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I cried today.

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Dewski
Profile Blog Joined February 2013
United States68 Posts
January 02 2014 03:58 GMT
#1
My brother committed suicide in September.
I was too scared to see any photographs of him.
I've been angry the last four months because of what he did, how insensitive it was, and how much it hurt my family.

But today I realized something.
And I cried for the first time today.

**
"Others don't understand because I train every day of my life as they have never trained a day in their's." Александр Александрович Карелин
EJK
Profile Blog Joined September 2013
United States1302 Posts
January 02 2014 04:15 GMT
#2
...what did you realize?
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itsjustatank
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
Hong Kong9154 Posts
January 02 2014 04:51 GMT
#3
i am sorry for your loss
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[MD]Frostbite
Profile Blog Joined May 2012
Canada292 Posts
January 02 2014 05:01 GMT
#4
On January 02 2014 13:15 Smurfett3 wrote:
...what did you realize?

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29 fps
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
United States5724 Posts
January 02 2014 05:04 GMT
#5
On January 02 2014 13:15 Smurfett3 wrote:
...what did you realize?


i guess we'll have to wait until part 2
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docvoc
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
United States5491 Posts
January 02 2014 05:19 GMT
#6
On January 02 2014 13:15 Smurfett3 wrote:
...what did you realize?

Probably that he loves him.
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MightyAtom
Profile Blog Joined June 2004
Korea (South)1897 Posts
January 02 2014 06:00 GMT
#7
thanks for sharing something so important.
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QuanticHawk
Profile Blog Joined May 2007
United States32055 Posts
January 02 2014 07:03 GMT
#8
sorry man
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Alakaslam
Profile Blog Joined September 2011
United States17336 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-01-02 07:57:29
January 02 2014 07:55 GMT
#9
I cannot rate this blog.

I am sorry... Such things are inexplicable.

Edit: I'm coming from having attempted years back, and don't know what to say.
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BLinD-RawR
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
ALLEYCAT BLUES50121 Posts
January 02 2014 08:31 GMT
#10
I am sorry for your loss.
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Chairman Ray
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
United States11903 Posts
January 02 2014 09:13 GMT
#11
Sorry for your loss. I hope we can hear from you again. Most of us have never gone through anything like this before, so if you ever want to share your thoughts with us, we're open ears.
goody153
Profile Blog Joined April 2013
44125 Posts
January 02 2014 09:20 GMT
#12
sorry.
this is a quote
sabas123
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
Netherlands3122 Posts
January 02 2014 12:53 GMT
#13
i'm sorry for your loss
The harder it becomes, the more you should focus on the basics.
Kurumi
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
Poland6130 Posts
January 02 2014 13:19 GMT
#14
Your brother shall always live within you.
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radscorpion9
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
Canada2252 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-01-02 17:43:09
January 02 2014 17:41 GMT
#15
If he was a deeply depressed person, don't be angry that he took his own life. You should find at least some comfort in that he found peace in death, and an end to his suffering. I really don't want to be offensive here, and I know that anger is a common response to someone who ends their life, as is claims that that person is selfish and doesn't care about his family. But that kind of attitude is actually, and ironically, one of the most selfish claims that can be made; that *his* life and *his* happiness don't matter, that he should have stayed alive in spite of it all just to keep his friends and family happy.

Good lessons can at least (potentially) be learned from even the most tragic of circumstances, and I think this is one of those cases. I hope you recover from your personal pain, but I also hope you learn to forgive and understand your brother for what he did.
Silvana
Profile Blog Joined September 2013
3713 Posts
January 02 2014 20:53 GMT
#16
On January 02 2014 18:13 Chairman Ray wrote:
Sorry for your loss. I hope we can hear from you again. Most of us have never gone through anything like this before, so if you ever want to share your thoughts with us, we're open ears.


This.
Heyoka
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
Katowice25012 Posts
January 03 2014 01:56 GMT
#17
Sorry to hear. Things will get better.
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