you want something, you search for something because your will demands it.
it, is like a batery (a 4v one for the sake of the argument
), fully charged at birth, empty when you die.
currents (wills intensity) and voltages (wills power) dictates ones personality.
all personality types have something in common: their depletion/deterioration with age is inevitable.
youth exuberance (batery fully charged) , middle life complacency (battery half charged) and old age senility (almost empty batery). the 3 steps in which ones life decays.
you're entering stage 2. in this stage your solitude (apears when you realise that something is now missing) must be appeased both socially and personally. your weakened will drives you to search a fallback plan. since you can't recharge yourself you try to artificially up your value by association with other (group of) people which share your interests, ideas, views, opinions (2 half dead bateries are as good a a new one).
so, you're searching for appartenance to something, to an idea (a greater than you idea) shared by a group of people ( it can be about science, religion, sexual fulfillment, family or job related activities etc ). it is here where all goes to shit.
in theory it should work: with your innate resources (batery) 50% depleted you search for another means of sustainability. strength in numbers should work. a bunch of people ralied to an ideea are stronger then a lonely person doing the same. (2v + 2v =4v) gg, you're a new and better man. (in theory).
now, if you apply that to real life, all goes to hell. i'll take a random 'idea' (since some of you in this thread mentioned religion i'll go with that).
Jehovah's Witnesses, the concept of it it's based on one mans idea. ideally, all followers should understand, follow and uphold that idea because it defines them as a group (it makes them special). the truth is none of them does. the concept that should unite them died with the man who created the sect. so now you have a bunch of unconnected people who are desperately trying to cling to something that is not there and never will be. it's something like this: if i say 'star' one thinks of a star in the sky, another thinks of the stars on some general shoulders; if i say 'heart' , one thinks of the 350grams of flesh that pumps the blood, another thinks of the soul of a person. the point is that they do not understand each other and never will.
it's all bullshit: socialisation, affiliation, adheration, pornification...
they are all artificialy created addictions to facilitate the passing between the 2nd and 3rd stage of life (in which you don't care anymore). a mind booze, destined to make you and keep you dizzy until the middle life crisis hits. after that it's all down hill.
you basically have 2 choices: walk the lonely road of an arbitrary perceived reality or trade your soul for a few more years of ignorance. for some that is not even a choice since the end it's the same for us all: "/j the void".
(it's short, i know
)
EPT
