EPTNext day "funny feeling" turned out to be a cold. I got sick. My head was spinning, I had a runny nose, the whole nine yards.
I tried to play a game, but I had 20 APM max, which was about 25% of my usual amount. I lost to a gold league player on my smurf. After that game I felt so tired, I decided it’s better for my health to stop playing until I recover.
The next couple of days were filled with Song Of Ice And Fire fantasy saga and the new Deus Ex game. Both had fascinating storylines and I totally recommend them to you!
When the major symptoms of the cold started receding, I tried to get back into the game. Still, I played with about 50% of my usual APM and was totally exhausted after a few lost games.
I did my best and slowly advanced my smurfie into diamond. Still, I’m totally out of shape. Before this illness began, I played 20 games per day on average and was able to win with low masters of any race. Now I barely win anything on my main account, falling back into mid-diamond.
I tried to practice intensely 2 days ago. But damn it, a 35-minute ZvP was so exhausting, my head was spinning. I went to bed and fell asleep. After I woke up, I got a headache and still couldn’t commit to Starcraft.
These 2 weeks are by far the least productive period of my career since I started playing 4 months ago. I hate being unproductive, since I’m a workhorse by nature. But I’m also a smart workhorse.
I know that sacrificing my health and good mood for short-term practice will make me practice less long-term. Or even quit. If I torture myself with practice until total exhaustion, I will lose my passion and excitement for the game. I need to think long-term and nourish my love and passion for the game.
If pro-gaming was a sprint, I’d probably force myself to practice no matter how I feel. But it’s a marathon. I’m doing my best every day, while making sure I’ll keep going the next day.
Logically it makes sense. Still, it kills me inside to be so unproductive. I hope with all my heart for this to be over. I just wanna jump into my 20 games per day again!
I wonder - what do you think about all that crap I wrote? Would you give me a hate comment like “you’ll never be pro, lazyass!”? Or would you encourage me to keep doing my best despite the setbacks?
Cheers,
JoyfulSpirit
