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Hi, i'm confused.
Series of 3d models, 14min video (TL;DW), and a paragraph about fighting for a future you don't have.
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I dont get this blog. I can post pictures too, its really no biggy.
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Kinda reminds me of that SCP item where a virus was turning everyone into robots ^^
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On August 25 2010 22:37 exeexe wrote: I dont get this blog. I can post pictures too, its really no biggy.
Kind of a follow-up to a lot of my earlier blogs.
I've been making models and geometry for... nothing, really. A state of deep depression.
The video is music I composed in 2004-2006 but didn't release or post until now. A memorial of an age where I could still learn things.
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So .. what if you play computergames, cant you learn to play computergames better anymore? Hope you recover from your state of deep depression.
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On August 25 2010 23:24 exeexe wrote: So .. what if you play computergames, cant you learn to play computergames better anymore? Hope you recover from your state of deep depression.
Let's say I play Starcraft 2. And let's say I identify a big weakness in my gameplay: my inability to focus and multitask. This is related to two things. One thing is lack of practice, the other is an extreme difficulty in focusing and concentrating.
The difficulty in focus and concentrating is a problem derived from my mental issues, of which there are many.
The blog won't make much sense to those who haven't read my previous ones and I didn't really feel like rewriting the entire story again. But basically, the last month has been very bad for me because I've spent a year being prescribed different drugs in an effort to fight my mental disabilities and no drugs are having any kind of an effect, not even very general drugs like Dexedrine.
So, while I can try to improve my ability to multitask in SC2, I'll always be incapable of reaching a level of capacity that any of my peers can. That is also to say that I've been modeling for 10 years now, and I still can only do very basic stuff. What carries me is my imagination, not talent.
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Take pride in the fact you are doing what you want to like and want do, that you have inspired others
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Faranth > Drugs were a last-ditch thing after ten years of suffering. I went into it knowing they wouldn't do anything, but defeat is painful nonetheless.
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Nice skills man. Why is it the 'last music you've made though' are you going to make any more?
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I don't get it, cool ships, except the first one.
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On August 26 2010 00:50 GreatFall wrote: Nice skills man. Why is it the 'last music you've made though' are you going to make any more?
Gave up composing many years ago because I could not improve. A time after that the $200 GSIF-compliant sound card (required to run Gigastudio, the sampler I was using) was fried in a power surge.
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Awesome pics.
Always enjoyed your beta VODs on youtube, they were awesome. Did you start doing them recently again? Thought you stopped.
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On August 25 2010 22:37 CurZed wrote:Hi, i'm confused. Series of 3d models, 14min video (TL;DW), and a paragraph about fighting for a future you don't have. ?
you would have to know what iskatumesk is all about. this is his life, its what he does.
read his older blogs.
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On August 26 2010 02:38 Emtee wrote: Awesome pics.
Always enjoyed your beta VODs on youtube, they were awesome. Did you start doing them recently again? Thought you stopped.
Yes, I've uploaded quite a lot of commentaries in the last weeks and have more coming.
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