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So here is my story. About two years ago, I started to get concerned with my weight due to some comments that people made to me. I was 5'11", and 175 pounds. I wasn't fat in any way. In fact, I was pretty freaking ripped. I had everything going for me.
That concern started to get worse during football of my sophomore year, where I cut my weight down to 163. I looked pretty freaking good, really. I moved to my mom's for basketball, and to make a long story short, I developed some sort of eating disorder. I went down to 150 while down there, skipping dinner after games (I would play both JV and Varsity), so that lack of protein made me lose some good muscle. I counted every calorie I ate, and rarely ever ate more than I should. I was completely obsessed. I counted, wrote down, recalculated all of the food I ate. It dominated all of my thoughts.
One day, I binged. I ate so much I threw up, and before that I hadn't thrown up since I was 7. That was the start of something worse. I started binging about every day once school got out. That affected my basketball. My confidence was low because I couldn't control myself, and that showed on the court. At the end of June, I literally had no idea what I could do to stop myself. For the entire summer, I became depressed and had extremely low self-esteem. That's not me. I have always been the kind of person that is on top of everything. I always have believed in myself. I've never had any problems with my confidence. I'm a good looking guy, and have never had problems with the ladies.
Well, by the end of the summer I was 193. That's 43 pounds in three months. It's absurd. I've been doing better lately. I got myself down to 176 about a month ago, however, stresses with school, the ACT, and other things have put me back up to 187 especially as my cravings have kicked back in. I've been losing confidence in myself and in my control again. But you know what, that stops today.
My goals are as follows:
I want to be 180 by the end of the month. I will follow a paleo-style diet (marksdailyapple.com).
I'm a spiritual person, and I believe success comes when I have a strong relationship with my Creator. I will read my scriptures for 30 minutes right when I get home from school, and make efforts to be an overall better person.
I will keep my 4.0.
I will be a better friend, and a more caring person to all I come in contact with.
I'm curious, have you ever had some kind of eating problem similar to this? If you did, what did you do to deal with it? What have you done to lose weight?
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Is your primary goal a certain weight, or is it to have control over your health and eating habits?
When you went into your binging state, was it compulsive overeating or was it bulimia?
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You can do it buddy =D I remember when I managed to lose about 50 lbs a couple years ago. It was such an awesome feeling, and it will be worth the struggle when you've shed excess weight. Remind yourself of that when you're feeling tempted by something delicious.
Also, cooking food rather than getting the same food from restaurants and other similar places (including your school cafeteria probably) is basically always healthier, so developing some cooking skills would certainly help. Overall, you'll need to reform your eating habits and learn to enjoy healthier foods, and being able to prepare those foods is sooo useful.
Anyway, good luck. If it goes slow, don't sweat it, because even a little progress at a time is still progress, and time is something you have. I'd be careful about trying to set goals that are too ambitious too, because if you eat too little and starve yourself, you'll lose the weight and then binge and gain it all back again, except you'll end up even heavier than when you started. The body is very sensitive to this sort of thing, and it will punish you for depriving it.
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On March 02 2011 08:42 micronesia wrote:
Is your primary goal a certain weight, or is it to have control over your health and eating habits?
When you went into your binging state, was it compulsive overeating or was it bulimia?
It was compulsive. I considered bulimia, but I still had enough self respect not to do it. Eventually I want to get back down to 163. That's when I look dead sexy. I'm not really fat looking now, I'm just not where I want to be. That goal of 163 is in combination of controlling my eating habits.
My problem is, some days I have perfect control. Generally weekdays I can control myself just fine (though that hasn't been the case the last few weeks). The weekends are when I have the most trouble.
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While I applaud you for taking the initiative to do something like this, I'm not really sure how you want TL to help you. Are you going to make daily posts of everything you ate that day, and if you did something bad we can rap you on the nose and tell you "naughty".
if you do have such bad self control issues (and it doesn't sound like you do, really, since you say you're in control some days) whats to stop you from simply lying to us about what you're having?
If this is intended more as a therapeutic post for yourself, getting stuff out in the open so that you yourself are more motivated to do things right, but it sounds like you want your readers to actually do something, which is a bit odd.
Good luck with it regardless!
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On March 02 2011 12:05 Dhalphir wrote:
While I applaud you for taking the initiative to do something like this, I'm not really sure how you want TL to help you. Are you going to make daily posts of everything you ate that day, and if you did something bad we can rap you on the nose and tell you "naughty".
if you do have such bad self control issues (and it doesn't sound like you do, really, since you say you're in control some days) whats to stop you from simply lying to us about what you're having?
If this is intended more as a therapeutic post for yourself, getting stuff out in the open so that you yourself are more motivated to do things right, but it sounds like you want your readers to actually do something, which is a bit odd.
Good luck with it regardless!
Yeah, rereading this I realize I don't really want help as much as I wanted to say it, so I'll edit the OP.
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