I didn't get picked for the free Protoss coaching probably because I'm too weird and hard to handle, plus I messed up by PMing the guy when I wasn't supposed to.
But it makes me feel really sad. I keep getting my hopes up. Maybe I should forget about SCII and just go on to do my electrician's training and become just another person to fade into obscurity...
People don't seem to understand that I need someone better than me who would be dedicated to helping me. Trouble is, I can't afford to pay, at least not very much...
I don't know, guys. This shouldn't be that big a deal but somehow I feel like I got punched right in the chest and I want to cry.
People say that Protoss doesn't need coaching. They tell me to just practice on the ladder, practice practice every day.
Practice makes perfect unless you practice imperfectly, people, and I was practicing very imperfectly. Practice only got me knocked all the way down from mid gold to bottom bronze. Even partners I've played with say that my knowledge of the game is at least gold or even platinum level and they wonder what I'm doing in bronze. It's because I don't know how to cope with the ladder.
Blast it. I sound so mopey and emo. But I really do feel that way. Like nobody understands or cares about my situation. Maybe I should cry and just let it out? Ngh, this is stupid...I'm going to end this rant before I further humiliate myself.
...Damn it, I miss my cats...Kirby, Dennis...T_T
Currently Listening To: Sugarcult - "Hate Every Beautiful Day"
~Everything's feeling unclear I wish it was raining Because I hate every beautiful day...~
I notice that you tend to be very emotional and needy just from seeing one of your blogs pop up from time to time. This might sound hard or demeaning, but maybe you would be more succesful and happy in your endeavors if you 1. stopped posting so much about everything, sit back, and read for a while, and 2. try to figure things out yourself, concentrate and focus in your games, and stop being so emotional. You seem (from my comfortable seat in my living room, behind my phone) like a self-centered individual. This is rude, but most people don't really care about your feelings as much as you. Most people don't care that you aren't doing well in ladder.
I don't want you to leave SC or cry or anything. I'm sure you are a fun person to be around, although you have a very different personality from me. Just consider being less emotional. You don't have to tell everyone every mundane detail of your life, you know.
When I'm sad, I like listening to some swing music. I'm on my phone right now so linking would be a pain, but search for some caravan place music on grooveshark.
On June 25 2012 07:36 Chocolate wrote: I notice that you tend to be very emotional and needy just from seeing one of your blogs pop up from time to time. This might sound hard or demeaning, but maybe you would be more succesful and happy in your endeavors if you 1. stopped posting so much about everything, sit back, and read for a while, and 2. try to figure things out yourself, concentrate and focus in your games, and stop being so emotional. You seem (from my comfortable seat in my living room, behind my phone) like a self-centered individual. This is rude, but most people don't really care about your feelings as much as you. Most people don't care that you aren't doing well in ladder.
I don't want you to leave SC or cry or anything. I'm sure you are a fun person to be around, although you have a very different personality from me. Just consider being less emotional. You don't have to tell everyone every mundane detail of your life, you know.
When I'm sad, I like listening to some swing music. I'm on my phone right now so linking would be a pain, but search for some caravan place music on grooveshark.
Haha. That's a pretty accurate description, though do note I rarely post anymore. Funny. I would have thought this would cut straight to my heart and made me have a breakdown and cause me to lash out at you. But in recent years that's really stopped happening. Am I growing up a little? Such a strange feeling it is.
I could explain everything to you but you know what, that doesn't really matter. All I will say is that you're another one of those people who doesn't get it - I *can't* figure this out alone. I've been trying for a loooooong time. XD
Ah, but, you're one of the sane people, that explains why I don't feel hurt! See people on here for some reason actually LIKED reading every mundane detail of my life - I'd get bundles of comments just for posting about eating yogurt! o.o
I'm still not quite sure exactly WHY this incident made me feel so bad though...
I'm so sorry to hear this... I know this kind of thing is painful. But, even still you shouldn't give up. Keep pushing forward, keep striving for what you *want*. In the end you'll feel better for even that.
It's ok. Stuff happens and sometimes our desires don't get realized. Don't give up, keep on trying and enjoy the game for what it is, a game where the main objective is to have fun and try to enjoy yourself.
On June 25 2012 07:36 Chocolate wrote: I notice that you tend to be very emotional and needy just from seeing one of your blogs pop up from time to time. This might sound hard or demeaning, but maybe you would be more succesful and happy in your endeavors if you 1. stopped posting so much about everything, sit back, and read for a while, and 2. try to figure things out yourself, concentrate and focus in your games, and stop being so emotional. You seem (from my comfortable seat in my living room, behind my phone) like a self-centered individual. This is rude, but most people don't really care about your feelings as much as you. Most people don't care that you aren't doing well in ladder.
I don't want you to leave SC or cry or anything. I'm sure you are a fun person to be around, although you have a very different personality from me. Just consider being less emotional. You don't have to tell everyone every mundane detail of your life, you know.
When I'm sad, I like listening to some swing music. I'm on my phone right now so linking would be a pain, but search for some caravan place music on grooveshark.
Haha. That's a pretty accurate description, though do note I rarely post anymore. Funny. I would have thought this would cut straight to my heart and made me have a breakdown and cause me to lash out at you. But in recent years that's really stopped happening. Am I growing up a little? Such a strange feeling it is.
I could explain everything to you but you know what, that doesn't really matter. All I will say is that you're another one of those people who doesn't get it - I *can't* figure this out alone. I've been trying for a loooooong time. XD
Ah, but, you're one of the sane people, that explains why I don't feel hurt! See people on here for some reason actually LIKED reading every mundane detail of my life - I'd get bundles of comments just for posting about eating yogurt! o.o
I'm still not quite sure exactly WHY this incident made me feel so bad though...
I'm sorry, I didn't know that you had a following. You're right: I don't get it. I guess I can't, since we aren't even acquainted and I am certainly not you. If you take anything away from me, just try to consider a few things when you do or say or type anything. Ask yourself how you will feel about it in a month, a year, a decade. I do this because I used to be a lot more emotional myself and more egocentric (I bragged a ton). It helps to put things in perspective, it makes you realize that your mistake isn't a huge deal.
Good luck in the future. Just consider my advice and give some of that music a shot
SC2 is not a good game to play when you're already in a poor state of mind. Try something more relaxing and closer to your skill sets.
On June 25 2012 08:05 MikailCaboose wrote: I'm so sorry to hear this... I know this kind of thing is painful. But, even still you shouldn't give up. Keep pushing forward, keep striving for what you *want*. In the end you'll feel better for even that.
This is bad advice. You need to know when to give up. A person that can find success knows her or his limits. Not every person is the same. There are persons who are more fragile and sensitive than others and simply don't have the mental strength to continue to push themselves even though they are not making any progress and just get more frustrated and worn out. Being reasonable and considerate of one's own strengths and weaknesses is the key.
Also, you shouldn't listen to such negative music. Instead try something like this:
On June 25 2012 07:23 OmiDeLta wrote: I didn't get picked for the free Protoss coaching probably because I'm too weird and hard to handle, plus I messed up by PMing the guy when I wasn't supposed to.
But it makes me feel really sad. I keep getting my hopes up. Maybe I should forget about SCII and just go on to do my electrician's training and become just another person to fade into obscurity...
People don't seem to understand that I need someone better than me who would be dedicated to helping me. Trouble is, I can't afford to pay, at least not very much...
I don't know, guys. This shouldn't be that big a deal but somehow I feel like I got punched right in the chest and I want to cry.
People say that Protoss doesn't need coaching. They tell me to just practice on the ladder, practice practice every day.
Practice makes perfect unless you practice imperfectly, people, and I was practicing very imperfectly. Practice only got me knocked all the way down from mid gold to bottom bronze. Even partners I've played with say that my knowledge of the game is at least gold or even platinum level and they wonder what I'm doing in bronze. It's because I don't know how to cope with the ladder.
Blast it. I sound so mopey and emo. But I really do feel that way. Like nobody understands or cares about my situation. Maybe I should cry and just let it out? Ngh, this is stupid...I'm going to end this rant before I further humiliate myself.
...Damn it, I miss my cats...Kirby, Dennis...T_T
Currently Listening To: Sugarcult - "Hate Every Beautiful Day"
~Everything's feeling unclear I wish it was raining Because I hate every beautiful day...~
On June 25 2012 07:23 OmiDeLta wrote: I didn't get picked for the free Protoss coaching probably because I'm too weird and hard to handle, plus I messed up by PMing the guy when I wasn't supposed to.
But it makes me feel really sad. I keep getting my hopes up. Maybe I should forget about SCII and just go on to do my electrician's training and become just another person to fade into obscurity...
People don't seem to understand that I need someone better than me who would be dedicated to helping me. Trouble is, I can't afford to pay, at least not very much...
I don't know, guys. This shouldn't be that big a deal but somehow I feel like I got punched right in the chest and I want to cry.
People say that Protoss doesn't need coaching. They tell me to just practice on the ladder, practice practice every day.
Practice makes perfect unless you practice imperfectly, people, and I was practicing very imperfectly. Practice only got me knocked all the way down from mid gold to bottom bronze. Even partners I've played with say that my knowledge of the game is at least gold or even platinum level and they wonder what I'm doing in bronze. It's because I don't know how to cope with the ladder.
Blast it. I sound so mopey and emo. But I really do feel that way. Like nobody understands or cares about my situation. Maybe I should cry and just let it out? Ngh, this is stupid...I'm going to end this rant before I further humiliate myself.
...Damn it, I miss my cats...Kirby, Dennis...T_T
Currently Listening To: Sugarcult - "Hate Every Beautiful Day"
~Everything's feeling unclear I wish it was raining Because I hate every beautiful day...~
On June 25 2012 07:23 OmiDeLta wrote: I didn't get picked for the free Protoss coaching probably because I'm too weird and hard to handle, plus I messed up by PMing the guy when I wasn't supposed to.
But it makes me feel really sad. I keep getting my hopes up. Maybe I should forget about SCII and just go on to do my electrician's training and become just another person to fade into obscurity...
People don't seem to understand that I need someone better than me who would be dedicated to helping me. Trouble is, I can't afford to pay, at least not very much...
I don't know, guys. This shouldn't be that big a deal but somehow I feel like I got punched right in the chest and I want to cry.
People say that Protoss doesn't need coaching. They tell me to just practice on the ladder, practice practice every day.
Practice makes perfect unless you practice imperfectly, people, and I was practicing very imperfectly. Practice only got me knocked all the way down from mid gold to bottom bronze. Even partners I've played with say that my knowledge of the game is at least gold or even platinum level and they wonder what I'm doing in bronze. It's because I don't know how to cope with the ladder.
Blast it. I sound so mopey and emo. But I really do feel that way. Like nobody understands or cares about my situation. Maybe I should cry and just let it out? Ngh, this is stupid...I'm going to end this rant before I further humiliate myself.
...Damn it, I miss my cats...Kirby, Dennis...T_T
Currently Listening To: Sugarcult - "Hate Every Beautiful Day"
~Everything's feeling unclear I wish it was raining Because I hate every beautiful day...~
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