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I won't go so far as to say I've led a difficult life so far. I have a loving family and everything I'd ever need in terms of food/clothing//shelter/amenities etc., but what I had to go through a few weeks ago was one of a few very difficult times in my life.
I just got back my term marks. I didn't do phenomenally, but I did alright. Considering what I had to deal with at the same time though I'm going to say I did fucking fantastic and I'm real proud of myself. See, the program I am in currently boasts its second term of second year as the hardest of the entire 4-year program. And from everything I've seen so far, they're entirely correct. In all my years of schooling (and trust me, there have been quite a few) I've never had to write 8 exams over a 13-day period. I wish I could say some of the exams and courses weren't difficult, but I can't say that either. On top of that, in my infinite wisdom I decided 'what better time to have my first child than right before the hardest semester of my life?'
A whole bunch of missed classes, failed midterms and sleepless nights later I managed to reach the final exam period. I've never lived alone before for an extended period of time so trust me when I say it was difficult for me to send my wife and 3-month-old child to live with her parents so I could concentrate and study like crazy for 3 weeks. (The first week I had a sinus infection to keep me company, so that was kinda nice.)
Somehow I made it through the lonely days and nights with nothing but some Skype calls and videos to tide me over while I studied until my whole body hurt from exhaustion. And when I say lonely, I mean LONELY. I sat in front of dual computer screens for 3 weeks with barely any human contact. I was constantly paranoid my kid would forget who I was (not that he really knows much now, heh) or that I'd miss some massive milestone. Somehow though I made it through and with help of maybe some divine (or professor?) intervention, I managed to pass all of my classes.
I've had other difficult times in my life, though each difficult for other reasons:
I've been incapacitated for weeks after illness and having major surgery,
I spent over a year with absolutely no direction in my life, horribly depressed and feeling inadequate.
I made it through those times and I made it through this one, and looking back I can say that each experience made me stronger in some ways, though I don't know where I'd be without the support of those around me who put up with all my shit: procrastination, gaming habits, negativity....
I'm not really sure where I was going with this but I think everyone who comes to TL to blog, maybe it'll sound like I'm privileged or I shouldn't be comparing myself to others, but I can't help but think that no matter how hard of a time you're having, know at SOME point you'll be able to look back after you've worked through it and see how it made you a better person.
+ Show Spoiler +Or maybe this is just a thinly veiled brag blog. FUCK YEAH I FUCKING PASSED ALL MY SHIT I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I DID IT
 
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Congrats on being a dad now! And FUCK YEAH YOU PASSED ALL YOUR SHIT! I have no idea how you did it either, and I don't give a shit if you are bragging and/or are more privileged than some and so don't deserve to vent or complain. Fuck that train of thought, congrats dude. You should high five your wife and baby.
5/5 because baby, wife, and a fuck yeah blog.
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4/5 for thinly veiled brag, +1 point for being a bro and a dad. Congrats  .
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Jesus! 8 exams in 13 days?!? And I was freaking out having three midterms in the same week. I cannot believe what you have gone through. I certainly hope my upcoming semesters are scheduled better. You da man! THE MAN!!
On top of that you're dealing with depression, surgery...this is just crazy. I don't understand how you're still alive. If I were you I'd probably be dead by now lol. Somehow though all this you have a wife and a kid too. Making me depressed lol, I'm so inferior
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On May 03 2013 12:41 docvoc wrote:4/5 for thinly veiled brag, +1 point for being a bro and a dad. Congrats .
Same here but replace "thinly veiled brag" with "not containing as many dick jokes as I figured from the title"
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On May 03 2013 12:49 radscorpion9 wrote:
Jesus! 8 exams in 13 days?!? And I was freaking out having three midterms in the same week. I cannot believe what you have gone through. I certainly hope my upcoming semesters are scheduled better. You da man! THE MAN!!
On top of that you're dealing with depression, surgery...this is just crazy. I don't understand how you're still alive. If I were you I'd probably be dead by now lol. Somehow though all this you have a wife and a kid too. Making me depressed lol, I'm so inferior
Well no I'm not dealing with all of that all at the same time! And no, you're not inferior at all. Believe me, half of the accomplishments people seem to have on this site (including being good at video games) make me feel inferior as well! The trick is to try not to compare yourself and just be proud of your own achievements and where they've gotten you.
As for the dick jokes....yeah now I regret not including any.
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Congrats. Seems similar to when I studied for the CA bar exam. Dunno if you'd call it a hardship though, just a pain in the ass to study (and fortunately I passed). Hardship is studying for all of that, then failing to the disappointment of your friends, family, and self (not to mention the job that was riding on performing well on the exam). I've got a good friend who lost his job and is on the verge of losing his relationship by this very predicament. Dunno if he'll be looking back on this time to see how it "made him a better person."
Sorry for sounding a bit negative, but sometimes hardships produce no benefit. You get fucked in the ass, and it's just that, you got fucked in the ass. And people who say the opposite are either naive or full of shit.
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On May 03 2013 14:34 PassionFruit wrote:
Congrats. Seems similar to when I studied for the CA bar exam. Dunno if you'd call it a hardship though, just a pain in the ass to study (and fortunately I passed). Hardship is studying for all of that, then failing to the disappointment of your friends, family, and self (not to mention the job that was riding on performing well on the exam). I've got a good friend who lost his job and is on the verge of losing his relationship by this very predicament. Dunno if he'll be looking back on this time to see how it "made him a better person."
Sorry for sounding a bit negative, but sometimes hardships produce no benefit. You get fucked in the ass, and it's just that, you got fucked in the ass. And people who say the opposite are either naive or full of shit.
I'm sorry to hear about your friend's experience, and I wish him the very best. For the record, I did go through something similar (without divulging too many details, an MSc that didn't....work out) which essentially led to my period of depression. Without this period of time I wouldn't have found what it was that I truly wanted to do with myself, though it took a fair amount of wasted time and money to do so. Eventually I'm sure your friend will find what he is looking for and what he needs whether it be 1 year or 10 years from now. It's not necessarily something he will be able to put into perspective at the moment during his tribulations.
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Congratulations dude!! :D :D
I have 7 exams to do in 11 days starting next week actually, but they're just moderately difficult 3-hour exams, probably nothing insane like yours :OO good to see you got through yo.
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That was an inspiring and good read. 5/5
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You're a winner and a very lucky man. Be glad you have it hard that way.
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