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SupaChicken
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
Australia273 Posts
April 20 2012 13:07 GMT
#1
I'm not sure where to begin this blog. I guess I'll start two weeks ago when my boss gave me a call asking if I could take on some more shifts because he was going on holidays. Now that I think about it he may have known what he was going to do back then. While at work today I was informed that he committed suicide.

It's taken everyone completely by surprise, he didn't seem to be depressed at all. He just recently bought a new bike and was planning a boating trip with his wife. He seemed to be enjoying life. I wasn't particularly close to him, but I've known him for close to 10 years now and he was a pretty good friend of my dad. When I needed a job he just gave me one and I feel I owe him quite a lot.

This has left me stunned and confused. It's strange, I don't really feel sad though, maybe that's because it hasn't really sunk in yet. Instead of sad, I'm kind of angry if that makes any sense at all. He left behind his wife and 17 year old daughter and quit. I know there must have been a lot going on but I can't believe he gave up like this.

All in all today was the worst day of work I've ever had.

RIP Dean.

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Hulavuta
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
United States1252 Posts
April 20 2012 13:17 GMT
#2
Wow....that really sucks :/

There was no note or anything? Considering the circumstances, I'm pretty curious in why he did it as well.
Done with Team Liquid for a while. Don't expect to find me here.
obesechicken13
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
United States10467 Posts
April 20 2012 13:20 GMT
#3
What I'm getting is that he did some thinking over his vacation and came to the conclusion that he didn't want to continue living. Imo that's his choice.

Suicide when it hits people who have nothing wrong with their lives is ok by my standards. I see it as something people decide is rational. Dang.

I wonder what made him do it. I wonder if he really did have a good life or if arguments with the wife were driving him mad. If it was too much work. Or if during the vacation he realized he wasn't living his life the way he'd wanted. D:
I think in our modern age technology has evolved to become more addictive. The things that don't give us pleasure aren't used as much. Work was never meant to be fun, but doing it makes us happier in the long run.
Jbird
Profile Joined February 2012
Canada12 Posts
April 20 2012 13:23 GMT
#4
Really sucks man- It makes total sense for you to be mad

This is opinion based- but it really is a cowardly way out

Sorry for his wife and kids :S
Wake early if you want another mans life or land, No lamb for the lazy wolf- no battles ever won in bed
Zorkmid
Profile Joined November 2008
4410 Posts
April 20 2012 13:25 GMT
#5
Shit man. That's awful.

Make sure you get some help if you need it.
Jinsho
Profile Joined March 2011
United Kingdom3101 Posts
April 20 2012 14:16 GMT
#6
Seems like that was the worst kind of suicide to get over with. Planned and meticulous.

You will likely never understand why he did it. Do not ask these questions. They are pointless, really.

Look around you, enjoy what you have, and hope that the others enjoy it as much as you do.
OpticalShot
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
Canada6330 Posts
April 20 2012 14:26 GMT
#7
RIP Dean.

Behind his everyday smiles, imagine what troubles he must have been hiding... I agree that suicide is one of the most cowardly way of putting an end to all the problems, but I wonder if how much pain he must have been through that he would leave his family behind, just like that.
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run.at.me
Profile Joined December 2011
Australia550 Posts
April 20 2012 16:30 GMT
#8
his wife probably needed the life insurance...
/jk, too soon?
needless to say, i understand suicide, and think its probably one of the most disturbing things a human could ever face.
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