Today I posted some stupid shit that got my post closed; and for that I am truly sorry. Because of this, I would like to post a journal entry of mine that I feel is somewhat insightful and hopefully Chill will accept it as and apology for me being a dumb fuck. As some background this was idea was brought on by two events. The first was me running into an ex girlfriend at college and think about how while I pined after her for so long I didn't really like her anymore. The second event was a friend of mine had asked advice on how to ask a boy out. What I told her was actually what I had planned to tell her when I was going to ask her for a date a couple years ago:

"Now <girls name> I know I have had trouble communicating with you recently..."

(and you nod or something)

But the truth is that I like you

(Now if you hadn't interrupted me here what i would have said)

Now I know you don't like me in that way, I would never expect that of you.

But I do want you to feel that way.

So I want you to go out... On a date... with me sometime so that I can get to know you better.

I know love rarely comes at first sight and I'm not expecting it to.

But I'm nice, I really am despite how I come off some time, so I just want you to give me a chance.

9:48pmClark

Now unfortunately the whole thing didn't go as planned, and so I was left with a feeling wondering why things like this happen. So here goes:

It Seems like everyone wants what they can't have in High School. I suppose everyone always wants what they can't have. People alone long for friends. People With Friends want boyfriends and girlfriends. People with stability want passion and yet people with only passion find themselves feeling empty and alone. Is being content mean that we have simply given up in life, that we have resigned ourselves to float aimlessly in the Vast Machine?

I believe that the only way to be truly happy is to take this cycle backwards. (At this point I comment that this is what I should write songs about as I have writers block when it comes to lyrics)

Those who yearn for the excitement of short days and long night should take joy in being able to wake up next to someone they care about and cares about them. Those of us who surround and shield themselves with friends and social gatherings should enjoy the solidarity of just a cup of coffee and a paper and pen.This is not a call for us to scramble for lovers to take to bed. This a work order for a suburban home with a white picket fence built from out love the beauty around us.

However it is that very same love that must remain separate from this great circle of soon-to-be-inverted lust. For out desire to love must remain ever heart wrenching as it is through that love that we can truly enjoy all of life, from the bitterness of the coffee we drink when we journal to the concrete villages that we reside in. Ans even enjoy the pain that comes from a love unrequited because, above all else, it is through our love that know that we are alive.

-Clark

cgrinker

United States3824 Posts

September 25 2008 04:44 GMT

And again I'm sorry about my forum bm.

yubee

United States3826 Posts

September 25 2008 04:45 GMT

oh my gosh dude seriously, don't worry about chill, he's a big old wet blanket

if you're gonna make a bad thread just tell them you're with me so they think it's all good

Durak

Canada3685 Posts

September 25 2008 04:49 GMT

I can see why Chill would have closed your post if you put this in the strategy forum.

Grobyc

Canada18410 Posts

September 25 2008 04:50 GMT

On September 25 2008 13:45 yubee wrote:
oh my gosh dude seriously, don't worry about chill, he's a big old wet blanket

if you're gonna make a bad thread just tell them you're with me so they think it's all good

hey best buddy, there's this one mod that is going to..
+ Show Spoiler +

nah i'd never do anything to make a mod mad at me

i hope

you got my back, right yubee?

HeavOnEarth

United States7087 Posts

September 25 2008 04:53 GMT

lol i've had like 10 of my threads closed
take it as a learning experience ;O

I know that there already is the "find a BW player in your area" fourm but I was looking to see if any of you go to The Evergreen State College as there is a killer firewall and my attempt to get good at BW has been stonewalled, if you wil pardon the pun

If not then I think I will ask the SVGA (Student Video Gamer Alliance) to put on a tourny so that I can wail on people

O.o chills response:

"I know there is always a thread for this. Knowing that, here is me ignoring that."

WHAT?

cgrinker

United States3824 Posts

September 25 2008 05:01 GMT

Oh don't worry none of you need to read the part or comment about how i poured my heart out to a bunch of BW players on the internet

yubee

United States3826 Posts

September 25 2008 05:05 GMT

On September 25 2008 14:01 cgrinker wrote:
Oh don't worry none of you need to read the part or comment about how i poured my heart out to a bunch of BW players on the internet

funkie

Venezuela9376 Posts

September 25 2008 05:13 GMT

pussy.

SiegeTanksandBlueGoo

China685 Posts

September 25 2008 05:27 GMT

#10

I find it somewhat weird that none of my strategy forum posts are ever closed, but like half my blog posts get closed.

I guess Chill is a nice guy after all.

Seriously though, we don't give the guy enough credit.

a) he has to stand moderating morons that go like, " [H] MASS QUEEN VIABLE AGAINST MM?!?@2123"
b) he is great at casting VoDs. Great
c) is Canadian. Come on, gotta show some love for our northern neighbors.

Agavond

448 Posts

September 25 2008 05:50 GMT

#11

Chill: "I know there is always a thread for this. Knowing that, here is me ignoring that."

WHAT?

HAHA

That was a nice entry although very emo and that's going around this whole week in TL. I didn't really learn anything from this thread just that you're a passionate person.

Not_Computer

Canada2277 Posts

September 25 2008 05:57 GMT

#12

I would totally use mass queens vs mm if the option came up, lol.

I wrote half a page on your blogs content, but love is too complex and sensitive of a topic for me to venture into. All I can really say is: don't worry about it, life goes on whether you want it to or not.

distant_voice

Germany2521 Posts

September 25 2008 05:59 GMT

#13

since when is Chill perceived as a new Rekrul? that's rediculous...

sqwert

United States781 Posts

September 25 2008 06:24 GMT

#14

ill tell you what i heard my girl friends said in front of me: you're looking in the wrong place.

Ilvy

Germany2445 Posts

September 25 2008 06:57 GMT

#15

Haha yubee you are sooooooooo handy

LemOn

United Kingdom8629 Posts

September 25 2008 09:26 GMT

#16

Love... wtf is that

Haven't felt it since High School (I mean in my sober state), and since I have started to live alone two years ago I can't even imagine waking up next to the same person every day the whole year, yuk. This should come when I am thirty or something.

But I wish you have fun with your turbulent times, you are young and a couple closed threads in emotional distress never hurt anybody (same can be said about those threads made when TL members are drunk or high, it is the same principle).