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Late at night: I do, I am watching IdrA's stream; a question floats into my mind: Who am I watching? I'm not a "fan" of him, not in regular terms for sure, his ego..., his disrespect... yet distinctivly I recognize an urge to watch him, view him, imerse in who he is...
He is not Gregory, he is Greg for everyone; First day of MLG's MvP broadcast, caption says "Greg Fields" under the smiley picture. I typed in comments: "shouldn't it be Gregory?" "it should" MLG replayed.
Today my bike was stolen. But it wasn't a bike, it was the bike (Axe commercial people!). I moved to Rotterdam with it, drove 11 hours in a fucking car at a motorway to get it here. It was the thing to have here: perfect bike lanes, swift gears, comfy seat, heaven, not a bike. Single best thing I brought here. And this night it was stolen.
I had gone to Student's orchiestra meeting, sat down in a corner, started writing a dialogue for my story, a difficult dialogue, betweem two conflicted characters; other students roughly at my age were playing the same concert they used to two weeks ago, when I had been at their first meeting.
So I came home by subway. In a dark mood. Fuck it. Fuck it I have classes tommorow, fuck it. Flash is playing this night in MvP. I'll stay. Hell yeah, I'll stay. Oh, one energy drink is left. I'll drink it, so I feel better. Loged to b.net, beat some zergs, then PvP, scouted proxy 2-gate, responded with 2-gate, fucker was killing me for 4 damn minutes! Then BMed me: - "BED MICRO" - "fuck you nigger" - my response.
At those times, you just gotta forget what person you are, a good person, not to blame yourself later for how you behaved, in a cricis in fact, but a cricis defines who you are...
Alted-Tabed from the game. TL. EGIdrA. Yeah... yeah, I'll watch IdrA solid, naive, macro play, his retro graphic stream, rage on people who fuck hell don't know to play. Because world is not nice; some f****** have stolen my Univega, some f****** are stealing his dreams, life, work, will to make an impact.
In that sense Greg is close to us, people who get fucked up by others. He represents the rage on world we have and later hinder it so people won't get scared of us. We want a leader who can proclaim our rage at world in which what's fair is an abstract. Our bosses, teachers, random "niggers" screw up our emotions to an extent we want to quit. And we do. But some stay. Greg is staying, he is streaming, and people watch and concive him as a Greg, not Gregory because he is just so close, just there, that similar.
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I don't even know what to say.
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uh well im sorry your bike got stolen?
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Bikes get stolen a lot in Rotterdam. Mine is a beauty with a big chain on it when I leave it somewhere (no more than 15 minutes mind you). The best you can do is get a cheap second-hand bike which sort of feels smooth.
I'm sorry for your loss.
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On October 09 2012 08:02 Desertfaux wrote: Bikes get stolen a lot in Rotterdam. Mine is a beauty with a big chain on it when I leave it somewhere (no more than 15 minutes mind you). The best you can do is get a cheap second-hand bike which sort of feels smooth.
I'm sorry for your loss.
yeah, i'll buy some second hand soon...
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5/5 Awesome story. Though not very awesome about the bike though.
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On October 09 2012 07:39 Baptista wrote: ... - "fuck you nigger" - my response...
Stopped after reading this.
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Yeah what's up with the racism? Had to rate it a 1/5 for that.
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On October 09 2012 08:24 MichaelDonovan wrote: Yeah what's up with the racism? Had to rate it a 1/5 for that. You think he meant it seriously? He got his bike stolen and was pissed and then someone cheesed him.
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On October 09 2012 08:24 MichaelDonovan wrote: Yeah what's up with the racism? Had to rate it a 1/5 for that.
I don't see any racism?
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truly yours, your biggest fan. This is Stan
... had to copy that one guy
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On October 09 2012 08:24 MichaelDonovan wrote: Yeah what's up with the racism? Had to rate it a 1/5 for that.
As if just using the word makes you racist. How to then discuss the issue? Anyway sorry for my selection of words, you can understand. I wish you had read the story to the end.
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On October 09 2012 08:17 grush57 wrote: 5/5 Awesome story. Though not very awesome about the bike though.
Thanks! Had to clear my mind somehow...
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When I initially scanned over the blog, I saw 'fuck it', 'Flash', and 'BED MICRO', and assumed that this was one of those homoerotic fan fiction things. The actual blog turned out to be almost as weird.
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On October 09 2012 08:32 SigmaoctanusIV wrote: truly yours, your biggest fan. This is Stan
... had to copy that one guy I still remember rofling after reading that.
As for this blog: wat.
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On October 09 2012 08:35 Suc wrote: When I initially scanned over the blog, I saw 'fuck it', 'Flash', and 'BED MICRO', and assumed that this was one of those homoerotic fan fiction things. The actual blog turned out to be almost as weird. :D
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wut. bike stolen, greg = gregory
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I don't know any Gregs that go by Gregory. Sorry about the bike .
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I like the writing style. Very akin to some things I write.
I'm sorry about your bike, I know what that's like.
You're... very articulate and elaborate. I like it.
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