Actually the first song out of my shuffle of my entire library.
As requested by Nickson among others, have a girlblog. For continuity's sake you can replace every "girl" with "boy" if you really like.
The ironic thing is that I don't have girl problems. The past year and a half or so I've chosen to live by the code that "girls are bad for me" and proceeded to friendzone all of them. I actually got into a conversation with a friend last night where we were thinking about before I moved to college, and she made a joke about how "wait, I was friendzoned more than you were"? Good times.
Instead I have #girlproblems.
Which bag do I wear, which shoes do I pick, do I want to buy a new watch...? + Show Spoiler +
(I don't know, I DON'T KNOW, and yes respectively)
But I still wonder sometimes why I threw it all behind. I had great relationships with people now 2000 miles away, and though I would have been maybe 50 miles south at UCSD I could have still kept in touch.
The starcraft in me made me go all in. Move to Illinois, start with a friend count of 1...
Next song on my shuffle.... I love the weeknd but how appropriate
...and just start over.
But after I've left, I almost regret some things. I regret not taking advantage of the relationships I've formed and led toward "more than friends," as I look back apparently there were a few. At the same time though I've discovered the formula that works for me. Two out of three of my closest (female) friends had some form of involvement with me beyond friendship, but we left that behind and chose to pursue, in one case a purely platonic relationship (the bond of which I cannot believe is as strong as it is), and the other...
...in the other just a relationship where I can trust her with anything and everything absolutely because I know I'll always get the best advice, and for my part I can push her to do uncomfortable things for her benefit, because, well, I just seem to fit into that role for that person. Forgive the run on.
But there's a few more girls I could have been closer too. It's probably the result of just having hung out with only girls.... But filling this new role here at uni as "one of the guys" is still something I'm getting used to. I've gotten signs not to be just "one of those guys" though. Religion and spirituality aside, it seems that fate wants me to be as I always was. I'm to keep very passive and just let things happen. The challenge I have for myself is to ensure that I'm able to see the signs of when I can turn it into something good.
I've said this before. Though I seem to express the same things multiple times in multiple places, I do learn from it.
I'm not lying to you these are all shuffled.
So I mean. I'm trying to live as pure a life as I can. Not physically or in the usual ways... but in the sense that I want to keep things very basic. I'm focusing on school, focusing on friendships, focusing on spirituality. No time for any of this.
Just... What if? But no regrets. I don't have time for it.
So, what I'm hearing, generally is... you got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one?
That's not a bad thing. Having friends in the long haul is a lot better than a lot of ex-girlfriends. (It also means you probably won't have a baby mama.)
On October 02 2012 00:51 felisconcolori wrote: So, what I'm hearing, generally is... you got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one?
That's not a bad thing. Having friends in the long haul is a lot better than a lot of ex-girlfriends. (It also means you probably won't have a baby mama.)
Kinda.
Just one of those thoughts that popup late at night, that's what the blog's about. I'm quite (mostly) content actually.
Part about the the 3rd girl (one who you can tell about anything and you get to make her do what's good for her) got this many-year lurker to log in and just say that kind of girl beats almost anything in life. Never let go of her! <3
And props for focusing on important things, bitches can wait.
On October 02 2012 08:04 The Slothien wrote: Part about the the 3rd girl (one who you can tell about anything and you get to make her do what's good for her) got this many-year lurker to log in and just say that kind of girl beats almost anything in life. Never let go of her! <3
And props for focusing on important things, bitches can wait.
thank you so much
ill make sure to keep that in mind!
and ty haxx
On October 02 2012 07:04 Gene wrote: no straight up. i am a fan.
Dunno really, I'm a blog slut, I just enjoy reading blogs (yours included) for no particular reason. Just kind of simple and straightforward I guess, I can follow your thoughts and what you write is neither silly nor convoluted so yeah. In any event, blog writing and like scientific/professional/technical/author writing differ, don't sweat it
well i meant more with exactly that, the organization of thoughts and...content i dunno. this isnt my only blog so any improvement in one is an improvement all around.
but im glad it can be enjoyed.
please listen to the music though, i'm surprised at how accurate a representation it is of what i listen to. minus the 50cent and + kpop..... luv u tl
Ah I see, yeah that makes sense, and also I'll give your songs a listen~ hm can't really comment on them but I liked Hey Stephen :o Outside was also pretty good, sounded really... hm clean and professional. ....WHOA The Past, The Love, The Memory was an interesting song too! Good change of pace since most of my songs don't have lyrics or lyrics in a language I understand~
WAITWAIT I DO HAVE STANDARDS and definitely don't enjoy reading all or even most blogs, just....dunno, I won't be reading a blog and pick out things I dislike usually, just usually like to read them because they're interesting
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