EPTSo. I got back together with her for one week. Today we met, it didnt work out. Its whatever. I thought there might be something to salvage, but nah. There isnt. So its over between us. Maybe in the future, there could be something, but right now its over.
I was disappointed. She didnt even give me a chance to atleast tell her how grateful I was for the first part of our relationship. Where we'd talk all day, do cute shit, and whatever. I really wanted to tell her that, but no matter how much I persisted. She didnt want to hear it, so whatever.
I was kinda depressed, the relationship ending AGAIN. Hey, its just one of those teenage love romances right? Even if it was, dont just group all teenage relationships into shallow-raging hormone stereotyped relationships that everyone seems to think happens.
She meant alot to me, I cared deeply for her. Maybe it was love, maybe it wasnt. But there was still something there. So dont just tell me "oh man its just a teenage relationship." I want to atleast give whatever we had, that much.
Anyways. My bestfriend was around. He saw how sad I was and knew something was wrong. We ended up walking to his old house and entering the backyard through the fence.
Turns out there were some people living there, LOL. (more on that later)
We just sat down, and I let it all out. How disappointed I was. How I really wanted it to work out again. Recapping memories. How amazing my summer was with her. The mutual loss of feelings for each other the last month.
He was there. He listened to me. He tried his best to comfort me. Im glad I have someone who would do that for me at a moment's notice.
Yeah. This will be the last time I cry over her.
Thinking about it right now, Im so much closer to him in my opinion.
There will be other girls, hopefully. I just hope I wont ever lose him as a bestfriend. ;]
Anyways. We proceeded to exit and the front door was open. The two occupants of the house were just looking at us.
You know how awkward it is to enter a -thoughttobeabandoned- house and realizing people live there? LOL. I think they heard me crying cause one of them asked if I was okay. I had to apologize for intruding into their property but they seemed to be understanding. Lol.
Hopefully my next update will have me not being sued/ finding a new girl ;]
Cheers TL. You guys are my family.
