I never thought I would do this...

On May 06 2012 11:06 kerpal wrote:
lol. i see why you would never do this.

On May 06 2012 11:11 JingleHell wrote:
Do you feel like a hamster on a wheel? Is that what caused this sudden emotional outpouring while toasted?

You know you love me.

The correct solution is to pour your heart out to HuK, admit your undying love, and hope for the best. You can do it, my friend.

On May 06 2012 11:20 JOJOsc2news wrote:


I am confused but I did as I was told

https://twitter.com/#!/sc2channel/status/198960197857845249

On May 06 2012 11:06 JOJOsc2news wrote:
Oh god I shou;dnt have done this.

she's swedish/greek so she's got the fire of the south and the looks of the north.

On May 06 2012 11:00 JOJOsc2news wrote:
...but I'm writing a blog now. I feel like typing crap to random strangers. Don't judge me upon this. Yeah whatever.

So. First of all. This blog will be about life and its miseries. Lol, that sounds like a HuK tweet right here. I am aware of the fact that this will undermine (wow, that's a hard word to type) my professional bla bla but whatever.

so, I went to see an old classmate's band tonight at a televised band contest. They were fucking awesome and by far the best band there but it was all clear from the beginning on who would win and guess what... it turned out as expected even though their band was by far, seriously, by far, the best this night. Some random hippeldy hoppeldy rappeldly dappeldy tank top wearing rapping like my grandma band won. What a shame. Really speaks against the well known and lol respected jury. LOL! Some old out of the business but still dressing like teenagers guys. Ha!

Anyways, that's not what this deeply philosophical blog is about (i STill can't believe I spellt philo that right).

This blog is about girl drama as I know that's the only thing that really gets you guys going (besides hamsters and toast puns for the really cool people - if you don't know this reference you might consider yourself a shallow tl'er who hasn't found the true core of tl -ha!)

So. now girl stuff. I will even put a [ hr ] here to separate it from the prologue. See, you are learning something here. the [ hr ] without the spaces makes this awesome line you will see below. i am teaching you the basics to excellent posting. you are welcome.

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So, let's talk business. not.

I am older than most people think and I've had my share of shit in my life so this isn't some teeny omg I lover her so much bs.

So... now finally I shall start. (putting another [ hr ] here to make it all aw3some and stuff. Ew, that three wasn't on purpose. I am too old for leet speak.

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I am studying something no one else has studied like this before in an accredited degree. I fought for this for two years and got it. I am doing a full degree in intl. relations and psychology (no minor, all major for dem americans). So it's all rainbows and unicorns technically. But now let's go to the girl drama I promised you.

It all seems going perfectly.

BUT

I am studying in Scotland. During the first year I met a girl who would change my life. I was what a lot of people would consider an asshole. I loved playing with women and enjoyed the chase more than a serious commitment. I guess that's part of growing up but I kinda overdid it and hurt a lot of ppl. Anyway, I met this girl who would change all this. My friends couldn't believe what they were seeing with me being all committed and disgustingly lovy dovy (how does one spell that).

Anyways, I was a changed man and I was in a over 2 years (I know it's not that much but for me at that point it was huge) relationship with a woman that wouldn't bore me after the initial chase and tension etc. She was in so many ways up to my level, it wasn't even funny. But while I was able to find my place at my Uni and found my friends she felt like she couldn't connect. she's swedish/greek so she's got the fire of the south and the looks of the north.

So, last summer it turns out she didn't make it into honours (master level of uni) which just made her finally go back to sweden to a place where she felt like she belonged. This is so simplified but for simplicity sake we will keep it at this. This summer was also when I went on a road trip with two friends to festivals in portugal and spain. Well, the inevitable happened, which until today, my es doesn't know (not even that the Spanish girl who came to Germany a few weeks later was my summer bla bla).

Anyway. To the real drama now. That relationship to the swedish/greek woman that lasted over 2 years was something that I (the guy that would never commit) was something truly special and ever since we split up this summer (bcoz she went back to sweden and both of us aren't the type for a long distance relationship [and that spanish girl but shhhh.....]) I simply cannot commit anymore - AGAIN. I have been bla blaing around again.

I really don't know how to start fresh and allow something new to fill a space that that life changing relationshipi has left. I am simply not able to allow something to take that space. I never want to go back and I don't regret anything I have done but I don't know how to allow anyone to be as close to me as we were again. I know this sounds all teeny bla bla like a HuK tweet but that's how it is.

I know that this is probably extremely vague and immature but I am beyond the level of "Arbiterrrrrssss" right now.

This blog is probably a disgrace. I will hate myself for posting it tomorrow.
I promise some deep shit with pictures and possiblly kittens for the next one but I just felt like writing this. Now I don't feel like writing this anymore but I will hit that "post blog" button anyways. ha!

I will even put another [ hr ] break here. Just because I can.

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There you go.