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TelecoM
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States10682 Posts
March 23 2014 17:37 GMT
#1
January 17th, 2014, seemed like the beginning of any other day, except for the nightmares I had prior to this day, I thought they were just normal nightmares though that I always have, not insight into the future....

at 10:00 AM I was abruptly awoken by a loud banging on the back door, and the screaming of Pittsburgh Police department, ( BANG BANG BANG ) " PITTSBURGH POLICE OPEN UP " , a few more bangs and the door was down, at this time I panicked and threw my book bag into the air duct and just sat there on my bed, once I realized that they had guns drawn, I entered the doorway and just held my hands up in preparation of being arrested, and hoping to not get shot.

I knew at this point that it was all over, all the money I had saved, and all the weed I had earned, whether it was right or wrong, only god can truly judge a man. I had been living with my room mate for almost a year now, and I had always promised him that if anything happened that I would give myself up so nothing would happen to him.

Shortly after the police came in they saw I had StarCraft on my monitor, and immediately started ridiculing me, "HEY JOHN YOU WERE SPOT ON, THE KIDS A NERD, LOOK HES GOT DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS ON HIS COMPUTER " lol...meanwhile I was in my boxers with my dick hanging out, handcuffed, after awhile they let me put my clothes on and the fat, head arresting officer sat me down on my chair and started asking me questions, I just openly admitted to selling the weed and it was mine so my room mate wouldn't have to recieve any punishment, and I would accept the whole responsibility of my actions, I was caught off gaurd, with everything on me at once, it was my fault.

The cops were like " Give us everything you have, we will find it anyways " , as much as I hated to do this, they were right, so I just told them where my shit was, they went and grabbed it, opened it up and found 8 ounces of good weed, here where I live totaled 2 + grand , the money they took which was 1,530$, they probably just split amongst themselves, along with the weed. The "receipt" they left on the counter when they left only said " Large amount of marijuana, and Large amount of US Currency" , so i'm pretty sure they took and split both money and weed among themselves, if not who knows and whats it matter.

Once they found all the weed they seemed upset like, " What the hell is this? Where is all the heavy drugs? " I told them that, that they got everything I owned.

It was not the wisest decision, but possibly the most noble I thought at the time....I had chosen the wrong path to go down, high on weed 24/7 and trying to survive the best way I knew how to, whether it was legal or illegal. Before all of this happened I thought I had it all, nice apartment, nice computer, beautiful girlfriend, as much spending money as I could ever ask for, ordering takeout and buying shit for me and my girlfriend all the time. I thought I had it made in the shade...but no, it was basically like a mirage.

Then the arresting officer brought me to interrogation, asked me all kinds of stupid ass questions, basically just trying to get me to snitch on people, but people I don't even know about. He didn't even seem to care about the weed, just kept asking me about people who do heavier things, "You smoke weed, so you must know people who do or sell herione and pills", "No" I replied, then he went through my whole phone asking me who people are, after just repeating " Thats a friend" "Another friend" about 15-20 times, he said "Ok we are getting no where with this, I am going to bring you to jail, and save my number into your phone, I want you to give me a call whenever you figure out more, when you get out of jail, since it was your first offense we are not going to be able to hold you for a long time, and because it wasn't at least 2 LB's of weed.

So then he brought me outside, met another cop and brought me to jail. It was all very surreal but I wasn't very surprised or upset about it, due to the dreams / nightmares I had the few nights prior to this about police, I already knew this was coming.

The cop that drove me to jail was the only nice cop I had met, I asked him " So how long have you been a cop?" on the way to the jail, just trying to be polite lol, he responded " a long time " , so then as we were pulling up to the jail he asked " What did you get caught with son? " , I told him a half pound of weed and he said , " Oh thats it? You will be out tonight most likely ", which was about the only positive reinforcement I had received since this happening.

Sitting in jail for 10 hours again was all the time I needed to realize that I wasn't going down the right path, and I had to make a drastic change. All of the people who used to be "friends" don't even talk to me anymore, but the few people I still have left stayed true to me, and also my girlfriend who has helped me a lot.

So now after almost 2 months of not being online, or playing StarCraft, since all of this happened I have just been working FULL-TIME, for the first time in my life, I have worked in many restaurants before, but never full time. I have worked at this place since Jan. 28th, and this past wed. I had an interview at BNYMellon, which is a nice bank here in Pittsburgh, doing data entry, the Interview I was a little nervous about, but I scored a 98% on the actual test, and a 96% on the practice test, both of which I completed within 5 minutes. The lady administering the test even was surprised at how fast I completed it , and the accuracy which I displayed. (Playing Star Craft for 10 + years paid off Im hoping ) .

Now I am back online , my computer is set up at my GF's house, and she 100% has nice enough internet to play and stream, at 20/10 + MBPS, download / upload speed, I will finally be able to play and stream again. I have never really realized how important this game , the community, and my computer is to me, but after all of this bullshit, I do now, I do.

After going to court, I agreed to the plea agreement I'm guessing it is called, where they dropped the felony charge of possession with intent to deliver, and kept the 2 misdemeanors for 3 years non reporting probation.

I am doing my best to stay sober, which is very hard for me to do, since I am a habitual stoner, but I am doing my best. I have been wanting and thinking of writing this blog now for over a month, to explain to the people who will listen to what I have to say, explaining why I have been the way I have been, and why I will be the way I will be in the future....

A different man....An honest man....I will be playing and streaming a few nights a week, and when I say streaming, I don't mean how I used to stream ( Turn on stream, smoke weed, play a game or two, smoke more weed, and in a continuation keep doing the same thing ) , I will be actually streaming and focusing on the game, to improve, and see if I can finally post some positive results for myself. If not then I will still enjoy playing the game and hopefully having a few viewers.

Thank you for reading, and thank you if you have supported me in the past, thank you if you will support me in the future.

- Joey aka : Telecom ........

Time to be born again



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AKA: TelecoM[WHITE] Protoss fighting
Birdie
Profile Blog Joined August 2007
New Zealand4438 Posts
March 23 2014 18:37 GMT
#2
I hope things work out well for you man If you need a practice partner let me know on Skype.
Red classic | A butterfly dreamed he was Zhuangzi | 4.5k, heading to 5k as support!
y0su
Profile Blog Joined September 2011
Finland7871 Posts
March 23 2014 19:15 GMT
#3
Crazy stuff! Had a friend go through something similar. Glad to hear you getting legit. Best of luck and glad you have some true friends.
-StrifeX-
Profile Blog Joined April 2007
United States529 Posts
March 23 2014 19:58 GMT
#4
Good Luck in your future.
BigFan
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
TLADT24920 Posts
March 23 2014 19:59 GMT
#5
Good blog, 5/5! Good to hear that you are changing your path and that things are working out. Best of luck!
Former BW EiC"Watch Bakemonogatari or I will kill you." -Toad, April 18th, 2017
Calanthe
Profile Joined October 2012
United States145 Posts
March 23 2014 20:48 GMT
#6
Daaaaaaaaaaaaamn. Sounds super rough - I'm glad you had a moment of clarity while you were sitting in jail. Some people can do the dealer thing for a long, long time and never get into trouble with it. They tend to be really skeevy individuals.

I'm super glad you got the felony dropped and non-reporting probation. Are they still gonna drug test you?
my heart's the bitter buffalo
pebble444
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
Italy2498 Posts
March 23 2014 21:02 GMT
#7
glad to hear things worked out ok from that. GLHF a new exciting adventure!
"Awaken my Child, and embrace the Glory that is your Birthright"
ReachTheSky
Profile Joined April 2010
United States3294 Posts
March 23 2014 21:34 GMT
#8
U got This Joey Caca
Good to know your still alive brotha. Take care
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chadissilent
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
Canada1187 Posts
March 23 2014 22:51 GMT
#9
Hahaha, you're still the same sociopath loser you were 4 years ago. I give it 6 months before you fall back into old habits.

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EJK
Profile Blog Joined September 2013
United States1302 Posts
March 23 2014 23:02 GMT
#10
the first couple months are the worst. Then it just dulls on you and stays in the back of your head nagging before it actually goes away and you can fully move on with your life.

I was in the same shoes as you were except i only got kicked out of school coz i was a student and I got to keep my stash of money thankfully, but it was rough to see all my stash + equipment go to waste
Sc2 Terran Coach, top 16GM NA - interested in coaching? Message me on teamliquid!
hp.Shell
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
United States2527 Posts
March 23 2014 23:18 GMT
#11
Very good story, seems like it has a good ending.... Best I can say is just go cold turkey as far as you can. Good luck!
Please PM me with any songs you like that you think I haven't heard before!
JohnChoi
Profile Blog Joined December 2007
1773 Posts
March 23 2014 23:32 GMT
#12
i swear i read a blog a while back about how like.. you paid off your cable bill and had internet and stuff?
im surprised you were able to get a job with a pretty recent record though. that's pretty amazing.
blarkh
Profile Joined December 2011
Austria72 Posts
March 24 2014 00:29 GMT
#13
Good luck! I hope you make it all the way!
iamho
Profile Joined June 2009
United States3347 Posts
March 24 2014 02:07 GMT
#14
Sounds like you're still trying really hard to make yourself seem the victim here.
Jeka
Profile Joined May 2010
United States61 Posts
March 24 2014 02:33 GMT
#15
You are a smart person. Nothing else.
"The God of War hates those who hesitate."
docvoc
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
United States5491 Posts
March 24 2014 03:07 GMT
#16
Kill it dude, make life count from now on.
User was warned for too many mimes.
dRaW
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
Canada5744 Posts
March 24 2014 05:57 GMT
#17
nothing wrong with weed, illuminati doesn't want you to see what reality is. + Show Spoiler +
Alcohol is 100x worse but legal, marijuanna is just a drug that isn't pharmacy sold which is why it's illegal. Many pills/drugs you can get at a hospital are also much worse
I don't need luck, luck is for noobs, good luck to you though
bo1b
Profile Blog Joined August 2012
Australia12814 Posts
March 24 2014 06:25 GMT
#18
On March 24 2014 14:57 dRaW wrote:
nothing wrong with weed, illuminati doesn't want you to see what reality is. + Show Spoiler +
Alcohol is 100x worse but legal, marijuanna is just a drug that isn't pharmacy sold which is why it's illegal. Many pills/drugs you can get at a hospital are also much worse

Can we see the steady decriminalisation of marijuana as the common man beating back the illuminati? Or is this just a distraction while they remove evidence of other wrong doings?
Plexa
Profile Blog Joined October 2005
Aotearoa39261 Posts
March 24 2014 08:51 GMT
#19
Good luck man I'm glad that there are some good people around you to help you sort things out.
Administrator~ Spirit will set you free ~
amazingxkcd
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
GRAND OLD AMERICA16375 Posts
March 24 2014 08:59 GMT
#20
So....

when will be your next freestyle video being released?
The world is burning and you rather be on this terrible website discussing video games and your shallow feelings
]343[
Profile Blog Joined May 2008
United States10328 Posts
March 24 2014 09:42 GMT
#21
Good luck! Even though I only knew you as "that BM guy who had some grudgematches," I'm glad you've turned your life around and hope you can maintain it
Writer
EndingLife
Profile Blog Joined December 2002
United States1597 Posts
March 24 2014 11:23 GMT
#22
Yeah I don't think marijuana was the problem here. I smoke an ounce every week or two.
HackBenjamin
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
Canada1094 Posts
March 24 2014 14:44 GMT
#23
Good luck Telecom, glad you're back.
sabas123
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
Netherlands3122 Posts
March 24 2014 15:58 GMT
#24
good luck man
The harder it becomes, the more you should focus on the basics.
JacobShock
Profile Blog Joined April 2012
Denmark2485 Posts
March 24 2014 23:39 GMT
#25
it's ridiculous weed is illegal. nice blog.
"Right on" - Morrow
Master of DalK
Profile Blog Joined June 2012
Canada1799 Posts
March 25 2014 04:07 GMT
#26
GLHF yo. Glad to know that you're not trying to go back to the underground lifestyle ^_^
@MasterDalK | Maelstrom Entertainment | Streaming Every Esport Under the Sun
TelecoM
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States10682 Posts
March 25 2014 19:55 GMT
#27
To answer questions, I don't know if I will be drug tested honestly, I hope not. I did this wrong path for a very long time, since like middle school and I am now 26 so you can do the math...I am not trying to " make myself out to be the victim " , but I understand where that would come from....I do kind of feel victimized as I have been down the wrong path for a very long time, and I honestly didn't feel like there was anything wrong with weed, but I guess I was and am wrong.

I have not been the most well mannered player in the community, and I haven't been a saint, but I feel that the one constant in the world is change, and anyone can change. Obviously it will not be easy for me, but like the Koreans say....

Impossible is nothing.....

Thank you everyone for your positive reinforcing comments, it has really helped me a lot to see the support.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to the people who still have offered kind advice during these hard times for me, I really appreciate it.

May God bless you all ( or whatever you believe in )
AKA: TelecoM[WHITE] Protoss fighting
castleeMg
Profile Blog Joined January 2013
Canada777 Posts
March 26 2014 06:58 GMT
#28
fuk da police
AKA: castle[eMg]@USEast/ iCCup
EndingLife
Profile Blog Joined December 2002
United States1597 Posts
March 26 2014 20:53 GMT
#29
On March 26 2014 04:55 GGzerG wrote:
To answer questions, I don't know if I will be drug tested honestly, I hope not. I did this wrong path for a very long time, since like middle school and I am now 26 so you can do the math...I am not trying to " make myself out to be the victim " , but I understand where that would come from....I do kind of feel victimized as I have been down the wrong path for a very long time, and I honestly didn't feel like there was anything wrong with weed, but I guess I was and am wrong.

I have not been the most well mannered player in the community, and I haven't been a saint, but I feel that the one constant in the world is change, and anyone can change. Obviously it will not be easy for me, but like the Koreans say....

Impossible is nothing.....

Thank you everyone for your positive reinforcing comments, it has really helped me a lot to see the support.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to the people who still have offered kind advice during these hard times for me, I really appreciate it.

May God bless you all ( or whatever you believe in )

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