EPT
I stand before you not seeking your love or your pity but to simple show you the truth about the pain and suffering we all must face to truly understand the meaning of those words, but I will not simple show you this darkness I will carry it for you because you truly are a gift to this world and I’m simple a another mistake and I will give my life to make sure you see no pain and no suffering because your innocent shall save us all.
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I enjoy watching the rain, I feel like the heavens are crying wishing to wash away all the pain and suffering below them, but sadly their cries go unanswered but it still beautiful to stand in their tear and feel their joy surround you even if its only for a moment.
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we stand here simple wishing,
for something we could never have,
our eyes meet and our heart bleed,
our story is as old a time itself.
but we still turn the pages,
knowing that in the end we shall both be in tears,
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I stumble the rocks scraps my knee as I look down at my withered hands I can feel the pain of this burden burning my skin and cracking my bones as If it was the weight of the world. I begin to move again and once more a fall I once again look upon my hands as pick small rocks form the cuts. over my shoulder a hear a voice “Hey Son are you okay?” I replay simple “I’m fine just stumbled, this load is quite heavy” again for the distance I hear the voice “What load son your not carrying anything” I ignore him and stand the pain almost pulls me back down but I manage to make it too my feet. I bow my and calmly whisper to myself “This burden is not one of stone or Iron but one of Will”. This burden is my life this struggle is my existence, Slowly move my feet and continue on my path knowing that once I’m there will be peace and calm and I will rest my head and sleep for the ages..
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I awake too the clock slowly ticking by as if time itself was slowly down, simple to mess with my mind. I sit there on the edge of my bed thinking about how many times I sat on the edge of my bed thinking about this moment, I here a voice echo down the hall “Its 106.5 with sport in the morning..” I ignore it as another simple social normality I will never understand. I get dressed and head out the door as I walk down the street I ignore all the cracks on the sidewalk I view it as one of my only normal qualities. I stand be hide a man today waiting for the bus middle age in a suit as I stare at the back of his head I try to image his life, wife two kids white picket fence, or is he like me just pretending waiting for his number to be called. Iv often though about that day, but that is another story. Looks like its my stop walk 2 blocks west stand in the parking lot for five mins going over my conversations before I enter the building. Iv always viewed social interaction like a black ops mission “Put a smile on, Go over your topic, Move to your desk” I repeat in my head as I move my way though the crowd of faces. I Sit down at at my desk my little peace of normality, But Its time too work maybe I should stop talking to myself Till next time…
Enjoy GLHF ^_^
