Loving - Page 2

On June 13 2013 19:42 MarklarMarklarr wrote:
"What is hell? I maintain that it is the suffering of being unable to love."
- Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

I feel absolutely no love for any person I know. Now you might think I'd be all sad about that but I'm not. There was just graduation, and every person ended up crying except me when it came to saying goodbye to those one would not see any time soon. I just did not care enough about these people to actually feel love and that I would miss them.

I've started to think it could be because I've been reading much as of late, Dostoevsky, Proust, Patrick O'Brian and countless of other authors. When I read many of these books I felt great love for the authors and kinship to characters and moments they created.
But I've started to believe that friendships are so incredibly shallow, and to actually reach into a person deep enough to form any kind of bond, it seems impossible. And I walk around hoping no one notices that I care for them no more than any random stranger even tho I've known them for years.

Now I'm not depressed, it's just how can these people I meet even compare to the great minds of authors I'm reading? Any way, now I have to read hours every day to get through my week, and people around me get more boring by the day.

Maybe I should do some LSD

On June 14 2013 13:48 futility wrote:
You are the common denominator in every one of your failed relationships. You are not unique. You are not special. You are not better or above any of the people around you. For every great author and great work you've read a million more interesting stories have died with the seemingly average people who lived them. You can however take heart in the knowledge that everyone around you sees you in pricisely the same light as you see them. You are so quick to judge them without realizing most people have no interest in forming relationships with self-important, judgemental assholes. In that sense it's mutually beneficial that you think so highly of yourself as it saves the rest of us the trouble of dealing with you. Until you decided to share your drivel with team liquid that is.