EPTSo there will be two parts to this blog. The first one will be why I felt like it was time for me to leave compLexity and then the second part will be talking about the next team I join and why (I think) it's the right fit for me. I'm not much of a writer and I'm just going to do this in one go but hopefully it's not too difficult to read :D.
So I guess there are a couple of reasons that made me decide to leave compLexity. The first and most important being that simply I've been very unmotivated for a while now in coL and I really just needed to shake it up. When I was told that I wasn't going to receive an invite to the first season of the WCS Premier league, and then subsequently failed in the qualifiers (losing to AxiomHeart 0-2 and AxiomCrank 1-2), I suffered a pretty bad blow to my motivation. Sure there was some other stuff to still practice for, but it's pretty demotivating when I considered myself one of the better NA players at the time (or at least deserving of an invite over some of the other people) and I knew I wouldn't be able to compete in the most important tournament in North America until at least the next season. QXC pretty accurately describes how I felt as a player in this video Slasher/Gamespot did at IEM NY at ~8:10 or so. Since that point my progress as a player has kind of stagnated, I would still practice pretty hard before significant tournaments or matches, but I haven't been practicing consistently which is what I think you need to be successful as a player.
The second reason is that compLexity as an organization seems to have a much different focus now from when I first joined, and are not as interested in SC2 as they were in the past. I felt like there was very little incentive for me to be motivated/active as a player. The current SC2 squad is really small now, and while I feel very close with all of them I felt that the little activity that goes on impacted my to maintain a serious mindset about being competitive.
The third reason is simply just a change in my current contract that pushed me into the direction of leaving. coL still wanted to support me but I felt with the current state of the team and my current state as a player that a change was needed anyway, and this just pushed me into the direction of leaving. coL has other very successful squads right now so it makes sense that they are focusing elsewhere and I can respect whatever decisions and directions they are headed in for the future.
As for the future, I plan to keep playing SC2 competitively. I do feel really motivated about SC2 right now (at least until I know WCS 2014 details
). For a long time now I've felt that it's very hard to judge my own value as a player, I'm really not sure how much people care about me in the scene at all or what my value is to a team, but I already do have some plans for where to go from here. I do think I've been very lazy in terms of making content to promote myself (blogs, streaming, etc.) and that is something I am planning to change, starting with this blog I suppose. I also may end up going back to school in January, but regardless I will keep playing SC2 for a very long time and I don't think it will hinder my play as I've never been someone to practice a ton anyway except when I was in the team house. Final thoughts! I would like to express my gratitude for the amount of support that complexity provided me with as I began my career as a starcraft 2 player. I literally went straight from school into the team house into going to every NA event while playing on a professional team, and I think it was a pretty awesome experience. I REALLY hope that when WCS 2014 is announced that it will bring a lot more interest from teams into SC2 (the ones that aren't interested currently at least). Anyway this took a lot longer then I expected to write but thanks for reading!
