EPTI guess I’ll start talking about school first. This first part of college has probably been the most (or close to the most) stressful time so far in my life. The program that I’m in currently is one of the hardest at my college and I’m in the hardest course that my school gives us. The week before christmas break was one of the worst weeks I’ve had in a long time. I had a lot of work due (No finals, Trimesters) and I got sick at the beginning of the week. The other thing that stresses me out is that whenever people ask what I’m going to college for and where I’m going they always say something like “Oh you won’t have trouble finding a job at all” “Oh you’re all set”. This confidence in me... it scares me. Partly because I am having a little trouble and partly because of the super high expectations that it sets down upon me. I just need to keep myself pushing through. I think if i can survive this year just fine that I should be able to make it through without too too much problems.
Starcraft 2. Oh you, I love you and I hate you at the same time. It was right at the end of Season 4 I was playing well I was winning and everything looked good for me to get that top 8 diamond that I wanted and work towards a promotion. Then I was at rank 9 and I was so determined to get the rank 8 I just played and played and well..... that night did not go so well for me. I started raging and it just spiraled downhill. Now, it’s season 5 I maintained Diamond like i expected to but now I don’t have the motivation to play. Every time I lose just a single game I get angry and need to stop playing. I don’t know why it’s so frustrating. I think it’s that I really haven’t improved much for a long time. I’ve been in the Diamond-Platinum range since... the end of Season 1. Season 1 was great. I shot all the way from silver to rank 9 platinum through the course of the season. It felt great and now that I’ve been so stagnant for so long (Diamond for 3 Seasons now). I find myself getting frustrated with the game. I’m not really sure how I can keep getting better.
Though my playing hasn’t been all that great lately, Starcraft 2 is still one of the major things in my life right now. When I saw the thread for the National Star League, I immediately started getting excited and getting players together for my state and we look damn good so far (NY NSL). Managing a team is something that I’ve wanted to do for a long time but school has been a major barrier to that as well as lack of opportunity. I managed for High School team back in the HSSTL Season 0 if anyone remembers that lol. My team did quite well making it to the round of 8 before being knocked out by the team that eventually took 2nd. But that was a long time ago and there’s been just a void of things for me to do managing wise since then and now that I have something to do I’m really excited for it.
The final thing that I wanted to just talk about quickly was exercise. I was a cross-country runner and skier in high school. Never anything stellar but I ran and was in decent shape for a long time. However, since my Nordic Skiing season ended almost a year ago I just have not exercised at all. I feel lazy and I feel as though I am getting fat. I tell myself I’m going to start working out but it never really happened. I think when I get back to school I’m going to start using the gym there.
Well if anyone actually sit and read all that I thank you. I think I’ll keep blogging it helps me get things off my chest.
Thanks TL! Much love <3
Edit: Happy Holidays and such things :D
