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NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-06-11 08:33:47
March 29 2012 07:44 GMT
#1


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Steglich
Profile Joined September 2011
Denmark282 Posts
March 29 2012 07:56 GMT
#2
Sounds to me like you need a girlfriend, or even just some friends to go out with.
NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 08:02 GMT
#3
On March 29 2012 16:56 Steglich wrote:
Sounds to me like you need a girlfriend, or even just some friends to go out with.

I still get laid when I feel like I need to. I have one close friend but I don't really feel the need to socialize with people =/
Maybe I'm a robot.
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
HoMM
Profile Joined July 2010
Estonia635 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-03-29 08:11:22
March 29 2012 08:10 GMT
#4
Oddly enough, your story kind of very much so reminds me of my own life. I don't think you need to change anything, if you enjoy your life as it is right now, keep enjoying it.
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scarper65
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
1560 Posts
March 29 2012 08:11 GMT
#5
On March 29 2012 16:56 Steglich wrote:
Sounds to me like you need a girlfriend, or even just some friends to go out with.

Those sound like fun. I wonder what having friends is like.
NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 08:14 GMT
#6
On March 29 2012 17:10 HoMM wrote:
Oddly enough, your story kind of very much so reminds me of my own life. I don't think you need to change anything, if you enjoy your life as it is right now, keep enjoying it.

I enjoy the technological side of it, when I have to go outside and converse with people though..it feels like a chore.


Those sound like fun. I wonder what having friends is like.

They constantly tell you to do things that are probably not a good idea and they eat your food without asking.
No good if you ask me.
My one good friend though, she's pretty swell. Doesn't eat my food OR drink my liquor without asking.
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
EngrishTeacher
Profile Blog Joined March 2012
Canada1109 Posts
March 29 2012 08:24 GMT
#7
lol wut.

I stopped reading at the part where you lied about sleep aids not working; unless you're not human, they fucking work on you. Period.

Try the different chemical classes; try varying dosages.

NO ONE is completely immune to benzodiazepines or most other hypnotics, what you're saying would be the equivalent to saying you're immune to heroin (in fact opioids are sometimes prescribed to people for sleeping aid purposes).

Yah, no one is immune to heroin, just like how you're not immune to sleep aids.

NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-03-29 08:34:48
March 29 2012 08:30 GMT
#8
On March 29 2012 17:24 EngrishTeacher wrote:
lol wut.

I stopped reading at the part where you lied about sleep aids not working; unless you're not human, they fucking work on you. Period.

Try the different chemical classes; try varying dosages.

NO ONE is completely immune to benzodiazepines or most other hypnotics, what you're saying would be the equivalent to saying you're immune to heroin (in fact opioids are sometimes prescribed to people for sleeping aid purposes).

Yah, no one is immune to heroin, just like how you're not immune to sleep aids.


If you're going to insult at least think carefully before you speak.
I haven't heard of anyone I know being prescribed benzodiazepines for Insomnia as the risk of addiction far outweighs the pros of using them. They were used in the past yes but newer forms have pretty much pushed Benzos out of the market due to the high risky for abuse.
I've taken Lunesta and Ambien and neither worked very well for me. I never said they completely don't do shit for me so I suggest you read before you spew venom. Try trolling someone elses blog, or better yet just don't be a complete smart ass to people you don't know.
Saying that a sleep aid like Lunesta works for everything is the most idiotic thing I've read today. Do your research before you talk out of your ass.

Lunesta makes you fall asleep, it doesn't keep you asleep though. I'd take it, pass out and wake up periodically throughout the night which was worse than just not sleeping.
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
Steglich
Profile Joined September 2011
Denmark282 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-03-29 08:39:53
March 29 2012 08:38 GMT
#9
On March 29 2012 17:02 NoctemSC wrote:
Show nested quote +
On March 29 2012 16:56 Steglich wrote:
Sounds to me like you need a girlfriend, or even just some friends to go out with.

I still get laid when I feel like I need to. I have one close friend but I don't really feel the need to socialize with people =/
Maybe I'm a robot.



I don't say this to be rude, but you need a life. I felt the same way a couple of years ago, nothing was important. I didn't give a fuck about anything. Until i made myself care, I went back to school, got back to socialising, got a new girlfriend, new friends, and the motivation to create a better future for myself.

EDIT: actually starcraft helped me on the way. I needed something to care about, starcraft was something I could learn and become good at. Something challenging.
FFGenerations
Profile Blog Joined April 2011
7088 Posts
March 29 2012 08:38 GMT
#10
you will start caring again when you run out of money ..
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NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 08:42 GMT
#11
On March 29 2012 17:38 FFGenerations wrote:
you will start caring again when you run out of money ..

That's an odd thing to say, just because I don't socialize doesn't mean I don't have a job =/
I can pretend like I care if it means I'm getting a paycheck every week.
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
bokeevboke
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
Singapore1674 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-03-29 08:57:10
March 29 2012 08:55 GMT
#12
My life is exactly the same. I'm looking for a way out of this, still don't have a solution, but I'm working on it. I think the cause is being too passive. You still care about your friends and relatives, want them to be happy, but you're too fucking lazy to do anything, you prefer to stay passive, and let everything flow on its own. You gotta stop this, change your mentality. My way of doing this is to improve my health, I want to be fit and active, build up self-confidence and make good impression, so that people start talking, trusting and listening to me. Then, its gonna be easier to socialize and so on.
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NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 09:00 GMT
#13
On March 29 2012 17:55 bokeevboke wrote:
My life is exactly the same. I'm looking for a way out of this, still don't have a solution, but I'm working on it. I think the cause is being too passive. You still care about your friends and relatives, want them to be happy, but you're too fucking lazy to do anything, you prefer to stay passive, and let everything flow on its own. You gotta stop this, change your mentality. My way of doing this is to improve my health, I want to be fit and active, build up self-confidence and make good impression, so that people start talking, trusting and listening to me. Then, its gonna be easier to socialize and so on.

The thing is I'm not really like that. Not that there's anything wrong with it.
I'm not lazy, I work hard 50+ hours a week. It's not that I'm lazy, I just don't think to even call anyone. It's not like I want to call or don't want to call, It just never even crosses my mind. My confidence is fine, If I feel like something needs to be said then I'll say it. I don't know, It's just kind of hard to explain I guess.
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
CPTBadAss
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
United States594 Posts
March 29 2012 09:09 GMT
#14
I had an incredibly hard time sleeping my freshman year in college. I found that for me, if I could manage to force myself to go the gym, it would help me sleep. Just like bokeevboke said. But the lack of sleep led me to feel shitty and start to withdraw myself.

It doesn't necessarily need to be going to the gym but maybe you should set little goals for yourself for IRL; like you might do in StarCraft. Like maybe going to the gym once. Or going for a walk outside, just to be outside.

Whatever you decide to do, you should come up with a plan and try and stick to it. Coming up with a few strats to help me sleep lead to the realignment of everything else in my life.

Good luck man.
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EngrishTeacher
Profile Blog Joined March 2012
Canada1109 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-03-29 09:26:18
March 29 2012 09:12 GMT
#15
On March 29 2012 17:30 NoctemSC wrote:
Show nested quote +
On March 29 2012 17:24 EngrishTeacher wrote:
lol wut.

I stopped reading at the part where you lied about sleep aids not working; unless you're not human, they fucking work on you. Period.

Try the different chemical classes; try varying dosages.

NO ONE is completely immune to benzodiazepines or most other hypnotics, what you're saying would be the equivalent to saying you're immune to heroin (in fact opioids are sometimes prescribed to people for sleeping aid purposes).

Yah, no one is immune to heroin, just like how you're not immune to sleep aids.


If you're going to insult at least think carefully before you speak.
I haven't heard of anyone I know being prescribed benzodiazepines for Insomnia as the risk of addiction far outweighs the pros of using them. They were used in the past yes but newer forms have pretty much pushed Benzos out of the market due to the high risky for abuse.
I've taken Lunesta and Ambien and neither worked very well for me. I never said they completely don't do shit for me so I suggest you read before you spew venom. Try trolling someone elses blog, or better yet just don't be a complete smart ass to people you don't know.
Saying that a sleep aid like Lunesta works for everything is the most idiotic thing I've read today. Do your research before you talk out of your ass.

Lunesta makes you fall asleep, it doesn't keep you asleep though. I'd take it, pass out and wake up periodically throughout the night which was worse than just not sleeping.


I don't want to devote too much time to you so I'll keep it short:

1. Anecdotal experience used in your argument. Strike 1.

2. Arguing semantics (not working ~= not really working). Strike 2.

3. Fabricating things I never said (saying that a sleep aid like Lunesta works for everything is the most idiotic...). Strike 3.

You need more sleep. Too bad you can't get any.

Edit:

Here, an edit instead of a reply since you are so defensive and mad to the point of failing comprehension. After reading your reply below, I can only wish you the best of luck in life. I'd normally write something like "you'll need it" here but I genuinely feel sorry for you especially considering your condition, so here it is; good luck.
NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 09:17 GMT
#16
On March 29 2012 18:12 EngrishTeacher wrote:
Show nested quote +
On March 29 2012 17:30 NoctemSC wrote:
On March 29 2012 17:24 EngrishTeacher wrote:
lol wut.

I stopped reading at the part where you lied about sleep aids not working; unless you're not human, they fucking work on you. Period.

Try the different chemical classes; try varying dosages.

NO ONE is completely immune to benzodiazepines or most other hypnotics, what you're saying would be the equivalent to saying you're immune to heroin (in fact opioids are sometimes prescribed to people for sleeping aid purposes).

Yah, no one is immune to heroin, just like how you're not immune to sleep aids.


If you're going to insult at least think carefully before you speak.
I haven't heard of anyone I know being prescribed benzodiazepines for Insomnia as the risk of addiction far outweighs the pros of using them. They were used in the past yes but newer forms have pretty much pushed Benzos out of the market due to the high risky for abuse.
I've taken Lunesta and Ambien and neither worked very well for me. I never said they completely don't do shit for me so I suggest you read before you spew venom. Try trolling someone elses blog, or better yet just don't be a complete smart ass to people you don't know.
Saying that a sleep aid like Lunesta works for everything is the most idiotic thing I've read today. Do your research before you talk out of your ass.

Lunesta makes you fall asleep, it doesn't keep you asleep though. I'd take it, pass out and wake up periodically throughout the night which was worse than just not sleeping.


I don't want to devote too much time to you so I'll keep it short:

1. Anecdotal experience used in your argument. Strike 1.

2. Arguing semantics (not working ~= not really working). Strike 2.

3. Fabricating things I never said (saying that a sleep aid like Lunesta works for everything is the most idiotic...). Strike 3.

You need more sleep. Too bad you can't get any.


You're a troll. You said sleep aids work for EVERYONE, I said the ones I've taken don't really do much for me. I elaborated by telling you what I've tried. how was I arguing semantics? Also, Anecdotal experience? go to any Medical office and ask if sleep aids work for everyone, also ask why they rarely prescribe Benzos anymore for Insomnia.
Do your research before you criticize me.
You have a superiority complex and quite frankly it's not an attractive feature in any human being. I suggest you take a dose modesty.
Did you really feel like you needed to come into MY blog and be rude? Really?
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
micronesia
Profile Blog Joined July 2006
United States24753 Posts
March 29 2012 09:35 GMT
#17
Have you read the thread/guide I wrote on TL for helping people with insomnia?
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FortuneSyn
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
1826 Posts
March 29 2012 09:46 GMT
#18
Maybe you have depression.
NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 10:05 GMT
#19
On March 29 2012 18:35 micronesia wrote:
Have you read the thread/guide I wrote on TL for helping people with insomnia?

I've read nearly every thread on TL and Reddit about Insomnia =/
Which one was yours again? Link appreciated and I'll let you know if I have.
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
cape
Profile Joined May 2010
United States142 Posts
March 29 2012 10:24 GMT
#20
It definitely sounds like you have depression. Should maybe look into it more.
micronesia
Profile Blog Joined July 2006
United States24753 Posts
March 29 2012 10:29 GMT
#21
On March 29 2012 19:05 NoctemSC wrote:
Show nested quote +
On March 29 2012 18:35 micronesia wrote:
Have you read the thread/guide I wrote on TL for helping people with insomnia?

I've read nearly every thread on TL and Reddit about Insomnia =/
Which one was yours again? Link appreciated and I'll let you know if I have.

http://www.teamliquid.net/forum/viewmessage.php?topic_id=95375

Although it cannot deal with all causes of insomnia, it is worth a read if you haven't read it yet.
ModeratorThere are animal crackers for people and there are people crackers for animals.
NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 12:43 GMT
#22
So it's 9am now and I haven't slept at all, I was busy all night packing. I'm now sitting at the airport waiting for 2 hours to get on a plane. The worst part is it's one of those tiny white knuckle air liners and it's only an hour long before my NEXT flight which only a few hours, followed by a third flight that's four hours.
Fml I'm not going to get sleep for 3 days straight it looks like, I have to unpack everything when I get to my destination across the country.
I'm running on nothing but coffee now, supplies low, I don't know if I can make it.
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
enslaved[t]
Profile Joined June 2011
Norway46 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-03-29 13:16:03
March 29 2012 13:15 GMT
#23
I recommend MDMA, I tried it once, and ever since I've become a lot more positive and social, and less introverted o.O

Here are some links if you are interested, or simply bored and need something to read.

http://thedea.org/letsroll.html
http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/mdma/mdma.shtml
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NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 13:39 GMT
#24
On March 29 2012 22:15 enslaved[t] wrote:
I recommend MDMA, I tried it once, and ever since I've become a lot more positive and social, and less introverted o.O

Here are some links if you are interested, or simply bored and need something to read.

http://thedea.org/letsroll.html
http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/mdma/mdma.shtml

MDMA is an amphetamine, it's an upper.
I already can't sleep, this would magnify it to an insane proportion.
Thanks for the suggestion though I guess.


Update:
The airport has coffee but no creamer or sugar, I guess I'm drinking black coffee. It's either that or passing out and missing one of my flights T-T
They changed one of my flights in Boston because the plane had a mechanical failure so I have a five hour layover now T-T
FML.
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
Schplyok
Profile Joined June 2010
64 Posts
March 29 2012 13:46 GMT
#25
On March 29 2012 22:39 NoctemSC wrote:
Show nested quote +
On March 29 2012 22:15 enslaved[t] wrote:
I recommend MDMA, I tried it once, and ever since I've become a lot more positive and social, and less introverted o.O

Here are some links if you are interested, or simply bored and need something to read.

http://thedea.org/letsroll.html
http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/mdma/mdma.shtml

MDMA is an amphetamine, it's an upper.
I already can't sleep, this would magnify it to an insane proportion.


Maybe it will but that's not all it does.
It might be beneficial if you have some sort of depression and insomnia as a side effect of that.

I can't say recommend it since I've never taken it, but you shouldn't reject it based on that.. Just saying.
NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 13:51 GMT
#26
On March 29 2012 22:46 Schplyok wrote:
Show nested quote +
On March 29 2012 22:39 NoctemSC wrote:
On March 29 2012 22:15 enslaved[t] wrote:
I recommend MDMA, I tried it once, and ever since I've become a lot more positive and social, and less introverted o.O

Here are some links if you are interested, or simply bored and need something to read.

http://thedea.org/letsroll.html
http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/mdma/mdma.shtml

MDMA is an amphetamine, it's an upper.
I already can't sleep, this would magnify it to an insane proportion.


Maybe it will but that's not all it does.
It might be beneficial if you have some sort of depression and insomnia as a side effect of that.

I can't say recommend it since I've never taken it, but you shouldn't reject it based on that.. Just saying.

I'm rejecting it because I'm not depressed and I have no intention of taking illegal substances.
Being numb is not the same as being depressed. I don't really hate anyone (I loathe a few but that's just because they're stupid)
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Shauni
Profile Blog Joined July 2004
4077 Posts
March 29 2012 16:36 GMT
#27
schizoid personality (disorder)
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NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 16:39 GMT
#28
On March 30 2012 01:36 Shauni wrote:
schizoid personality (disorder)

Your post is greatly lacking.
Care to elaborate?
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
docvoc
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
United States5491 Posts
March 29 2012 16:53 GMT
#29
If you have insomnia, then along with seeing a doctor, you should change your lifestyle, you should go lift weights and work out to waste energy, you should eat less carbs and more vegetables and proteins and calcium filled things. Substitute milk for soda and substitute water and juices for soda also. Also what you need is a girlfriend, not to get laid, you need someone to make you wake up so you feel the need to please and be pleased by someone. Also you should make a to-do list, everyday, not a habit, but a to do list on your calendar, it should look like this
1. make healthy breakfast, have a certain juice (i recommend acaii, it tastes really good in the morning, it is healthy and can replace orange juice)
2. write something you love doing, not on the internet, like a sport or something, and sign up for an intermural or a club to join for that
3. learn a new language or 3-d art, or psychology or something you can do in your free time i really suggest an art though.
4. Profit, doing all of these should make you more sleepy.

Finally i had the numbness you talk about, the only way that i found to get rid of it is time and its not a lost lust of life, its a lost feeling of what true happiness is. Thats why i say go get out and read the Game and The Rules of the Game by Neil Strauss and get a girlfriend that you love, it will change you, i promise.
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NoctemSC
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States771 Posts
March 29 2012 16:57 GMT
#30
On March 30 2012 01:53 docvoc wrote:
If you have insomnia, then along with seeing a doctor, you should change your lifestyle, you should go lift weights and work out to waste energy, you should eat less carbs and more vegetables and proteins and calcium filled things. Substitute milk for soda and substitute water and juices for soda also. Also what you need is a girlfriend, not to get laid, you need someone to make you wake up so you feel the need to please and be pleased by someone. Also you should make a to-do list, everyday, not a habit, but a to do list on your calendar, it should look like this
1. make healthy breakfast, have a certain juice (i recommend acaii, it tastes really good in the morning, it is healthy and can replace orange juice)
2. write something you love doing, not on the internet, like a sport or something, and sign up for an intermural or a club to join for that
3. learn a new language or 3-d art, or psychology or something you can do in your free time i really suggest an art though.
4. Profit, doing all of these should make you more sleepy.

Finally i had the numbness you talk about, the only way that i found to get rid of it is time and its not a lost lust of life, its a lost feeling of what true happiness is. Thats why i say go get out and read the Game and The Rules of the Game by Neil Strauss and get a girlfriend that you love, it will change you, i promise.

Good advice and I appreciate it.
Except the Girlfriend part. I am certainly not dating material right now, I'm not capable of caring for anyone very greatly right now and I doubt I will for a while, It wouldn't be fair to whoever I ended up dating.
http://www.twitch.tv/noctemsc <--Most epic fun times
enslaved[t]
Profile Joined June 2011
Norway46 Posts
April 04 2012 10:19 GMT
#31
I'm rejecting it because I'm not depressed and I have no intention of taking illegal substances.
Being numb is not the same as being depressed. I don't really hate anyone (I loathe a few but that's just because they're stupid)


Sorry for posting stupid advice, I misunderstood your blog somewhat. I thought you were depressed, and kept awake at night by thoughts racing through your head. Still thought, MDMA can be much more than just a simple upper, but since you clearly stated that you wont try any illegal substances I will refrain from elaborating ^^
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