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Bswhunter

Australia954 Posts

September 15 2012 11:08 GMT

Hey TL. Asked you guys a couple of weeks ago about being sad. Anyway it turns out I am definitely depressed.
I feel tried all the time, and shitty. The only times I feel geniunely happy and 'alive' is after feel very sad for a long period of time. Just this knowledge that to feel happy I have to feel suicidal puts a damper on me even when I am in a good mood.
Anyway by next month I will be prescribed anti-depressents. I believe the type I am taking is Zoloft.
This is slightly scary. I feel like my condition has not improved in the last few months. I don't even think I have changed over the last 4 years. I hate myself for not being able to change, for not being able to be happy. I hate myself for hating myself.

Anyway I've found that just reading about others going through depression helps. I don't know where to look though. The blog section of Teamliquid is suprisingly limited when it comes to this sort of thing.

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Shoutout to liquid_tyler. I completely understand why he might not have done so well recently. Being depressed is one of the most horrible things.

RogerX

New Zealand3180 Posts

September 15 2012 11:13 GMT

On September 15 2012 20:08 Bswhunter wrote:
Hey TL. Asked you guys a couple of weeks ago about being sad. Anyway it turns out I am definitely depressed.
I feel tried all the time, and shitty. The only times I feel geniunely happy and 'alive' is after feel very sad for a long period of time. Just this knowledge that to feel happy I have to feel suicidal puts a damper on me even when I am in a good mood.
Anyway by next month I will be prescribed anti-depressents. I believe the type I am taking is Zoloft.
This is slightly scary. I feel like my condition has not improved in the last few months. I don't even think I have changed over the last 4 years. I hate myself for not being able to change, for not being able to be happy. I hate myself for hating myself.

Anyway I've found that just reading about others going through depression helps. I don't know where to look though. The blog section of Teamliquid is suprisingly limited when it comes to this sort of thing.

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Shoutout to liquid_tyler. I completely understand why he might not have done so well recently. Being depressed is one of the most horrible things.

http://www.teamliquid.net/forum/search.php?q=Depression

One search is all you need really, its kind of a warm feeling that you're not by yourself in terms of depression by reading about others having the same problem as yourself.

Best of luck, bud.

jrkirby

United States1510 Posts

September 15 2012 20:06 GMT

Go and run. Every day. It's the only thing that really helps depression. If you don't run much, start by running maybe 2 miles a day. Then over the next couple weeks, ramp up the milage. Don't be lazy. Get out there and do it. You might think you hate it, but it's good for you. It generates natural painkillers and endorphins and all those phych drugs that your body needs. And exactly what your brain needs to stay sane. Do it every night before you go to sleep so you can't give yourself excuses like oversleeping.

Disclaimer: I'm not giving medical advice and I am not a doctor.

docvoc

United States5491 Posts

September 15 2012 20:33 GMT

Make sure to eat a LOT of Niacin (vitamin B3) and a lot of multivitamins. Take 2 a day if you have to. The anti-depressants will help (zoloft is a serotonin SSRI, rather than dopamine) but make sure you eat healthy, excersise and make sure to keep it up.

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