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My high school career is less than two months from being over, and I've done really well as far as grades go. I'm graduating with a lot of college finished, and it's been a good experience. However, I'm becoming a lazy sack of crap because high school.
It begins with a little procrastination. I turn in an assignment late, but teachers apparently don't care that much about it and I only lose a couple of points. I start sleeping through first hour every day, but the test material turns out to be incredibly easy, and I do very well on it (I'm not trying to brag, I didn't deserve the grade I got). I turn in a couple more assignments late, still with no penalty. Bad habits start forming.
Last trimester, I was slacking off my work and missing a decent amount of school. It's been my goal to maintain a 4.0 throughout high school, but I was seriously worrying that I wasn't going to be able to do that. In my accounting class, there was no way I was going to be able to. I talk to the teacher, she liked me, and said I could do some assignment for extra credit and she'd give me an A. So, I'm still fine, but not learning the right lesson.
In my math class, I took the final and ended up with a grade just below an A. I talked to the teacher about it after school, and he said because it was a college class, his hands were tied and couldn't offer me any extra work or anything to make that up. This was the lesson I needed to learn. I walked out of the class pretty distraught, but I couldn't complain about it. That 4.0 was gone. And I knew it was all my fault. It was what I deserved.
Then the teacher calls for me to come back to his class over the P.A. system. I go back, and he meets me in the hall. "I'll fluff it for you." The words hit me pretty hard. I was going to keep my 4.0!
I shouldn't have let him do that. It was the lesson I needed to learn, and I haven't learned it. I'm still slacking, cutting classes, and being an idiot about it. I don't deserve the grade.
I have no initiative. Why do work when you can get away with not, right? I'm messy when I never used to be. I procrastinate everything in my life. I'm becoming more and more depressed because the things I need to do, I'm not doing, and it stacks up to where I'm overwhelmed with the workload and shut down.
I hope having a job, where work ethic matters and cutting corners won't cut it, will solve this. I need to get off this path, because I won't always be that lucky. It's going to hurt me at some point.
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Meh, you can go through all of life like this, you don't really have to get rid of it. There's not much we can say, things like this take internal motivation, hopefully one day you wake up and realize that slaking sucks. Just hope the wake up call doesn't come too harshly.
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Uh... you seem to know the answer already? Stop doing these things you've been doing that have been teaching you bad lessons. Don't ask for extra credit assignments? Take the GPA hit if that's what you truly deserve, and use that as motivation to stop slacking and getting away with it. You seem a bit conflicted in that you say you want to break these habits, but you still want to reap the rewards from them?
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If you're going to university than you'll quickly learn after failing your midterms or first semester altogether.
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Whenever I think about procrastinating I think about that homeless man on the street. That could be me if I keep bad habits.
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On April 18 2012 12:46 Silentness wrote:
Whenever I think about procrastinating I think about that homeless man on the street. That could be me if I keep bad habits.
Ahh. I like that. Thank you.
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Took me awhile to tackle this issue, there are always these moments where you're so ambitious but an hour later... Maybe thats just me 
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Same here, two months to go, and the lesson that my grades will not always be that good hit me pretty hard. Like you i finished alot of college but mine was through dual enrollment. Even in college classes i skipped everyday and still managed a 3.7/8 cumm gpa. Last quarter i got a 2.9 in Chem 2. After that I attend class everyday, and study my brains out because I don't want that to ever happen again.
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On April 18 2012 12:38 Dalguno wrote:
My high school career is less than two months from being over, and I've done really well as far as grades go. I'm graduating with a lot of college finished, and it's been a good experience. However, I'm becoming a lazy sack of crap because high school.
It begins with a little procrastination. I turn in an assignment late, but teachers apparently don't care that much about it and I only lose a couple of points. I start sleeping through first hour every day, but the test material turns out to be incredibly easy, and I do very well on it (I'm not trying to brag, I didn't deserve the grade I got). I turn in a couple more assignments late, still with no penalty. Bad habits start forming.
Last trimester, I was slacking off my work and missing a decent amount of school. It's been my goal to maintain a 4.0 throughout high school, but I was seriously worrying that I wasn't going to be able to do that. In my accounting class, there was no way I was going to be able to. I talk to the teacher, she liked me, and said I could do some assignment for extra credit and she'd give me an A. So, I'm still fine, but not learning the right lesson.
In my math class, I took the final and ended up with a grade just below an A. I talked to the teacher about it after school, and he said because it was a college class, his hands were tied and couldn't offer me any extra work or anything to make that up. This was the lesson I needed to learn. I walked out of the class pretty distraught, but I couldn't complain about it. That 4.0 was gone. And I knew it was all my fault. It was what I deserved.
Then the teacher calls for me to come back to his class over the P.A. system. I go back, and he meets me in the hall. "I'll fluff it for you." The words hit me pretty hard. I was going to keep my 4.0!
I shouldn't have let him do that. It was the lesson I needed to learn, and I haven't learned it. I'm still slacking, cutting classes, and being an idiot about it. I don't deserve the grade.
I have no initiative. Why do work when you can get away with not, right? I'm messy when I never used to be. I procrastinate everything in my life. I'm becoming more and more depressed because the things I need to do, I'm not doing, and it stacks up to where I'm overwhelmed with the workload and shut down.
I hope having a job, where work ethic matters and cutting corners won't cut it, will solve this. I need to get off this path, because I won't always be that lucky. It's going to hurt me at some point.
Haha,
Welcome to the world of managing to coast through highschool. I kept that kind of attitude for a good part of college and it has cost me.
In any case, I know the feeling you're talking about in the second to last paragraph, but relying on the bolded part to solve your shit is wrong. If you wait on something external to snap you out of it, when that something hits, it's going to feel like getting kicked in the balls, except the pain lasts longer and affects everything in your life.
Now, you're in highschool because you more or less have to be, but going to college is a choice, and what you do with it counts; doing it for the wrong reasons or doing it halfheartedly won't cut it. When you can coast along with relatively little effort, having to develop an intrinsic drive is hard. Right now that can hurt your ability to set goals and give it your all to achieve them. You're right, that math teacher shouldn't have given you an A, and this is the first failure you should learn from. I was just stubborn and took a long time to realize my mistakes AND learn from them, but if you learn from this class right now that you NEED to do everything to perfection if you expect to receive the highest grade, you'll be on the right path again.
If you don't start developing your own goals and an intrinsic drive now, very few things that happen externally will change that. I'll say it again, you can't rely on a job or outside responsibilities to do anything for you, because as soon as the current external motivator disappears, you're back where you started. The problem lies with you, and if you want to fix it before it spirals out of control, start setting goals that are unpleasant for your lazy subconsciousness, and find a way to keep yourself going as you knock down more goals. Say your goal is to finish every assignment in Class X next week the day before its due (or any finish any essay the week before its due and review it with the teacher), and get yourself a gold star (or buy your favorite treat) as a small reward, and do it again the following week. That's just an example, but I hope you get the idea - if you want to overcome your laziness, you have to start working at it on your own.
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sounds to me like you just have a standard case of senioritis. If this continues (and worsens) in college, then you might want to start worrying about your work ethic.
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