EPTI took a much shorter time to recover than I thought I would from my last blog. Nonetheless I forget what I did the weekend after I got shot down and cut ties with Felicity...the weekend after that was pretty chill as well, just mentally sorting out some things and having a light hit out on the courts. Insert recount:
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So it was my friends bday this wkend, and I was pretty pumped as I hadn't seriously been out for a while. We ended up at a club. There was some trouble with shoes (there usually is, from my exp. Does anyone work as a bouncer? Why is shoes such a convenient excuse LOL)
So my friend was sorting out the bouncer, I walked in front and entered the club. I bumped into this girl that I knew, and she was with her group of friends. We started talking for a bit and then I left to join my friends, after I left the club I was wondering if I should have asked her to dance and taken her away from her friends...
My friend finally came in, unable to convince the bouncer to let his friends in. We searched in the see of people trying to find the rest of our group, walking to the outdoor area, the bar, the lounge...I remember feeling strangely calm and relaxed which doesn't make sense as the music usually gets me really pumped.
After dancing for a bit (I'm fucking hopeless lol) I saw another girl that didn't recognise me but I recognised her. Clubs being clubs, I couldn't get my point across. I was standing in the middle of the dance circle and I got dragged out by some dude in her group, presumably the alpha. I was pretty pissed then but I can have a laugh about it now. Its funny how much you learn by making mistakes.
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After a time of dealing with people (yesterday) I just need time myself, to think, to go through what happened, to relive it, to learn from it, to see what could be done better.
The question I have for all of you is - how do guys accomplish this? By blogging? By writing a list?
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