any girls and I said no. For the first time, I thought "Hey, here is a girl who is genuinely interested and free--what the fuck are the odds."
Why the fuck are us humans like this? I mean really, here is a girl talking to me probably as friends and I am sitting there thinking "AWWWW SHIIEETT SON I AM IN (Y). MOTHER FUCKER IS IN SON" I literally ran down the hall and yelled outside my friends room "MOTHERFUCKER IS IN DOG"
We kept talking as the weeks went by. I made plans to visit her at her uni for Halloween and she seemed really excited about it at the time. As Halloween came by, I checked for tickets to the destination and I messaged her asking if it was still ok if I came to visit. She said that she wasn't sure as she was in the in midst of making plans with her friends. I followed up by saying that it is true and cancelled the trip. It was a stupid decision to make it the Halloween weekend. Obviously she is going to have plans. After that I didn't bring up any talk to visiting her again.
After Halloween, we kept talking all the way till the semester was done. I remember clearly when I first started talking to her I didn't really have any feelings for her. We shared music like any good pair of friends. I showed her Trentemoller and my vast IDM/electronic collection of music and she showed me ed sheeran and stuff. I think it was at this point where I started having feelings for her.
Now lets talk about Clementine a bit. Clementine is a lot like me. She likes her space and enjoys anything to do with chilling. Chill music, chill drinks. She doesn't smoke weed like me so sometimes I feel as though I shouldn't smoke as it might make her not want to talk to me. In high school, a lot of my friends stopped talking to me after I started smoking and I didn't want that to happen again. She also does not like wine. I am a huge wine fan. Mm fewer things are as chill as a bottle of wine. As for music, we share a lot of the same interests. She like a lot of the stuff I send her. UNKLE, NOTWIST, Trentemoller and so on. The last thing that I am going to say about Clementine is that she is one of the most beautiful people that I have ever met. She is really pretty and funny and really humble. I am really falling for this creature.
Right before exams, I made plans with her to hang out during the break since we live in the same hometown. I told her that I bought a bottle of wine that I thought she would really like and that I wouldn't mind sharing it. I knew that she didn't like wine but she did ask me at one point to show her good wine. So here was my chance to have a nice time with her. Now i know what you guys are thinking. "Holy fucking shit hes trying to get her drunk"..no no. I am not that big of a horn dog. I just wanted to have a nice time with a lax bottle of wine. Anyways, after I asked her, she said that she would like to have some and that we would for sure meet up during the break. I went into my exams so confident that I only failed physics and still managed to get the minimum average for CO-OP. AWWW SHIEEET!
And here we are. 1 day before I leave my hometown to go back to university. She is leaving tomorrow as well. We didn't have the wine. She was too busy and so was I but during the break I met her about 4 times due to the parties my parents throw/attend. We still talked a lot online. Yesterday I asked her out to the movies (This town sucks for uni kids). It was actually one of the smoothest that I have done. I sent her a song from the movie that I knew she would really like. Fucking jackpot, she loved it. I then proceeded to say that I wanted to watch the movie. So did she. The question asked itself.
EZ PEASY LEMON SQUEEZY FEBREEZY PARCHEESEY
The answer though..I was not ready for.
"I would love to...but I am leaving soon ): sadness*"
I didn't know what it meant. It could have meant anything. Leaving the house for a job/lunch or leaving the town for university. I assumed the latter and told her that I would probably see the film alone the day after or something. I felt as though she genuinely wanted to see the film..just not with me. Why did I feel that way?! Well earlier in the semester she told me about the guys who tried to ask her out and how she turned them down. She REALLY liked her space. And in case you guys have not made the connection, most people who REALLY like their space like it for 3 reasons
a) They are fucking chill like me
b) They are scared of commitments
c) all of the above.
I didn't know which one it was for her. I couldn't tell. Not because I was running around frantically analyzing the situation but because I actually didn't know anything about her. I mean, when I saw her/talk to her I can make the read but I didn't know anything about her past..the PRIME reason for option B. Me being option A naturally didn't make any effort to find out and I think I actually won't. It is not my business.
We are still talking. I don't think that things are awkward but I do feel a sense of "WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO" in myself. Anyways, TL..I need some sleep. I head out tomorrow and I will make sure to keep talking to her and keep you guys posted.
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