EPTBasically, if I could meet me a year ago, I'd probably punch me in the face.
So I came on TL, high from my string of victories against 10-APM, 6-gas 9-barracks bronze kids and felt like I was knowledgable about playing Zerg. It was so easy for me to win that clearly I must know some hidden secrets of Starcraft that had gone undiscovered before I came into the scene. I was going to write a blog about how good I was at Zerg, and everyone would see how good I was and how awesome my advice was, and BAM. I'd be a big name on TL, with more respect and more excuse to rub how awesome I was in peoples' faces.
A quick glance at any of my past blogs will tell you how that turned out. + Show Spoiler +
(Poorly)
My highest rated blog, and probably my only meaningful contribution thus far has been my musing on ladder anxiety; everything else has just been an attempt at proving my superiority to the raving masses and the 'noobs'.
Hell, I got to Platinum a while back and made a whine-blog about how kids were too easy to beat. It felt like the only thing preventing me from getting into GM was that I didn't play enough games to get my MMR that high. I look back and think "what the fuck was wrong with me?" and to be honest, I really don't know.
Then I started playing Diamond kids. That was a jarring transition, and I've gotta say I'm glad it happened. Losing as badly as I did has really kind of cemented in my mind the fact that I am a goddamn idiot.
My perspective has shifted, and I've realized that previously my opponents were just not as solid as I was in their mechanics or low-level decision making. I grasped the basics, and they did not. That was the sole reason I was able to win any games at all, nothing more. I wasn't some kind of starcraft genius, I was just somewhat competant at doing basic things and that was enough to win me games.
So I'm going to stop pretending I know what I'm talking about when it comes to strategy in this game and stop with my shitty "hao 2 play zerg liek a bawss" blogs. I'll come out with tiny blurbs or tricks I've started to use, maybe write about noteworthy games or noteworthy moments in games. You know, typical blog things.
But I'm going to try to cut out this arrogant horseshit and actually improve.
